Failure only makes you better.
Clair sat looking at the unopened letter before her, it was from Belle, and she feared what it would contain, the last letter Belle had sent had contained more power then Clair had ever thought words could carry, She had never known that words could hurt so much, yet the simple words that Belle had crafted together had formed so much pain, and had left Clair feeling empty.
Grief still tugged at her heart, it still threatened to wash her away sometimes, but she had gotten more control over it, it had almost been a month, only three days till it would be the exact moth since her Mum's death, yet Clair did not feel like it was a milestone worth partying over, she would most likely cry her heart out, because she missed her Mum so much, the letter that sat in the twelve year old's hand called Clair to open it, it begged to be ripped open and to have it's words read, whatever the word said, it begged to have Clair feel whatever was inside that would contort her feeling into some kind of knot.
Clair flipped the letter over, and read the neat loopy letters that proved Belle Fernandez had written it, with shaky hands she opened up the letter, as soon as it was opened a flowery card fell out, Clair picked it up, and read it slowly.
Join Belle and Josh for their wedding on April 28-29 2022!
Clair looked at it, she felt like tearing it into small pieces and chucking it away, she felt like she wanted to never go home ever, she did not want to see Josh or Belle ever again, she wanted to scream she wanted to throw herself on the floor and pound it with her fists she wanted it rip the paper into tiny pieces and burn them, anger filled Clair up, she wanted to explode yet under all the anger, she felt a growing sadness, if Belle got married (which she of course was) then Clair might be put on the back burner, she might be forgotten about, and without her mother's warm love, Clair feared she would be forgotten completely, and then another thought and feeling mixed itself into the mess, what if Josh wanted Belle to move off the farm? What if she left the farm? And all the memories with it? Would she leave Clair at Hogwarts? and then yet another new feeling wrapped itself around the last one, this one was bitter, If Belle started a family, would Clair be left out and pushed off to the side? Would Belle and Josh push her away, would she have to find a place to stay? Surly not, Belle had said she would be welcomed home, but that had been weeks ago, could Josh have melted Belle's mind that fast?
Clair ripped the card in half, and then those halves into halves and then she shoved them in her pocket, she would burn them later, she would watch them burn in the common room's fire, and she would enjoy it.
As she stood up, preparing herself to leave the Owlery she picked up the envelope, it was heaver then a empty Envelope should be, looking inside Clair seen a note, from Belle;
She frowned again, she would not need to contact the staff, she had not been able to go to her mother's Funeral, a wedding would be no different.
(wc 1027)
Grief still tugged at her heart, it still threatened to wash her away sometimes, but she had gotten more control over it, it had almost been a month, only three days till it would be the exact moth since her Mum's death, yet Clair did not feel like it was a milestone worth partying over, she would most likely cry her heart out, because she missed her Mum so much, the letter that sat in the twelve year old's hand called Clair to open it, it begged to be ripped open and to have it's words read, whatever the word said, it begged to have Clair feel whatever was inside that would contort her feeling into some kind of knot.
Clair flipped the letter over, and read the neat loopy letters that proved Belle Fernandez had written it, with shaky hands she opened up the letter, as soon as it was opened a flowery card fell out, Clair picked it up, and read it slowly.
Join Belle and Josh for their wedding on April 28-29 2022!
Clair looked at it, she felt like tearing it into small pieces and chucking it away, she felt like she wanted to never go home ever, she did not want to see Josh or Belle ever again, she wanted to scream she wanted to throw herself on the floor and pound it with her fists she wanted it rip the paper into tiny pieces and burn them, anger filled Clair up, she wanted to explode yet under all the anger, she felt a growing sadness, if Belle got married (which she of course was) then Clair might be put on the back burner, she might be forgotten about, and without her mother's warm love, Clair feared she would be forgotten completely, and then another thought and feeling mixed itself into the mess, what if Josh wanted Belle to move off the farm? What if she left the farm? And all the memories with it? Would she leave Clair at Hogwarts? and then yet another new feeling wrapped itself around the last one, this one was bitter, If Belle started a family, would Clair be left out and pushed off to the side? Would Belle and Josh push her away, would she have to find a place to stay? Surly not, Belle had said she would be welcomed home, but that had been weeks ago, could Josh have melted Belle's mind that fast?
Clair ripped the card in half, and then those halves into halves and then she shoved them in her pocket, she would burn them later, she would watch them burn in the common room's fire, and she would enjoy it.
As she stood up, preparing herself to leave the Owlery she picked up the envelope, it was heaver then a empty Envelope should be, looking inside Clair seen a note, from Belle;
Clair gasped oh no! She had torn apart a card from her Mum! She would have to fix that later, returning to the letter she continued to read it.Dear Clair,
I hope you seen the card, and I hope you like it, I found it in the drawer of Mum's dresser!
Clair snorted, "I bet it took a lot to make Josh even want me to me there" she mutteredI know that the wedding is in the middle of the week, but We were hoping you could still make it, I have decided to let you contact the staff and ask them
She frowned again, she would not need to contact the staff, she had not been able to go to her mother's Funeral, a wedding would be no different.
Clair sighed, this was a lot to think about, she knew she would be unable to make it to the wedding, and she also knew she would love a party in the summer, she thought about everything for a moment, and then decided to write back.I hope you can make it! And feel free to bring that friend of yours, I'm sure he'd love to come, I have sent Izzy a letter telling her the same thing, if either of you can't come, I'm very sorry, I promise I'll make it up to you in the summer, We'll throw a party or something! If you can come please let me know as soon as you can, because I've got to pick out a dress for you, because I'm sure you don't have a pretty enough dress, well does that teel one still fit you? Oh well let me know, Josh is calling, I better go, Write soon!
-Belle.
she decided to add in some sass just to bug Belle,Dear Belle.
I will be unable to attend the wedding, I'd like you to know that a party in the summer would be fun, and you better not change your mind, my teel dress is at home, so I can't try it on, and by the way, I'm not coming home for spring break, I'll be at a friend's house in London, and then I'll be coming back to Hogwarts, I hope that's fine with you, because I already agreed to it, so you can't really say no.
Feeling like she had said all she wanted it say, Clair folded up the letter and send it off with the school owl, "To Belle Fernandez, at the Fernandez farm in Carlisle!" She shouted after the Owl, she partly wondered if Belle would change the farm's name to Josh's surname once they got married. Clair felt like she had failed making Belle change her mind about getting married to Josh, but maybe next time she would be better.I'd also like you to know that I hate Josh, and if her dare make you leave the farm, I'll hurt him with my wand, it's rather sharp on the end.
-Clair.
(wc 1027)
OOC note; I will write another Solo where Belle replies to Clair, but that will be in another thread, and at a later date.
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