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super long rant (read if you want, it's sort of rambling):
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so last year was absolutely awful for me. my cousin died, I went through some health issues, I got bullied a lot, and I lost all of my friends. I only have two friends now, but i'm not their best friend. i've never actually been anyone's #1 best friend and i'm in high school... I'm always the backup friend that's a second option. i'm never in the group chats, never invited to the parties, always ignored.
now the school year is starting and I have no classes with either of my friends. I know i'm going to see the people that bullied me last year and my old friend group (who are super rude to me still) and that makes me so nervous. teachers at my school don't really care if you get bullied so no one did anything to help last year, and i'm worried the same thing will happen this year.
i also have been working on my novel (which I had originally wrote with my old best friend) and it's been hard for me recently because I kept remembering all the crap she said to me about it and about myself. it's been hard for me to focus on it because of that. I want to finish it, I really do, but it's been so difficult. my parents are also forcing me to reach out to her about the story and tell her I rewrote it but I know she's just going to get mad and say a bunch of crap about me.
I wanted to do sports this year, but I had to decide not to because if I did, I would have to see my old friends. and if I saw my old friends, it's going to make me hate the sport. it's also going to be hard for me to do the play because all the people that bullied me are going to do it, and because neither of my friends can do it.
i'm incredibly introverted, and it's really hard for me to make friends. my parents keep saying stuff like 'oh just smile. talk to people. people aren't that bad' but to me it's super stressful. people at my school aren't nice. people at my school have said horrible things to me, and i'm not able to go through that again by following their advice.
since I have no classes with my friends, i'm worried i'm going to lose them. that's how I lost one of my old friends. they both have classes with each other, but since I won't be there too, i'm worried it's going to be a repeat of last year.
now the school year is starting and I have no classes with either of my friends. I know i'm going to see the people that bullied me last year and my old friend group (who are super rude to me still) and that makes me so nervous. teachers at my school don't really care if you get bullied so no one did anything to help last year, and i'm worried the same thing will happen this year.
i also have been working on my novel (which I had originally wrote with my old best friend) and it's been hard for me recently because I kept remembering all the crap she said to me about it and about myself. it's been hard for me to focus on it because of that. I want to finish it, I really do, but it's been so difficult. my parents are also forcing me to reach out to her about the story and tell her I rewrote it but I know she's just going to get mad and say a bunch of crap about me.
I wanted to do sports this year, but I had to decide not to because if I did, I would have to see my old friends. and if I saw my old friends, it's going to make me hate the sport. it's also going to be hard for me to do the play because all the people that bullied me are going to do it, and because neither of my friends can do it.
i'm incredibly introverted, and it's really hard for me to make friends. my parents keep saying stuff like 'oh just smile. talk to people. people aren't that bad' but to me it's super stressful. people at my school aren't nice. people at my school have said horrible things to me, and i'm not able to go through that again by following their advice.
since I have no classes with my friends, i'm worried i'm going to lose them. that's how I lost one of my old friends. they both have classes with each other, but since I won't be there too, i'm worried it's going to be a repeat of last year.
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Wow, Sage. That sounds very hard. Asan introvert myself with very few friends throughout my school years, I get what you are saying and it brings back all the memories. Going to school is just a very hard time, even without the learning part. It is very hard to lose your friends, and even harder to see them every time, as well as the people who bullied you. I can only give advice to try and stay connected to the people who are good to you, even if you don´t have the same classes. There are other ways to see each other, and as hard as that is, you have to reach out to them as well. Rhat is one of the things I learned in my time.Sage Willows wrote: 22 Aug 2024, 02:18 super long rant (read if you want, it's sort of rambling):
Reducioso last year was absolutely awful for me. my cousin died, I went through some health issues, I got bullied a lot, and I lost all of my friends. I only have two friends now, but i'm not their best friend. i've never actually been anyone's #1 best friend and i'm in high school... I'm always the backup friend that's a second option. i'm never in the group chats, never invited to the parties, always ignored.
now the school year is starting and I have no classes with either of my friends. I know i'm going to see the people that bullied me last year and my old friend group (who are super rude to me still) and that makes me so nervous. teachers at my school don't really care if you get bullied so no one did anything to help last year, and i'm worried the same thing will happen this year.
i also have been working on my novel (which I had originally wrote with my old best friend) and it's been hard for me recently because I kept remembering all the crap she said to me about it and about myself. it's been hard for me to focus on it because of that. I want to finish it, I really do, but it's been so difficult. my parents are also forcing me to reach out to her about the story and tell her I rewrote it but I know she's just going to get mad and say a bunch of crap about me.
