I shave off the white hair of my fingers
they scream
my screaming fingers

As I get closer
closer
and closer to their scalp
they twitch in pain
in anticipation

IT IS SCARY
but it also feels good
to have your white hair shaved if you're a finger

it is scary
BUT IT ALSO FEELS GOOD
to have my fingernails grow backwards when I clip them
. . . with my other fingers

an artistic way of basically saying i'm picking my nails lmao

I am not humble
I first learned this in 2nd grade
Before I even knew what the word meant
My teacher used it to describe my best friend
It should have been me

I am not selfless
I first learned this in 5th grade
At my lunch table
A friend asked if they could try my cookie
I told them no
I should have said yes

I am not smart
I first learned this in 7th grade
When I failed a test
One I was sure I was going to pass
I cried that day

I am not pretty
I first learned this in 9th grade
As my peers were showered with compliments
No one glanced my way twice
So I began to compare myself

I am not perfect
I learn this with my every breath
As I look in the mirror and see every flaw
Wondering if others see them as obvious as I do

I’m not humble
Or selfless
Nor smart
Or pretty
I’m certainly not perfect
But I try
And I hope that one day I can be

I am hopeful

Pandora’s box inspo

I hate you.

I hate your damn smile, and your curls, and those stupid eyes. I hate the way you look at me, like you actually care.

I hate the fact that everyone thinks we should be together. I hate that you laugh at it, while I yearn for them to be right.

I hate that you know perfectly how to make me laugh. And then act like you care about me. Maybe you do. I hate it, too.

I hate it when you're laughing at my stupid jokes as you ask about my day. I hate it when you listen to me like you're actually interested.

And I hate your guts when you talk to me. Worst of all, I hate the fact that there's no way I can get you out of my mind.

I hate you. Most of all, I hate the fact that I like you.

It's not that good but I saw my crush yesterday.

the girl took a dip into adulting

I was 9, can't wait to turn 10,
Turning 10, so much stuff to explore.
I can be in the front seat,
I can eat at the big people table,
Heck, even the notion of having two digits of age,
I feel like i can do anything and everything,
"Tomorrow's my birthday!" I cheer.

I am 19, dreading 20,
'Be an adult', they say,
I was the size of a grain, now i'm the size of an egg.
Turning 20, a planet dropped to your shoulder.
Colleges, friends, relationships, jobs.
How do an adult act anyway?
"Tomorrow's my birthday.." I sigh.

-24thApril2026

I miss you
Am I allowed to admit that?
When I'm the one who pushed you away

I miss late night calls and stupid jokes
The ones that made me laugh
Even though they weren't funny

And when I see you
My heart can't help but break
8 months should be enough to move on

It wasn't supposed to be like this
It's never been like this with any other guy
I supposed to be able to let go

You seem fine
Just like you were before
The only difference is that we are strangers now

The only thing I have left are photos
You would have been mine
If I only would have let you

I regret the choice I made
Even though I know it was the right one
It doesn't change the fact that I miss you

Love or hate - p 1

I love it when we argue
I love it when we fight
I love it when we glare at each other from across the room
I love it when you tease me
I love it when you call me a nerd and I call you stupid

Do you hate me?
We are enemies.
Are we?
That’s what every thinks
They think we hate each other
Do hate me?
I don’t hate you

I love you…

Sorry But I Han To Take This Down!

Love or hate - p 2

Do I hate you?
They seem to think so
Who?

Everyone

Especially her
Who?

Your girlfriend.

Is it really that wrong to like someone in a relationship?
Is there a rule?
As rule that restricts your heart?

Is it even my heart?
Is it my mind?
Why do I like do
Do I even like you?

I don’t know if I love you or I hate you…

The Silver-lining
The world is a gloomy place,
Where the sinners thrive,
And the blessed cry,
The world is full of dread,
But we may not lose hope
For there is a silver-lining,
Even though the guilty rise,
And the innocent fall,
To the dark abyss,
We must continue to hope on life,
For there is a sliver lining,
Of the heavens aside,
The silver lining,
Is a music of joy,
Is the vision of the blessed,
And were the sinners stay out,
Soon the guilty would fall,
The holy would rise,
If we kept set sight,
On the silver lining

I pray for you
And turn my other cheek
But I also
Gossip about you
And harbor resentment
I’m a human
I’m imperfect
But somewhere along the way
I forgot that you were too