Finished Call Me By Your Name PV Lucian Mornstern

1 Mar 2023, 09:34

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OOC NOTE:This thread happened on monday, after hours. Prof. Farron Granted me the permission to be at the tower..

Ashley made the decision one evening after supper to spend some quiet time alone. He enjoyed quiet areas since they appeared to provide him the peace of mind he required. The young man seems to be doing well for himself despite the tight schedule of classes and his exertion. When he received an A on his astronomy homework, it truly brought him down, but because he was born a runner and couldn't be caught nor let failure determine the future, he improved.

The night is yet young, as they say. Certainly, it had already grown dark outside, and to combat this, lamps had been lit throughout the castle. The students then returned to their dorms. Ashley had astronomy class on Monday, and it was one of those occasions when he felt that it would be appropriate to actually spend some time alone. As a result, he asked Professor Farron for permission to go stargazing and have some downtime by himself. Authorization was granted.

As Professor Farron was still present, it was obvious that she would not permit a first-year student to remain on the tower alone. She excused herself and went to her office to get busy.
With some much-needed solitude from all the conversing, socialising, and other activities, Ashley was thrilled to be alone. He is improving, he looks more welcoming, open-minded, and he is also socially conscious of how others feel. They may find it difficult to describe him, yet all they witnessed was him being himself. His inner personality remained a mystery, thus perhaps his actions served to alienate him from the outside world.

Ashley found himself in a place that he had always wanted to explore since the surroundings were so quiet and the ambiance so relaxing. He sat on the ground and watched the stars.
It had such a charming aesthetic. Like pale grain entering recently turned ground, stars covered the sky. It was a sense of warmth emerging from the cold, the promise of life in the darkness. It was a size that brought humility and an eternity that brought thanks for the familiarity of one's domicile. Regardless of the time that had passed, Ashley considered every night sky to be a brand-new gift. Anyone who knew him would have noticed his eyes smiling and slight increase in respiration at that very moment.

Ashley began to hum a lullaby that his grandma used to lull him to sleep with.
Ashley reflected, "I know that among all the stars in the sky, you two are watching over me."
Sincerity demanded that he admit that he was brought to mind his deceased parents. How dreadful it must have been to have only one relative. Ashley paid special attention to the stars as they appeared to create a pattern that made sense; it was as though someone had connected the stars with a thin line. He said incoherently, "I see a peculiar motif."
That's what his imagination concocted after carefully examining the constellations. He thought to himself, "I wonder if Professor Farron will genuinely teach us to decode Figures we see in the sky." The young boy was quietly gazing at the night sky and wondered what lies beyond what they had learned in astronomy class as his body rocked back and forth sluggishly.

There are rumours that some muggles left the planet and seen what lay beyond, but Ashley really wished he knew what existed beyond what the muggles had seen. The cosmos was full of unsolved questions, but all he would do is simply enjoy what is in front of him and make an effort not to contemplate the surroundings. This time, he intended to utilise his downtime for reflection and relaxation rather than asking himself how the cosmos functions. There was no point in denying the fact that the young man was a typical Ravenclaw; he will always be inquisitive.

He sat quietly, yearning for more peace and admiring the beauty of nature. Those who have seen and heard can attest that the universe is indisputably stunning and filled with wonders. It's not always the case that we get what we see. There are times when things are simply out of our control and beyond our comprehension. Ashley would be observed alone, lost in reverie, gazing upward toward the heavens.

𝐼𝓃𝓉𝑒𝓇𝒶𝒸𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃 𝓌𝒾𝓉𝒽 @𝐿𝓊𝒸𝒾𝒶𝓃 𝑀𝑜𝓇𝓃𝓈𝓉𝑒𝓇𝓃

Last edited by Ashley Montez on 3 Apr 2023, 20:23, edited 1 time in total.

Ashley.D

4 Mar 2023, 00:34

The comment on Luci seeing something when he was young is in my ency! And the poems he reads are off the internet. I did not make them!

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It was after hours when I snuck out of the house. I couldn’t sleep. This place wasn’t the same anymore, not without Ree. Sighing, I got out of bed and pulled a hoodie on and socks before sneakily leaving the dorm and then common room. I decided to opt out for shoes. Socks would mean I can glide on the floor and add stealth to me moving around the castle! I needed some fun and it was obvious to me that I wasn’t going to get much sleep! Especially with @Colin McCoire snoring

I didnt really know where I was going to be honest, I just… well flew? This was the best I could do without getting in a broom! Flying is still a no-no. Especially after Maggie almost killed me during Quidditch! That isnt a fond memory!

