You're not an artist.
I apologize if my language comes off as strong, but if you feel hurt by what I have to say about AI, it's high time you start reflecting.
Some know me as Amethyst Castillo, some would know me better as Violet Rohr.
I will start off first with my love for this site and the people I have met through it.
I remember, very vividly, 4 days after my 16th birthday.... what a beautiful month, truly the best time of my life ever. I met my best friend, and I made my first ever account on this site! I had never roleplayed ever before; everything was so new. What's funny is that I thought I was entering a study area, where people connect with each other and study together because that is what I searched for. JEE really made me go through everything I could ever had gone through, although it would seem like a silly little paper to some. I, through this site, found my passion and people, something I will forever be grateful for. I remember making a personal server and telling my best friend all about Violet despite him never being on the site. Roleplay wasn't something I was used to, but it took me time to improve. Things happened, I lost my best friend to unfortunate circumstances and decided to scrap Violet. I could not write her any longer, she had memories of my best friend and while I did not want to lose them, I could not wallow anymore. And then I came up with Amethyst, adored her, had her ency coded by Arch, I started two threads before it was time to go to college. It was hard to find a college haha, given I had pretty much flunked JEE with everything that was happening. I anyways started my degree in computer science engineering, later specializing in AI and ML in second semester. College got me busy and lonelier than ever, as mentioned before I had started using AI to write my assignments. Not something I am very proud of. Thought it was okay, because I was lonely, only using it to write my assignments. Thought everyone was using it so why not me. What difference does it make. "Knew my limits". Till I realized I did not, when I had to ask AI if my speech was okay.
AI is there to make you dependable, Gen-AI. I am talking about Gen-AI. I know very well how useful AI is and have always advocated for its use when needed but creative spaces are where I draw my line and I should, and so should many others. At the end of the day, I can only express my disappointment in everyone who is still actively using AI, be it site moderators or community members.
Coming from personal experience, and as a student who studies AI; this is wrong. What is happening is wrong, and a blatant disruption of ethics which is so frustrating because I never thought hio could do any wrong.
I have seen me and my friends who were anti-AI getting painted in a bad light, which is just absurd.
I will not blame anyone personally for my departure, it's my own choice. The site no longer fits my ethics.
Nobody would ever know how hard this goodbye is, but I have made it countless times. It feels like losing everything all over again, and maybe I have.
I would like to quote Dumbledore, "It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to your enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends."
If this makes you uncomfortable, CHANGE!! Please do, before it eats you away. Last but not the least, I would question your integrity as an artist if you use AI. Not understanding/being able to create art is not a disability, unless you make it one. If the guilt of using AI does not gnaw on you, you are not an artist.
I have had discussed so many plots here, but I will mention everyone I can think of.
@Elisa Shakestra: You have been my light. You brought me back when I thought I had lost my skill forever, made me believe in myself. Always checked on me, even if I took months to reply. I went away suddenly, but you never complained. IC Amethyst thinks of Elisa as her elder sister, and I know we have discussed them being related but I am not much different to Amethyst when it comes to you. Just so you know, I love you.
@Evangeline Fleetwood: Evangeline, my other cousin! Oh I will miss our threads and I will miss our plots. Thank you for being there and listening to me when I really really needed it. I appreciate you so much.
@Fawkes Chaos: How should I even get started? I have made so many promises to you and I have broken all of them. I will miss Fawkes Chaos and her chaotic plots. HELL IM CRYING WHILE WRITING THIS. Don't even get me started on Kaiming.
@Dido Bleaklane: Super sorry our plots wouldn't come to fruition ever. Diedough has been one of my 2 favourite characters on site and I really appreciate your skills to make me laugh Dido!
@Violence Bloodthorn: You know where to find me vi, even if I leave.
@Ebony Vetra, @Henry Holbrook, @Cecilia Merrick, @Denise Yarbrough, @Marigold Wesley: I was excited, so excited when I was plotting out with you guys, I was literally shaking in the said emotion. I love our plots, still and it's sad I do not get to carry it out.
@Damien Dragonclaw: UGHH I REALLY LOVED THREADING WITH YOU. I am sorry that I have to go, really.
Special mention to @Lourine Hoax and @Archer Duncan, two people I have never plotted with but really adore talking to. And oh Archer, I love your threads!
AND how could I ever forget my fellow ARMYs, @Caitríona MacDermott and @Dealla Prince; thank you for sending me allll those concert videos and matching my energy. I
And everyone other I have ever chatted with, I think I could include so many other people in this message, but I don't have the energy to type anymore.
Aly, I won't be mentioning you. I was very excited about Koldov, really but I have to leave. I am sorry. I really am.
I will miss chatting with all of you on the discord server, and doing hunger game simulations, and plotting and what not.
Words fall short, and I could write personal essays for everything I admire about all of you and honestly feel free to dm me to get one. Please stay connected if you can. I can give you ideas about how to carry our plots without me, if you want to. If there's some thread you really need finished and can be done within a week, feel free to dm me about that too.