I wanted to do sports this year, but I had to decide not to because if I did, I would have to see my old friends. and if I saw my old friends, it's going to make me hate the sport. it's also going to be hard for me to do the play because all the people that bullied me are going to do it, and because neither of my friends can do it.
i'm incredibly introverted, and it's really hard for me to make friends. my parents keep saying stuff like 'oh just smile. talk to people. people aren't that bad' but to me it's super stressful. people at my school aren't nice. people at my school have said horrible things to me, and i'm not able to go through that again by following their advice.
since I have no classes with my friends, i'm worried i'm going to lose them. that's how I lost one of my old friends. they both have classes with each other, but since I won't be there too, i'm worried it's going to be a repeat of last year.
As for sports or other hobbies, aren´t there new things you could try without all those people? I know starting over something new isn´t always easy, but it gives you the chance to meet more people, and maybe more people who get you and are friendly to you.
I wish you all the best, and hope it works out for you. If I could help in any way, I would. So I send you lots of love from here 🩵🩵🩵
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Awk Sage...Sage Willows wrote: 22 Aug 2024, 02:18 super long rant (read if you want, it's sort of rambling):
Reducioso last year was absolutely awful for me. my cousin died, I went through some health issues, I got bullied a lot, and I lost all of my friends. I only have two friends now, but i'm not their best friend. i've never actually been anyone's #1 best friend and i'm in high school... I'm always the backup friend that's a second option. i'm never in the group chats, never invited to the parties, always ignored.
now the school year is starting and I have no classes with either of my friends. I know i'm going to see the people that bullied me last year and my old friend group (who are super rude to me still) and that makes me so nervous. teachers at my school don't really care if you get bullied so no one did anything to help last year, and i'm worried the same thing will happen this year.
i also have been working on my novel (which I had originally wrote with my old best friend) and it's been hard for me recently because I kept remembering all the crap she said to me about it and about myself. it's been hard for me to focus on it because of that. I want to finish it, I really do, but it's been so difficult. my parents are also forcing me to reach out to her about the story and tell her I rewrote it but I know she's just going to get mad and say a bunch of crap about me.
I wanted to do sports this year, but I had to decide not to because if I did, I would have to see my old friends. and if I saw my old friends, it's going to make me hate the sport. it's also going to be hard for me to do the play because all the people that bullied me are going to do it, and because neither of my friends can do it.
i'm incredibly introverted, and it's really hard for me to make friends. my parents keep saying stuff like 'oh just smile. talk to people. people aren't that bad' but to me it's super stressful. people at my school aren't nice. people at my school have said horrible things to me, and i'm not able to go through that again by following their advice.
since I have no classes with my friends, i'm worried i'm going to lose them. that's how I lost one of my old friends. they both have classes with each other, but since I won't be there too, i'm worried it's going to be a repeat of last year.
If I may, I can kind of relate to what you're feeling; I am an incredibly anxious person - socialising isn't easy for me even on a good day and even phone calls petrify me, though I do get good moments where I am outgoing (kinda!). When I was in fifth year there was a big falling out between friend groups which I wasn't a part of but was constantly heckled to "choose sides." I was having none of that and have been pretty much running solo for the last 5 years. On the losing friends side of things, I know how lonely that can feel.
I unfortunately can't relate to the bullying side of things, but I have been teased in the past (I know that it probably means nothing compared to what you've gone through but it can all be tedious and annoying, to put it lightly.) All you can do is be the better person and ignore it. Reacting to it will only give them something to feed off of. Of course if it gets bad or is already bad, I'd report whoever's getting under your skin. And I know what you're thinking now that I've said it... But believe me that there's no greater satisfaction than being a naturally good person than the jerks that are hurting you (my friend even has a saying for this kind of thing but I'll not say it here... It's a bit sweary
) In terms of running into past friends, I completely get it... It's awkward and bitter in a way to cross paths with people that have diverged from each other. That's happened to me before and believe me... I've had moments where my temper nearly hit the roof because of past memories. But you wanna know what I do now? If I'm in the same room as them, I tune them out. If they talk to me? Make it short. If they pass me on the street? I either grab my phone, earphones (or both!) and I pound the streets, acting like I'm ruler of the world. You don't owe anyone anything, and while it takes time, you'll be ready to talk or confront them when the time comes. That is, if you wish to.
There's a lot more I could say, but I'm rambling myself! Don't forget you've got me, Brooke, Bailey, Scout... All of us! And my owls are always open if you need a pillow to scream into!