“We both have scars with memories that cannot be erased, but together we are stronger. In your hands my heart has been placed,” * I recited, trying to think through all the poems I have learned over the years. “I miss your presence around me, with so many people I feel alone. I miss your touch, miss your lips I miss every moment more and more. I remember the moments when you smile. Can't forget that even for a while. I am like a flower without sun. Just like a bullet without gun,” I sighed sadly and ran down the corridor before stopping so I could slide.

Then that lost its fun.

I sighed, the walls around me felt enclosing as tears build up in my eyes. This place wasnt the same. It was’t the same! It…

It wasn’t the same.

I looked at where I had wondered and tears blurred my view. The dam broke. I was in front if the library. Where our story started and almost where it ended.

Spinning around, alert, I let out a surprised “Oomph” as someone collided with me. I groaned as the force practically slammed me into the wall.

“I… I’m sorry!" I heard her apologise. She sounded weird. I looked at her. A messy hand clutched to her nose as tears clouded her eyes. I could see her face turning a crimson red colour as she closed her eyes.

Yes we had brief interactions before thus, but this was where we really got o know each other. Haha, if course we ran into each other.

"I'm going to leave Hogwarts." my world stopped.

“What?” I croaked out, tears already building up. She is leaving. Was this my fault? Did I make her want to leave? I didn’t want this! I stared rubbing my hand together and rubbing a hand through my hair. “You can’t leave!” I saw her eyes watering. This place won’t ever feel the same without her!

My happy mood vanished as I remembered that. I balled my fist up and hit my fist on the wall, sideways, in anger and sadness and fear. “I hate this! It’s all my fault,” I cried sadly.

The walls were suffocating. Memories of happier times and laughs. Before it all went to shit. Before I ruined us.

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. My grandads face burning in my brain, his smirk as he finals a deal, his laugh as his rich friends tells the must mundane joke, his evil roar as he murdered that—

Oh my god.

I remember that… I was only little and- and he…

I felt sick.

I needed air but I didnt want to go outside. Leaving no option I could think of, I ran to the stairs.

Astronomy tower!

I tried to stay as quiet as possible as I made my way up the many stairs to where I wanted to be.

Finally I made it.

As I let out a sigh of relief - I dont think me and Ree were ever really here together - I saw that someone else was here. I hoped it wasn’t someone annoy—

It was that kid from the toilets!

Ah. Whats his name? Urm.

“My name is Ashley Dinero Montez, and both of my parents were fully conversant with witchcraft and wizardry,” I tried to hide my smirk as he banged on. His family sounded respectable!

@Ashley Dinero Montez… Ash? I clenched my jaw, something about him just made me feel different… and weird. He was looking at the sky with a peaceful sort of look on his face. I stared at him for a while, the way his blue eyes tracked the sky behind his personal, small, freehand telescope. He looked relaxed. I havent seen him around since that day — I think it was the same day the truth or dare game was, just earlier in the day.

“Hey,” I said quietly, to be honest, I wasn’t in the most talkative mood. I wanted to curl up under my bed and say bye to the world and sleep in warm duvet.

In that case, I sat back down again as she turned around. "You hurt me Luci! I trusted you...I was never closed to no one like I was with you!" she was basically yelling at me now and it took everything in me to not hold my ears. Protect myself from the words cutting deep. "You made your choice, follow a mad man's order!"

I hit my head with a groan and walked closer to the beau— other boy. “What are you doing out here, Ashley? A little two late for a Ravenclown to be out if dorm,” I half-arsed teased, a tired smile coming on my lips as I sat next to him.

“So. Why you here?” I asked, nudging him with my shoulder.

Last edited by Lucian Mornstern on 4 Mar 2023, 09:39, edited 1 time in total.


	*(Lucian) If an egg is broken by an outside force, life ends. If broken by an inside force, life begins.* (Alaric)**

4 Mar 2023, 08:25

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Ashley relaxed while sitting in the tranquillity of his surroundings. Everything within the building was surprisingly quiet. He relished every opportunity his environment provided.
He looked up at the sky as they twinkled, and when he saw a shooting star, he immediately closed his eyes and longed, " I wish everything could fall into place and become normal."

