Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word solo finished

A solemn walk down to the herbology office – Clark felt very humiliated. Does anybody actually care? For him? It was embarrassing. He got a howler. From his dads! This is the way that he’s meant to live his life? In humiliation? He had to go apologize. Apologize for all the mistakes that he’s made. For being an ass. But his brain felt like it wasn’t working. He felt like he was not wanted. Not even seen. It was pure tragedy– and it was like no one cared. It’s like they had enough of Clark – just wanted to drown them in the great lake. Because of how awful he was.

Then, again – his boyfriends were the only reasons why Clark would even apologize. It was like he was living in a fantasy and basically fucked it up.

That’s what he seems to be achieving with great ease. It was raining outside. And he started thinking of a sad song- one he felt an emotional connection with. “No one but you (Only the good die young)”

Sure, Clark hadn’t had anybody die near him lately nobody that was really close to him. But he felt very humiliated. Very ashamed.

It’s like he didn’t wanna do it again. But he couldn’t let the students at Hogwarts know – otherwise they would just probably pick on them. The professors? What fucks would they give? It shows that a kid is at least trying to atone for all the mistakes that he’s made in the past.

No one but you – one by one – only the good die Young. It was stupid. But he had to do it. He knocked on the professors door. “Professor… Nancy? May I speak with you? I’m sure you don’t want to talk to me right now? Especially after what I’ve done. Especially for Jeff. I… Want to apologize. I was being stupid. I was rushing a little head long – and I could’ve severely injured myself. I could’ve killed myself – with my reckless response decisions, and you were placed in the middle of it. I thought that I could take advantage of you – and it was my stupid stupid stupid decision That led to me feeling alone - and well – if you noticed if there were any dragging down missing – that was probably me. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done. I’m sorry we’re breaking the glass in the greenhouses. I’m sorry for trying to hurt Jeff. I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for being a stupid child. Nobody will ever love. Truth be told I want to actually learn from mine steaks to learn from you. I am so… So… Sorry for all the trouble that cost in the past. And I understand if you don’t wanna talk to me. but here I am - a part goblin standing outside of your door in the rain. Apologizing. I have gone much lower than us, but this is the thing that I feel the most ashamed for and I am so… ashamed. Can you find it in your heart to forgive me?”

Without even waiting, Clark ran off to the Great Lakes to look out at the water the times that he had nearly drowned. After all- Why would a pirate wannabe be in the water if he can’t swim?