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sage!! first of all no one deserves to be treated that way! and secondly, you will make new friends and if you don’t just focus on your classes! if you’d like you could always do a sport, if you change your mind! *hugs*Sage Willows wrote: 22 Aug 2024, 02:18 super long rant (read if you want, it's sort of rambling):
Reducioso last year was absolutely awful for me. my cousin died, I went through some health issues, I got bullied a lot, and I lost all of my friends. I only have two friends now, but i'm not their best friend. i've never actually been anyone's #1 best friend and i'm in high school... I'm always the backup friend that's a second option. i'm never in the group chats, never invited to the parties, always ignored.
now the school year is starting and I have no classes with either of my friends. I know i'm going to see the people that bullied me last year and my old friend group (who are super rude to me still) and that makes me so nervous. teachers at my school don't really care if you get bullied so no one did anything to help last year, and i'm worried the same thing will happen this year.
i also have been working on my novel (which I had originally wrote with my old best friend) and it's been hard for me recently because I kept remembering all the crap she said to me about it and about myself. it's been hard for me to focus on it because of that. I want to finish it, I really do, but it's been so difficult. my parents are also forcing me to reach out to her about the story and tell her I rewrote it but I know she's just going to get mad and say a bunch of crap about me.
I wanted to do sports this year, but I had to decide not to because if I did, I would have to see my old friends. and if I saw my old friends, it's going to make me hate the sport. it's also going to be hard for me to do the play because all the people that bullied me are going to do it, and because neither of my friends can do it.
i'm incredibly introverted, and it's really hard for me to make friends. my parents keep saying stuff like 'oh just smile. talk to people. people aren't that bad' but to me it's super stressful. people at my school aren't nice. people at my school have said horrible things to me, and i'm not able to go through that again by following their advice.
since I have no classes with my friends, i'm worried i'm going to lose them. that's how I lost one of my old friends. they both have classes with each other, but since I won't be there too, i'm worried it's going to be a repeat of last year.
Come be Comforted! <3
Sage, sage. Oh dear that is horrible. No one deserves to go through such an experience.Sage Willows wrote: 22 Aug 2024, 02:18 super long rant (read if you want, it's sort of rambling):
Reducioso last year was absolutely awful for me. my cousin died, I went through some health issues, I got bullied a lot, and I lost all of my friends. I only have two friends now, but i'm not their best friend. i've never actually been anyone's #1 best friend and i'm in high school... I'm always the backup friend that's a second option. i'm never in the group chats, never invited to the parties, always ignored.
now the school year is starting and I have no classes with either of my friends. I know i'm going to see the people that bullied me last year and my old friend group (who are super rude to me still) and that makes me so nervous. teachers at my school don't really care if you get bullied so no one did anything to help last year, and i'm worried the same thing will happen this year.
i also have been working on my novel (which I had originally wrote with my old best friend) and it's been hard for me recently because I kept remembering all the crap she said to me about it and about myself. it's been hard for me to focus on it because of that. I want to finish it, I really do, but it's been so difficult. my parents are also forcing me to reach out to her about the story and tell her I rewrote it but I know she's just going to get mad and say a bunch of crap about me.
I wanted to do sports this year, but I had to decide not to because if I did, I would have to see my old friends. and if I saw my old friends, it's going to make me hate the sport. it's also going to be hard for me to do the play because all the people that bullied me are going to do it, and because neither of my friends can do it.
i'm incredibly introverted, and it's really hard for me to make friends. my parents keep saying stuff like 'oh just smile. talk to people. people aren't that bad' but to me it's super stressful. people at my school aren't nice. people at my school have said horrible things to me, and i'm not able to go through that again by following their advice.
since I have no classes with my friends, i'm worried i'm going to lose them. that's how I lost one of my old friends. they both have classes with each other, but since I won't be there too, i'm worried it's going to be a repeat of last year.
First, my condolences for your cousin. May he/she/they fly high. Secondly, I hope that your health issues have gotten better. That is a horrible ordeal to go through.
Next, I believe I kinda get you on this one. I am a huge introvert myself, finding it difficult to socialize with new people and make good friends. Once even, I lost almost all my friends, as I was bullied by half my class, the rest acting like bystanders. I was the backup friend in many cases, my so called “friends” leaving me alone when I really needed them.
Often, I had to choose sides. With whom I really wanted to be friends with when I just wanted to befriend everyone. When you work with the things you love, it might be a bit sad, having to remember all of these awful memories. You shouldn’t leave your life behind though. Keep your head up high. All the crap they tell you is just because they want to lower your value, no other reason. You deserve the best.