He opened his eyes and smiled once more as he felt a sense of warmth creeping inside of him. Something he haven't felt in a while was 'love' from someone dear to him, he felt as if his parents were with him and which almost landed him in a emotional state.

He heard a recognisable voice greeting him as he sat and observed the heavens. “Hey.”. Ashley whirled to see who it was, and as soon as he saw the other boy, the warmth he had earlier experienced dissipated like vapour. His heart seemed to skip a beat, and he felt like he was having trouble breathing. He couldn't think of anything to say at the moment, so he muttered, "Lucian." in his thoughts. "Uhm, Hi?" he finally responded awkwardly.

“What are you doing out here, Ashley? A little two late for a Ravenclown to be out if dorm,”
" Well, ravens are always engaged in their own learning adventures, and here I am." Ashley grinned as he calmly replied to Lucian, disregarding the fact that he called him a ravenclown. Complaining about who teased him was irrelevant because the great hall was blue and that was important. Nevertheless, that was a deception; it was Lucian Mornstern, who Ashley had started to have second thoughts about after their previous encounter because he seemed to have a soft spot for the other lad. Thus, he didn't mind. He would have thought about ways to humiliate them in the future if it had been someone else.

Ashley experienced a tingling sensation and felt as though he had butterflies in his stomach as Lucian sat down next to him, but as usual, he kept his sentiments to himself. Ashley noticed that the other boy seemed a little dejected and appeared to be in desperation. He neither was reacting as he had previously. Was he worn out? Was he merely pulling a stunt to get back at me? These queries were rhetorical at all times.

The other boy's hand had a wound, Ashley then observed. "Did you even notice you were bleeding, Lucian?" He expressed concern, which was something he didn't do often. He removed his white T-shirt and the jersey he was donning at the moment. He tore his shirt till he had a piece that would fit over the wound of the other youngster.
He had read in several literature that one should pressure the wound to stop the bleeding, so the young man did just that. " I am sorry, it might hurt but it will help". Ashley persisted in trying to stop the bleeding, and he eventually was successful. It was not that bad.

He tore off more of his shirt, covering the cut with it as he did so. His body was exposed to the environment because he tore his shirt to ensure that he helped the other boy and has not put on his jersey since. He was standing shirtless, feeling somewhat terrible for the other young man. He made the decision to put on his jersey.

Lucian suddenly nudged my shoulder and asked, “So. Why you here?. Ashley was undecided about whether or not to inform him." Yeah, Lucian, I'm not sure," he replied. " Maybe I am here to find some solace, a solution, and most importantly, to discover who I am and who I am not." He spoke out loud. "But, why are you here, how did you sustain the injury to your hand, and are you actually okay? You definitely don't give me the impression like you are your usual self judging from our first encounter. What's going on? " He gave him a wary look as he glared at him. He then added, "Did something happen to you?" to his concerns.

𝓘𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓛𝓾𝓬𝓲𝓪𝓷 𝓜𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓷

@Lucian Mornstern

Ashley.D

4 Mar 2023, 13:36

<••••••>

I looked at myself and that’s when I saw the blood on my hand from where I had slammed my hand against the wall. Damn. Didn’t think I had hit it that hard! “Oh,” was all I said, staring at the blood. He moved to put - wait was he shirtless now - some cloth on my hand and I instinctively moved backwards before letting him. I swallowed and looked at him while he was applying pressure.

“I’m sorry, it might hurt but it will help,” haha. I have had my own fair share of injuries. Injuries much worse than this. OOC: I am referring to being a WW This was nothing.

“Thanks,” I muttered, a multitude if emotions washing over me. Sadness. Anger. Embarrassment. And another one I cant put my finger on. Or… I can but I don’t want to accept it. I stared at him for however long it was until sadly he pulled on a jacket. I swallowed and looked away, glancing at my hand.

“So. Why are you here?” I asked, clearing my throat. He spoke about finding solace and finding who he is. Surprisingly, I found myself listening with rapt attention as he spoke. Amy previous wishes of silence so I could bask in the good times gone as I listened to his sweet voice. My eyes tracking every small movement he did.

“Have you found yourself?” it seemed like a stupid comment, “Have you found yourself” but the whole concept that you have to find yourself isnt as stupid as one may think. You grow up with your family and friends ideals pushed onto you. Their way if living. The way they think. How they act.

