If only I wasn't born...
ooc: might contain depression as it goes on. mentions of sucidal thoughts
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is it my fault? is it my wrong?
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ป๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ถ had been picked up by Isabelle and Nova, who were now, supposedly, the best of sisters, judging by how close they were. It hurt that Isabelle didn't give her much attention, even though she'd just come back home after nearly 10 months, since she hadn't even spent her winter break with them. Instead, she was focused on chatting with Nova, which made Lily feel a pang of jealousy. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX In an attempt to make conversation with them, Lily asked softly, "So... How's everything at home? Did Mom and Dad finally stop fighting?" Nova turned around with a sneer on her face. "Why would you even ask such a question when you are the sole reason for it?" Isabelle added, "And to answer your question, no, nothing's going right. They are planning to divorce." Divorce. Lily's breath hitched at that word. She stopped in her tracks. "What did you say?" she said, her voice slightly trembling. Lily's mind raced. Why hadn't anyone told me about this? Why were they even divorcing? When did this start happening? Apparently, in ten months of her absence, her parents had decided to turn her whole life upside down. She was so lost in her thoughts that she barely heard Nova's reply. Nova said, "Are you deaf? Didn't you hear what she said? Your parents are divorcing. Next week. I pity that poor parent who has got to stay with you, since you are a minor." Ouch. Must Nova be so rude, especially when her life felt like a roller coaster she never wanted to be on? One she had never been invited to, but was pulled on? Ignoring Nova's intentionally hurtful words, Lily turned to Isabelle, wanting some comfort, some softness. But her expression was cold towards her, as always. "Isabelle... What Nova said.... Is it true?" In her mind, she hoped her sister would reply, "No, it is not. Don't worry." She snapped back to reality and looked at her, only to be shocked to see her sister almost in tears. She didn't usually cry, especially in front of others. She was even more taken aback when she burst out at her. "YES, YOU IDIOT. IT'S TRUE. AND IT IS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU. IF ONLY YOU WEREN'T BORN, THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN FINE." Lily gaped at her, her mind spinning wildly. If I wasn't born, would it really have been alright? Should I just die? she thought to herself. "You don't really mean that, do you? Please tell me you don't." She said, turning towards Isabelle. Nova glared at her. "CAN YOU PLEASE SHUT UP FOR ONCE? CAN'T YOU SEE THAT YOUR SISTER IS FREAKING CRYING? TYPICAL YOU, ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT YOURSELF." Isabelle, instead of defending her, just looked at Nova while wiping her tears. "Leave it Novs. Some people only know how to ruin people's mood." She said, pointedly talking about Lily. Lily was completely heartbroken. Both of their words hurt more than they should have. She couldn't even cry; she was too shocked. Her words remained stuck in her mouth. For a few seconds, she simply stood there, staring at the two people she had hoped would make coming home feel like coming home. But neither of them did. Lily lowered her gaze, her eyes teary now. โI understand.โ She whispered. She couldn't say anything other than this. |
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You seem pretty sad For a girl so in love |
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