I hope things eventually get better. Life goes on. Follow your path, hold your head high. It will get better with time, I promise.
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Violeta Roux wrote: 23 Aug 2024, 17:42 read if you want it’s kinda super long
ReducioAm I a bad person? Am I a bad person because I want to jump of a building sometimes? Am I a bad person because I don’t have many friends? Am I bad person because I don’t talk much? Am I a bad person because I cry easily and get upset easily?
So im a sophomore and last year was horrible. Really horrible. I was in a very toxic friend group where everyone hated everyone, but now it was much better. At least I thought it was.
I swim in a swim club, and not at school, so I have a few friends there and they’re great and I love them, one of these girls goes to the same school as I do so this year I started having lunch with her and her friend group (actually this year and the last months of last year) and it’s been great, until today it wasn’t. One of these girls was also from the toxic group and I’ve always thought of her as a ‘friend’, well, actually a fellow student/colleague. Today she accused me of saying bad things about her and…. I didn’t. I don’t want to be the victim here, because im not. I said bad things about her before the group im currently in. I did.
There was a girl who had to change schools because she didn’t fit anywhere and was a pick me. I don’t want to be a pick me and I never liked this girl…. But sometimes we’re very similar.
So, when she said these things I got upset and cried. Because im an easy crier. I don’t know what to do. But I just needed to rant.
I do like my school, but sometimes I want to switch, but maybe next year…
Awww Violeta That's horrible. Maybe talk to your parent(s)/ guardian(s) about the hidden thing but hopefully you can get some more friends! You are loved! You are kind! You are enough!
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awww sageSage Willows wrote: 22 Aug 2024, 02:18 super long rant (read if you want, it's sort of rambling):
Reducioso last year was absolutely awful for me. my cousin died, I went through some health issues, I got bullied a lot, and I lost all of my friends. I only have two friends now, but i'm not their best friend. i've never actually been anyone's #1 best friend and i'm in high school... I'm always the backup friend that's a second option. i'm never in the group chats, never invited to the parties, always ignored.
now the school year is starting and I have no classes with either of my friends. I know i'm going to see the people that bullied me last year and my old friend group (who are super rude to me still) and that makes me so nervous. teachers at my school don't really care if you get bullied so no one did anything to help last year, and i'm worried the same thing will happen this year.
i also have been working on my novel (which I had originally wrote with my old best friend) and it's been hard for me recently because I kept remembering all the crap she said to me about it and about myself. it's been hard for me to focus on it because of that. I want to finish it, I really do, but it's been so difficult. my parents are also forcing me to reach out to her about the story and tell her I rewrote it but I know she's just going to get mad and say a bunch of crap about me.
I wanted to do sports this year, but I had to decide not to because if I did, I would have to see my old friends. and if I saw my old friends, it's going to make me hate the sport. it's also going to be hard for me to do the play because all the people that bullied me are going to do it, and because neither of my friends can do it.
i'm incredibly introverted, and it's really hard for me to make friends. my parents keep saying stuff like 'oh just smile. talk to people. people aren't that bad' but to me it's super stressful. people at my school aren't nice. people at my school have said horrible things to me, and i'm not able to go through that again by following their advice.
since I have no classes with my friends, i'm worried i'm going to lose them. that's how I lost one of my old friends. they both have classes with each other, but since I won't be there too, i'm worried it's going to be a repeat of last year.
-hugs-1stly, i am so sorry about your cousin; losing people close to you is really hard
2ndly, i can relate to the never been anyone's best friend. until.... about six months ago, that was very true for me. I had close friends when i was younger, people i called my best friend but now i'm the only one who reaches out, and it makes me wonder if i was just a convient friend, or if i did something wrong + they didn't want to stay close. covid played a part, i don't think it was any of our faults.
i am a senior, and it is hard having limited friends, especially with my best friend being younger, and living across the country.
i know it's scary, thinking you may loose friends especially when you have so few, but if they're true friends (even if you're not best friends) they will be there for you
I also want you to know, i am always here for you. I am, and have been on here a ton, partially due to not having that many friends IRL. i know i seem like a really cool person here, but sometimes i struggle with putting myself out there (something im getting better at)
i am eternally thankful for all of you, here, who have helped me find 'myself'. You all have played a part in me being me, and i don't know who i would be without all of yall
sage - i don't know if my ramblings helped much, but if you ever need someone, a friend, or just someone to listen - i am on YOUR side, and i am here for you
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