What about my way of living? How I think and act?

I realised then that I was lost. I didn’t know who I was. I mean, come on. I am “Lucian Michael Bauer Mornstern. Heir of the Mornstern and Wesley Fortune” the only thing I am that is mine is my status as a werewolf. And lets be real, not everyone accepts that and that us their choice. But… I need to be more. I need to know who I want to be and how I want to live my life.

I wish there was a reset button on humans so I could restart.

“But, why are you here, how did you sustain the injury to your hand, and are you actually okay?” the questions were overloading. Just ask a question, let me answer, and ask another. I let out a heavy breath and looked away from Ashley and up to the stars. “You definitely don't give me the impression like you are your usual self judging from our first encounter,” I let out a huff of laughter. “What's going on?" there was a pause but I continued to look up. Maybe my Großmutter was looking down on me. Did she love me still? "Did something happen to you?"

“I just, I needed air you know? There is just too much going on. It’s only March and- and SO MUCH has happened,” I stressed, hugging my knees. “As for my hand, I hit a wall. I didn’t think I hit it that hard! I was just getting overwhelmed,” I explained.

Why was I telling him this?

Tears built up in my eyes again. “She’s gone, mate. Ree is gone and it’s all my fault!” I stared crying in my knees. She never told me she loved me. Had I ruined our relationship that much? I thought she liked me. I told her at least three times I loved her - granted it was poorly shown - and… and she never said it back. “She was my first proper friend, you kn- know and now she is gone. And I can never speak to her again. I can never tell her goodnight as we part ways. I can never tell her how good or bad my morning was! She can never laugh at one if my jokes or glare at me when I joke around,” I started taking in a hiccuping ramble as I wiped my eyes and I pulled my hood up. “I’m sorry for- for dumping this on you. It isn’t like we have the best relationship,” I told him quietly, looking at him sideways with my head on my knees.

@Ashley Dinero Montez


	*(Lucian) If an egg is broken by an outside force, life ends. If broken by an inside force, life begins.* (Alaric)**

4 Mar 2023, 19:07

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Lucian had Ashley very concerned; the poor boy definitely does not deserve what he was going through. wait, what? Had he forgotten that he had been pinned against the wall by this person before? Did he ever forget what happened? He suddenly felt the importance of caring for Lucian. What was the mystery that required to be revealed?. It seemed simultaneously wrong and right to care for the other lad.

When Lucian said “Thanks,” Instantly, Ashley's heart began to tingle. He sensed a settling sense of warmth. With each minute that went by, he began to feel a little more at ease.
“Have you found yourself?” Ashley looked at Lucian without exhibiting any feelings at the moment." Oh my goodness, Mr. Mornstern, that was insensitive". Ashley laughed as he spoke casually.

In light of this, Ashley had chosen to forgo his favourite T-shirt in order to help Lucian. Ashley had done this because he felt so strongly about the other young man. He heard Lucian begin to talk about whatever was going on in his life as he sat down.
“I just, I needed air you know? There is just too much going on. It’s only March and- and SO MUCH has happened,”
"What's wrong, tell me about it." He unconsciously put his hand on Lucian's shoulder and softly rubbed it after noticing Lucian hugging his knees. “As for my hand, I hit a wall. I didn’t think I hit it that hard! I was just getting overwhelmed,”. Ashley noticed the boy's melancholy; he had no clue that it was particularly intense, but what the other boy had been through seemed tumultuous.

Ashley noticed the other boy's eyes welling up with tears during the brief period of silence that followed. His heart seemed to have slightly splintered for some reason, and he felt a small stinging sensation there. “She’s gone, mate. Ree is gone and it’s all my fault!”.Ashley wondered why anyone would want to leave the Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry while also being gobsmacked. Irina Sousa and Ashley weren't exactly close friends nor were they friends, but Ashley cared about the other young man and this happened without him noticing it. Perhaps Irina was more what than the young boy had imagined and not just some wayward teenager. Nonetheless, despite not knowing her much, his opinions of Irina had not actually changed much.

