Missing You... Solo Letter

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APRIL 23^rd, 2023

I know this letter will never reach you. Why? Because I won't ever send it to you. That way I won't have to deal with the fact that there's a chance you may never answer it... The stuff we've gone through in the past and the things we've talked about, they are unforgettable to me. When you disappeared and never made it to the Faerietale Endings, fall ball, I knew something was wrong then. You were so excited to be part of it and were looking forward to it for such a long time. When I couldn't find you there, I knew...

I never saw you again after that point in time. Are you still at Hogwarts somewhere? Did you transfer out of the place? Whatever became of you? I know you're not dead, I would have felt it somehow if you were. I have to admit, I never thought I'd let myself feel so much for someone. You mean more to me than anything and anyone else. And yet... we're now apart... maybe it was my destiny for this to happen. I should not have fallen so hard for you. It's funny that I only realize this now... when it's too late for us.

I really don't think I will ever truly open up to anyone again. Not after this, not after not knowing what happened to you after the fall ball. I think it would be better if I at least had some kind of clear answer as to where you are now. But as it stands, I feel lost and I'm unable to make myself trust anyone around me. What if they end up leaving me like you did? I don't think I'll be able to handle that, as I'm barely handling your disappearance. My parents were right, I shouldn't have trusted anyone at this castle here.

I should have just made connections with others and not gotten emotionally involved. I think I will seek to do this from now on. On the outside, I will be the same Kim they know and will go about my duties as I usually do. But I won't engage in anything outside of club activities and school events with anyone anymore. I can't risk opening up my heart to others and have history repeat itself later. I suppose I should thank you for opening my eyes to what I should have done in the first place when I got to school.

If I hadn't fallen for you so hard, I wouldn't be hurting like this now.....

Yours forever,

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