Since this is not an essay, but a goodbye message I will treat it as one. If you want to change, really change, feel free to message me on discord [trustfrated.me]. Those who can't reach out on discord, can also reach out to me through owls. I will be taking at least a day to deactivate. I also do have a burner Instagram account, if anyone wants to connect there.
With a heavy heart, I thereby pen this goodbye, hoping it doesn't undermine the relations formed.
Thank you,
Signing off,
Violet
Some know me as Amethyst Castillo, some would know me better as Violet Rohr.
I will start off first with my love for this site and the people I have met through it.
I remember, very vividly, 4 days after my 16th birthday.... what a beautiful month, truly the best time of my life ever. I met my best friend, and I made my first ever account on this site! I had never roleplayed ever before; everything was so new. What's funny is that I thought I was entering a study area, where people connect with each other and study together because that is what I searched for. JEE really made me go through everything I could ever had gone through, although it would seem like a silly little paper to some. I, through this site, found my passion and people, something I will forever be grateful for. I remember making a personal server and telling my best friend all about Violet despite him never being on the site. Roleplay wasn't something I was used to, but it took me time to improve. Things happened, I lost my best friend to unfortunate circumstances and decided to scrap Violet. I could not write her any longer, she had memories of my best friend and while I did not want to lose them, I could not wallow anymore. And then I came up with Amethyst, adored her, had her ency coded by Arch, I started two threads before it was time to go to college. It was hard to find a college haha, given I had pretty much flunked JEE with everything that was happening. I anyways started my degree in computer science engineering, later specializing in AI and ML in second semester. College got me busy and lonelier than ever, as mentioned before I had started using AI to write my assignments. Not something I am very proud of. Thought it was okay, because I was lonely, only using it to write my assignments. Thought everyone was using it so why not me. What difference does it make. "Knew my limits". Till I realized I did not, when I had to ask AI if my speech was okay.
AI is there to make you dependable, Gen-AI. I am talking about Gen-AI. I know very well how useful AI is and have always advocated for its use when needed but creative spaces are where I draw my line and I should, and so should many others. At the end of the day, I can only express my disappointment in everyone who is still actively using AI, be it site moderators or community members.
Coming from personal experience, and as a student who studies AI; this is wrong. What is happening is wrong, and a blatant disruption of ethics which is so frustrating because I never thought hio could do any wrong.
I have seen me and my friends who were anti-AI getting painted in a bad light, which is just absurd.
I will not blame anyone personally for my departure, it's my own choice. The site no longer fits my ethics.
Nobody would ever know how hard this goodbye is, but I have made it countless times. It feels like losing everything all over again, and maybe I have.
I would like to quote Dumbledore, "It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to your enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends."
If this makes you uncomfortable, CHANGE!! Please do, before it eats you away. Last but not the least, I would question your integrity as an artist if you use AI. Not understanding/being able to create art is not a disability, unless you make it one. If the guilt of using AI does not gnaw on you, you are not an artist.
I have had discussed so many plots here, but I will mention everyone I can think of.
@Elisa Shakestra: You have been my light. You brought me back when I thought I had lost my skill forever, made me believe in myself. Always checked on me, even if I took months to reply. I went away suddenly, but you never complained. IC Amethyst thinks of Elisa as her elder sister, and I know we have discussed them being related but I am not much different to Amethyst when it comes to you. Just so you know, I love you.
@Evangeline Fleetwood: Evangeline, my other cousin! Oh I will miss our threads and I will miss our plots. Thank you for being there and listening to me when I really really needed it. I appreciate you so much.
@Fawkes Chaos: How should I even get started? I have made so many promises to you and I have broken all of them. I will miss Fawkes Chaos and her chaotic plots. HELL IM CRYING WHILE WRITING THIS. Don't even get me started on Kaiming.
@Dido Bleaklane: Super sorry our plots wouldn't come to fruition ever. Diedough has been one of my 2 favourite characters on site and I really appreciate your skills to make me laugh Dido!
@Violence Bloodthorn: You know where to find me vi, even if I leave.
@Ebony Vetra, @Henry Holbrook, @Cecilia Merrick, @Denise Yarbrough, @Marigold Wesley: I was excited, so excited when I was plotting out with you guys, I was literally shaking in the said emotion. I love our plots, still and it's sad I do not get to carry it out.
@Damien Dragonclaw: UGHH I REALLY LOVED THREADING WITH YOU. I am sorry that I have to go, really.
Special mention to @Lourine Hoax and @Archer Duncan, two people I have never plotted with but really adore talking to. And oh Archer, I love your threads!
AND how could I ever forget my fellow ARMYs, @Caitríona MacDermott and @Dealla Prince; thank you for sending me allll those concert videos and matching my energy. I
And everyone other I have ever chatted with, I think I could include so many other people in this message, but I don't have the energy to type anymore.
Aly, I won't be mentioning you. I was very excited about Koldov, really but I have to leave. I am sorry. I really am.
I will miss chatting with all of you on the discord server, and doing hunger game simulations, and plotting and what not.
Words fall short, and I could write personal essays for everything I admire about all of you and honestly feel free to dm me to get one. Please stay connected if you can. I can give you ideas about how to carry our plots without me, if you want to. If there's some thread you really need finished and can be done within a week, feel free to dm me about that too.