“She was my first proper friend, you kn- know and now she is gone. And I can never speak to her again. I can never tell her goodnight as we part ways. I can never tell her how good or bad my morning was! She can never laugh at one if my jokes or glare at me when I joke around,”

Although, Ashley temporarily felt unable to speak, he actually knew how difficult it was to lose a loved one because he was orphaned and had neither mother or father. His grandma reared him all of his life, but for some reason that wasn't enough for him. He always wished that he had more than one support system. When his childhood acquaintances still had their parents, he was in complete despair. He was not a typical child, and his behaviour was actually impacted by his harrowing history. He still continues to struggle with these perceptions even today. His heart longs for what he cannot have.

“I’m sorry for- for dumping this on you. It isn’t like we have the best relationship,”

"Please don't apologise; I'm good with everything. Please feel free to speak."
He inhaled deeply. "In reality, I have no idea of the physical characteristics of my parents and have no acquaintance with them. My mum passed away while I was little, and my dad passed away afterwards. I am familiar with how it feels to lose someone who was so dear to you. Maybe one day you two will cross paths Lucian." His voice broke as he began to be emotional himself. Yet, he managed to remain calm and reassure Lucian that, everything would be okay.
While Lucian was looking at him, Ashley turned to face him too." Whatever occurs, just remember that it is not the end", he added. "Lucian, it may be difficult to accept as I found it difficult too, but you are not alone okay?" he stated. Ashley gave Lucian's shoulder a gentle rub out of concern for the young man.

He had never spoken anything like this before, and the fact that it was Lucian Mornstern made it all the more surprising. He wasn't sure whether Lucian was a friend or an someone whom he hated, or a— . He was at ease around him, despite what had happened prior. As always, it remained a mystery.

𝓘𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓛𝓾𝓬𝓲𝓪𝓷 𝓜𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓷

@Lucian Mornstern

Ashley.D

18 Mar 2023, 00:09

<••••••>

I felt a little embarrassed dumping this on him. Why does he care? It isn’t like we are friends. Ive just come in here and invaded his space.

“Please don't apologise; I'm good with everything. Please feel free to speak." he said that and a smile slowly formed on my tear sodden face. Maybe he wasn’t too bad. "In reality, I have no idea of the physical characteristics of my parents and have no acquaintance with them. My mum passed away while I was little, and my dad passed away afterwards,” that sounds awful! I don’t know how I would feel if both me mum n dad kicked it! My family means everything to me, it is all i’ve had for ages while I was secluded from the outside world. I cant even imagine how Baxter feels, coming into a new family.

“I’m sorry,” I said quietly. What else was there to say? I was all “emotioned out” right now. I was so tired.

“I am familiar with how it feels to lose someone who was so dear to you. Maybe one day you two will cross paths Lucian." I listened as his voice broke and I let his words sink in. Maybe we will see each other one day, or maybe be able to owl each other. I want us to be friends.

Yet, another part of me tells me that maybe communication would be a bad thing. That, there more we talk the more I will yearn for her again. Maybe it is best to leave it as it is. To put the past behind me.

Ashley looked at me and I felt butterflies in my stomach as I looked in his eyes. I diverted my attention from him and my eyes went downcast at the floor "Whatever occurs, just remember that it is not the end,” he added. "Lucian, it may be difficult to accept as I found it difficult too, but you are not alone okay?" Ash then put his hand on my shoulder.

I felt myself tearing up again, looking at him. He’s right, I’m not alone. I- I do have friends! I smiled at him, softly and caring. “Thank you… Ash. Thank you for your insight despite our rocky start,” I started, remembering how I treated him before. “Just so you know, I’m here for you too. If you want me to,” I added hastily. Does he even want to be friends?

I wiped my eyes again and scooted up a little so we were closer to each other. “Do you like star gazing? Me and my brother Baxter used to do it a lot when he got bad nightmares. I would have our house elf apparate us onto the roof,” I rambled, a faint blush tinting my cheeks. He didn’t care about all of this! “Just want to say again, I’m sorry about your parents,” what to say, what to say….

Small talk is so hard sometimes! I would rather someone else come up with a conversation!

“So… how long have you been up here?” I asked, referring to his brooding session right now.


	*(Lucian) If an egg is broken by an outside force, life ends. If broken by an inside force, life begins.* (Alaric)**

27 Mar 2023, 01:03

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“I’m sorry,”
Does Lucian Mornstern really apologise to Ashley Montez? The two boys initially appeared to be rivals. No, they weren't rivals; rather, what had been happening between them was puzzling. Lucian's vulnerability was so painful to Ashley that he was unable to bear it.
What was it about the boy that was so peculiar that Ashley felt the need to act so 'open'?
Lucian piqued Ashley's interest, and he began to treasure every time spent outside.

