The fresh wind blew across the docks, announcing fall and the end of summer. The excitement was palpable in the air.Many children were jumping up and down with their parents. It felt more like Christmas than the beginning of the school year. But Louan's heart was not in it. His cousin's cold, cruel words kept running through his head: "No matter how hard you try, you'll always be a burden to others. Lyde had always hated him, without him knowing why. He blamed him for bringing the shame and dishonor on their family. Every time they met, he was insulted or cruelly attacked. But the result is always the same. Louan ends up hurt.
And this is supposed to be one of the best days of his life.
Louan swallowed his tears, he couldn't cry in front of his parents. Indeed, his parents were with him. They wanted to accompany him on one of the most important days of his life. Unfortunately his godmother could not come, because his parents wanted to stay with their family for once. He said goodbye to her this morning, she hugged him and made him promise to write to her as soon as he arrived at the castle, and to be careful and proud as a Finch. He wishes she were here. More tears threatened to come out and he struggle to swallow them.
-Louan, my dear, are you crying?What's wrong with you now?
-N...nothing.....mom...it's the emotion
-A Finch must appear worthy in front of everyone. No emotion should betray him. You are a man now, not a child.
-Y-Yes D-dad
-Stop stammering, will you, it's unbearable.
-Yes Mom, excuse me
Louan takes a deep breath and puts on a neutral face as best he can.
You are not a child anymore they said .But was he ever be a child?
Here they are facing the famous wall. The 9 ¾ way. Louan looks around him, parents encouraged their child to cross, others crossed together, some are already bidding farewell.Love is the feeling that emerges from this scene, its warmth fills Louan's heart, how beautiful it is to see people love each other .When he comes to, he realizes that these parents have crossed without him, without warning him. His heart becomes cold again, the warmth of loving thoughts replaced by the coldness of his real loneliness.
Love, the only thing he has no right to.
Mistakes have no right to be loved.
Louan rushes through the walls, if he stays here, he will cry for sure.
On the other side, it's the same show, heartbreaking farewells, ecstatic children, moved parents.
In short, a world where he does not belong.
He hurried to join his parents but the weight of his suitcase prevented him from doing so. He stumbles. laughter, shame, disgust.
《Why do you always have to cover yourself with ridicule,》 scolds his mother.
He is fine thanks no need to ask.
He gets up, dusts his white coat, and smiles at them.
-Excuse me mom, I will be more careful.
-I hope so.
His father looks at his watch.
-You'd better go upstairs, we'll be leaving soon.
-You're not staying until we leave. I thought ...
-We have an appointment, my dear, but we wanted to go with you anyway. Are you happy?
-Yes, thanks Dad. Thanks Mom.
-You'll see, you will love Hogwarts.
-We're counting on you to make us proud.
You can always try, you'll fail.
-I will do my best, you will not be disappointed.
-We hope so, Louan.
Their faces are not convincing.
They don't believe me.
-Goodbye dad. Goodbye Mom.
-Goodbye Louan......We love you.
Her father nods.
Lies.
-I love you too.
He jump on the train, dragging his suitcase behind him, He finds an empty car, sits down, puts his suitcase down, and lets the tears that he has been trying to hold back flow. Finch doesn't let their emotions show in public. He cries and anyone could see it. He's not a Finch. He's Louan. The mistake. The ghost. And Hogwarts won't change that