Since this is not an essay, but a goodbye message I will treat it as one. If you want to change, really change, feel free to message me on discord [trustfrated.me]. Those who can't reach out on discord, can also reach out to me through owls. I will be taking at least a day to deactivate. I also do have a burner Instagram account, if anyone wants to connect there.
With a heavy heart, I thereby pen this goodbye, hoping it doesn't undermine the relations formed.
Thank you,
Signing off,
Violet
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You're not an artist.
While you did tell me in advance truly nothing could prepare me for this message.
I will miss you Amy and all of our crazy plot ideas. You're one of my closest friends on this site and while I'm sad to see you go I do understand why.
I'm not really the best with words when it comes to things like these but I do hope we can still keep in touch
- Fawkes
I will miss you Amy and all of our crazy plot ideas. You're one of my closest friends on this site and while I'm sad to see you go I do understand why.
I'm not really the best with words when it comes to things like these but I do hope we can still keep in touch
- Fawkes
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You're not an artist.
Amy, it was really great connecting with you on Discord and I understand your frustration. I'll miss Amy and her crazy plot ideas and wishing you the best of luck in the future.
I'm not good with words but I know that many would miss you.
I'm not good with words but I know that many would miss you.
You're not an artist.
Hi Amy,
While our characters never really got to interact (No, I don't count when Dido got knocked out before they even wished each other good luck), you are one of the people I've talked to most on discord and have had absolutely tremendous fun planning and chatting with.
Obviously, I'll miss the potential plans we had but, much more importantly, I, and everyone else, will miss you dearly and your incredible energy (and all caps messages). I wish you absolutely all the best and hope (demand) that we keep in touch somehow.
I hope you have a wonderful time at uni and then in the rest of your life- You are a fantastic person.
Much love,
-Dido (forever a slightly morbid playdough)
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You're not an artist.
amethyst, you have clearly made your mark on this community. I can only be appreciative of how much of your life you've shared with us and understanding of your departure. I wish you the excitement of whatever new connections and spaces you find, even if it isn't here, and I will hope it makes your heart a little lighter.
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You're not an artist.
I'll miss you, Amy! Hope everything goes well with you
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You're not an artist.
Even if I haven't known you all that long, it was a pleasure getting to meet you. You will be missed, Amy
You're not an artist.
Ames,
It's been such a pleasure to banter with you during your return to the community. I was so happy to see silly simulator sessions inspire you and Fawkes to create greater plots. Those moments filled with so much laughter are ones I will continue to cherish.
I think I found your writing long before we properly met and I was thoroughly entertained by your writing. I read dozens of threads, but Amy's character was one who stuck with me. I adored the way you wrote her and how she interacted with others. I am so sorry that we never got to write any of our threads. I will never replace the role Amy would have played in Cecilia's story for she was a friend unlike any other. Not only are you a brilliant writer, but you are incredibly bright. I admire that you are steadfast in your beliefs and have mustered the courage to put yourself first.
I will miss you dearly, but I completely understand. It saddens me to see the toll these past weeks have taken on you. May this departure bring you peace. Keep your chin up and continue to shine bright
It's been such a pleasure to banter with you during your return to the community. I was so happy to see silly simulator sessions inspire you and Fawkes to create greater plots. Those moments filled with so much laughter are ones I will continue to cherish.
I think I found your writing long before we properly met and I was thoroughly entertained by your writing. I read dozens of threads, but Amy's character was one who stuck with me. I adored the way you wrote her and how she interacted with others. I am so sorry that we never got to write any of our threads. I will never replace the role Amy would have played in Cecilia's story for she was a friend unlike any other. Not only are you a brilliant writer, but you are incredibly bright. I admire that you are steadfast in your beliefs and have mustered the courage to put yourself first.
I will miss you dearly, but I completely understand. It saddens me to see the toll these past weeks have taken on you. May this departure bring you peace. Keep your chin up and continue to shine bright
You're not an artist.
Wow. Three in a single day. Guys, I almost cried three times today.
Amy, we never interacted, but you will be really missed. And to make you proud, you inspired the main character in a book I’m writing. You’re awesome darling.
Stay safe, be happy. You’re awesome!
-Euge
Amy, we never interacted, but you will be really missed. And to make you proud, you inspired the main character in a book I’m writing. You’re awesome darling.
Stay safe, be happy. You’re awesome!
-Euge
You're not an artist.
Amethyst/Violet,
I do remember your past account, and I’m pretty sure we were in a past, open thread together (I just checked and we were, even though it became abandoned lol). Anyways, what I had remember when I first thought of it a few minutes, was that your writing was really pretty. And now with Amethyst, your writing has gotten even better (not that your writing with Violet was bad or anything; it was actually really good), I loved your unofficial Quidditch replies - they’re so funny and such a gem to read. I have gotten off of my point here, and started to ramble, so my point is that I hope that you’ll continue writing. Continue, and your writing will improve, no matter how good it was before.
We’ll miss you, and I hope life treats you well. Please take care of yourself!