When Ashley gazed at Lucian during the conversation, he briefly experienced warmth and euphoria in the midst of the coldness. In an effort to comprehend his feelings, he tried to stop the tears from coming to his eyes.

“Thank you… Ash. Thank you for your insight despite our rocky start,”
Ashley nodded as he carefully removed his hand from the other boy's shoulder and set it on his own lap. “Just so you know, I’m here for you too. If you want me to,”.
"And if you ever need a buddy, I'm here too," he assured Lucian with a soft smile.
With this, it can be considered that everything has been atoned for and that Ashley is now aware of his position regarding his relationship with Lucian. While it's unclear if they would be friends, they could at least act cordial towards one another going forward, assuming that's the case. Or maybe it was all wrong, they would become good friends.

Ashley noticed a sudden, intense warmth when Lucian crouched down to come closer to him. It felt like the temperature had changed. It had been different from earlier. At the time, he was unable to comprehend what he was feeling. “Do you like star gazing? Me and my brother Baxter used to do it a lot when he got bad nightmares. I would have our house elf apparate us onto the roof,”
"Fortunately, hehe. Sure, I enjoy stargazing because it makes me feel more connected to my parents. When I notice two stars growing brighter, I assume they are glad for me. I tend to feel lonely on days when it's cloudy."
He felt his heart suddenly get steadily darker. Ashley experienced a tear coming down his cheek. He struggled to hide how depressing this was. but with optimism in his eyes, he looked up into the sky and noticed two stars blinking brilliantly. He made a slender smile.

After a bit of gazing at the stars, the boy turned to face Lucian again and paid him attention. “So… how long have you been up here?”
"Its been few minutes really, the constellations are breathtaking from this location. Actually, my grandmother once sang me a lullaby to help me fall asleep. I suppose I could sing it, but that would be awkward." He chuckled. Although he was embarrassed, Ashley eventually decided to disregard everything. A few times, he had hummed the tune, but not to anyone. He did it internally. He grabbed his neck because he was tired and wanted to rest it on anything. After saying that, he continued to look at the other boy and silently traced each feature of his face. But it was still too early to tell what was going on, he loved what he saw. The situation is a little complex with the two lads. But, Ashley saw a distinct gravitational pull towards the boy with each passing second. Finally, he made up his mind to speak.

"Do you frequently go astronoming? I believe that based on what little I know about you, you seem to dislike all of these things... I mean you do apparate to watch the sky but have you ever found a suitable time to do it just to calm your thoughts?" With a smile on his face, Ashley exhaled.

𝓘𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓛𝓾𝓬𝓲𝓪𝓷 𝓜𝓸𝓻𝓷𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓷

@Lucian Mornstern

Ashley.D

1 Apr 2023, 15:34

He told me that looking at the starts made him feel more connected to his parents and I smiled softly, that was a nice sentiment. I’m sure my Grandma is up there too, looking down on me. Or not. But it is a nice sentiment to keep a handle on, to be live that no matter what your loved ones can see you. That they can still be proud. See you grow up.

“Yeah, it makes sense. It is nice to think that those you loved are watching over you,” I told him. I saw a tear travel down his cheek. “Hey, don’t cry! I’m sure they are really proud of you, you know!” I moved onto my knees and have him a hesitant hug, holding him a little tight. I then met go and say back down - a little closer this time - with my legs crossed.

I asked him how long he had been up here, he mentioned it hadn’t been long and something about a lullaby. “Ooo sing something!” I told him, a grin on my face. I cant ever remember being sang to. “Come on Ash! Use them pipes if yours haha. It will be fun. I could use some fun you know?” I told him, the last part bring said more softly than the rest.

“Do you frequently go astronoming? I believe that based on what little I know about you, you seem to dislike all of these things... I mean you do apparate to watch the sky but have you ever found a suitable time to do it just to calm your thoughts?” I contemplated his words.

“I don’t particularly go because I like watching the stars… but sometimes I’m pulled to the moon,” when it’s full, “that may just be me connecting with my inner, uh, wolf,” I joked, but it was true. I could stare at the moon for ages and I draw it a lot. I know that the moon probably doesn’t MAKE me feel connected to it, but I do. It is apart of me and I need to accept that. Being here has helped me accept my less-friendly and more hairy side. “As for calming my thoughts, I usually just shout or get angry haha. But… in times where I am stressed, overwhelmed I- I feel like everything is closing in on me and I like going outside. At my Grandfathers house I would run out and lay in the fields…” I closed my eyes, feeling the breeze and remembering the feeling of grass. The feeling of freedom and not the feel of walls suffocating me.

