A confess letter to a cousin solo

Dove was still hesitating in front of her parchment, being sat on the floor, her legs crossed, and her quill still being dry of ink. She wasn't sure if she wanted to share her feeling with someone, but it has been almost two weeks since this weird ball was stuck into her stomach, which was increasing in potion class. And her cousin, Eflamm, was like her confident. They were the same age, and were always saying everything to eachother. It has been 2 months since she left his house, and she was missing him so much, maybe this letter could also be an excuse to write to eachother. So she decided to take a deep breathe, put her quill into the black ink standing next to her, and wrote, without thinking.

(All the letter is written in French)

Eflamm Fustec
France
15/09/2025
Cher Ef,
I hope this letter finds you well, and first, you need to know that I'm not writing to you only by interest. I miss you very much, and cannot wait to see you again, I hope it will be very soon. And, if you don't have time, know that I'm not necessarily looking for an answer, I just have to talk to you right now. So, let's start. The year hasn't started for a month, and I feel like I need to tell you something. It's hard for me to even put word on it, since I don't know what has been happening to me recently. There is this girl, I met on potion's class. I've never met her during my first year, or even seen her in the hallways, or I would have recognised her. Trust me about that, since the only fact of looking at her for the first time made me feel like I was ill. I thought I was having a cold, a fever, but the day after this class I was feeling like before, meaning perfectly healthy. So, of course, I was only thinking it was a one time thing, that the next time I would see her I would be "normal", like before. (Before is : before I met her). I think you are starting to understand, but I wasn't. It was even worse, as if I could barely breathe when she was talking to me.
I should describe her to you, so you can imagine her into your mind. She's about my height, with a tanner skin than mine (and it looks also so smooth), with brown/dark blonde curls (I could look at those for hours). Oh, and by the way, her name is Nova. It is a beautiful one, don't you agree ?
Anyways, it seems like I don't have any self-control of my breathing, or my face (it becomes so red I'm scared it will burn me) when I hear the sound of her voice. And her eyes, when they are meeting mine, I can feel the famous "butterflies" in my stomach. I don't know if I find it pleasant or unconfortable, it's just weird because I'm afraid she notices it. Not the butterflies, but what I think of her. I am sure, and even know, that she only sees me as her potion's partner, maybe as a friend, I hope so, while I cannot stop think about her. I even dreamt of her at least four times, do you even imagine ? She is like haunting me, she cannot leave my head. So, because my only source of knowledges are books, I spent hours in the library reading those who are talking about sickesses, mental and physical ones, because I am scared you know ? I am only 12, and I am too young to know what having a crush on someone is. My parents met when they were 14, that's two years older than me ! Maybe I am too overeacting, but she's a girl, will dad and mom accept this ? I am so scare of what could be their reaction of that. Is this a phase, like some people call it ? Is it that maybe I just really like her as a friend ? I don't know, this i why I started to read books talking about feelings, and more precisely loving ones. And yeah, it does look like I'm going through right now.
So now I don't know what to do, should I tell her ? It would be such a relief not having this weight in me. But I know she doesn't feel the same for me. And I am afraid she finds me weird after, or doesn't want to talk, or see me anymore. Because, if you still haven't got it yet, I really like her I like her very much, and even if we stay just friends, it would be amazing to me.
I am afraid to lose her.
Wow, now my hand hurts, and my letter is way too long, I'm sorry. But now, I can put a name on what I have been feeling for two weeks, I have a crush on a girl called Nova Astron.
It feels good to say it to someone, even more when this someone is you.
I hope you are well, don't hesitate to tell le some news about you.
Send love to Tonton and Tata,

- Dove

She put down her quill, her hand being shaky, after writing this much without taking any breaks, but also because she just let her heart talk instead of her brain, for the first time. She wad scared, of course, but it was such a relief, to finally open her heart. Talking about love, at her young age, could seem excessive. But those feelings were real, and new for her, and what was worse was they were for a girl. She knew nithing was wrong with it, but she had bever imagined she could like, and love girls. Her parents never talked about this possibility, they always were asking if boys were handsome in her classes, not girls. Anyway, she wasn't sure what was coming next, if she should confess to Nova some day, if she should wait until she was sure of her feelings, or just let her mouth closed, hoping it would disappear.

So, after a few more minutes breathing and thinking about what she just did, she took her parchment, rolled, closed it with a blue string and tied a well thight knot, before sending the letter with an owl.

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