I guess my love for the wilderness is what got me cursed to begin with.

One of the main reasons I even agreed to go with Charlotte into the woods that day was because I was feeling weird. It was one of my first times being away from home and I was getting overwhelmed with being in a new environment and around new people, so I agreed to go out. Look what happened. I get bit and all them overwhelming feelings I get sometimes are now more amplified.

@Ashley Dinero Montez


	*(Lucian) If an egg is broken by an outside force, life ends. If broken by an inside force, life begins.* (Alaric)**

1 Apr 2023, 19:43

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I suppose stars do appear alluring and provide a positive aspect to life. The living example of this was Ashley, and the stars that were nearer to one another served as a reminder of the people he had lost. He questioned where his granddad was amid everything that was above. He was undoubtedly a runner, just as he had been while he was alive. Nonetheless, if people believed, the enormous number of stars in the sky would serve as a reminder to them.

“Yeah, it makes sense. It is nice to think that those you loved are watching over you,”

" It does place my faith to the test, Lucian, but there are signs that I've taken note of that show they are keeping an eye on me."
Lucian comforted Ashley after he sobbed, and Ashley hugged him back tightly, refusing to let go of him no matter how it happened or how hesitant Lucian was. He then felt as though he had found his "home" in Lucian's arms. He beamed while placing his head on the other boy's shoulder. After a brief period of what seemed like comfort in an embrace, Ashley and Lucian split ways. Ashley exuded a little smile while looked firmly reassuringly into Lucian's eyes.

Ashley agreed to sing for Lucian, but he hesitated because he was afraid the other boy would make fun of him for actually employing a lullaby. Although Ashley had a wonderful voice to begin with, he preferred to sing only for his grandmother. Most of the time, he felt a little uncomfortable in those kind of circumstances, but something inside of him just told him to trust Lucian.

Ashley began singing as he cleared his throat and gazed up at the shining stars.

Reducio
Natsuhiboshi, why are you so red?
Because I had a sad dream last night
My eyes are red from the tears I shed
Swollen as I cry

Natsuhiboshi, Why've you lost your way?
I'm searching for a child whose gone afar
He can't be found though I search all day
My sad dreams come once more

Once Ashley finished singing this lovely, moving lullaby, he noticed a shooting star far above and told Lucian.
"Lucian!! Above, a shooting star! Send out a wish." The youngster grinned at Lucian and stared at him with such hope.

Then Lucian remarked that occasionally he feels drawn to the moon and made a comment about how it helps him connect with his inner wolf. Even though Lucian made light of it, Ashley tried to make the connection that he had felt something forceful, domineering, and excessively macho about Lucian on the day they first met. He perceived Lucian to be acting in a somewhat beastly manner. He wanted to question him, but he decided to wait until a later time because it wasn't exactly the appropriate moment.

“As for calming my thoughts, I usually just shout or get angry haha. But… in times where I am stressed, overwhelmed I- I feel like everything is closing in on me and I like going outside. At my Grandfathers house I would run out and lay in the fields…”

Ashley was perceptive and extremely intelligent, and without realising it, Lucian gave away who he was, and now he could confirm that the other lad was a lycanthropy. Ashley asked himself whether regular people would actually run and lay in the fields when they are upset.
However, would Ashley be affected in any way by that?
Nope. Only because he was diversified and that he advocated acceptance as the first principle, as opposed to signalling rejection to others.

Apart from their previous experience, Ashley thought Lucian was a kind person on the inside; yet, it's possible that pride caused him to behave that way. Regardless, Ashley appeared to be more established with him while still feeling at ease. Ashley made an effort to consider what he might do to help his close buddy feel at ease and joyful; he cared so deeply for Lucian that he would exert all of his mental energy into considering what may cheer him up at the moment.

He ran out of things to say since he believed what he had anticipated would be unpleasant for the other boy, "Lucian... I..uhm.,"
Ashley inhaled deeply before deciding to continue speaking in an assured manner.
"Will you please accept my invitation to join me as a plus one at the Spring Ball?"

Ashley.D