Greetings PV: Aldor Humbleglow Closed

She felt his hand on hers and looked at him, not sure how to react. He started telling her how she didn't have to hide it from him. Their eyes locked and she saw him smile slightly. He started talking again and told her that her blind eye was actually pretty and even... attractive...?! She bit the inside of her cheek, no one had ever said that about her, especially with her blind eye. Her parents, of course, told her she was pretty and had nothing to hide, but they were her parents and she knew neither of them had the heart to hurt her.

She had just met this boy, why was he being so nice to her. She expected him to move is hand at some point, but he didn't. His hand was warm, it was kinda nice compared to her usual cold feeling. "W...Why are y...you being s...so n...nice to me," She quietly said, looking down at her sketchbook. She really did wonder why, she didn't understand why people were nice to her or maybe she just hadn't really remembered a time when people were nice to her. She had taken the lesser insults as compliments for a long time, thinking that well there not as harsh as the others. She bit the inside of her cheek again, waiting for him to say something, anything.


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He'd notice she was nervous, of course, he understands, but he truly doesn't know why he is being nice to her, he doesn't really feel obligated to do so, he just feels like she deserves it, somehow, and for some reason.

''Well- that is a good question-'' Aldor stopped for a moment. ''I just think you are really neat-'' He'd tilt his head to the side, as he kept drowning in his thoughts, this is very confusing to him, he usually doesn't think about how pretty girls are or about liking them in a romantic way, unlike his classmates, who could talk about it for hours.

''Maybe I just like you-'' He'd stare at his hand placed on hers, thinking about how all of this seems like nonsense. ''To be honest- I never understood anything about feelings or whatever- I never thought of a girl in a different way than, ''Oh well, it's another person''- It is diffycult- perhaps you don't understand- or perhaps you do-''

Aldor paused as he kept looing at his hand, he was still shaking, but somehow he's managed to hold the conversation until now, it was strange, and he wishes he could understand it, but he does't.

''No one ever, taught me how to handle my feelings- or how it would feel- to me it seems- strange and a bit of- nonsense, but- if you could- it'd be nice if you explained-''

It was true, no one really spoke about it with Aldor, not even his aunt, who had been single all of her life, she never really cared about that specific topic, instead she just taught Aldor about nature, poetry and how to bake terrific cakes.

Tallis listened to the Hufflepuff boy as he talked. He said that he found her neat or that maybe he just liked her. He explained he had never really understood feelings and maybe she understood or maybe she didn't. She did understand slightly, feelings were confusing and sure she didn't completely understand then but did anyone truly understand them. Her parents had always tried their best explaining things to her, but feelings were always one of the things that she could never get her head around.

Aldor continued to talk, saying no one ever taught him how to handle feelings. That's when he asked if maybe, just maybe, if she could explain them to him. Through out the entire time he was talking, she could feel his hand shaking slightly. She bit the inside of her cheek, and slowly placed one of her hands over his. "I...I could tr...try," she stuttered out, "I...I'm not v...very good a...at explaining th...them." "I w...will try a...and h...help," she told him looking at him and then quickly looking back down at the ground.

What was she doing, she had just met this boy, for some reason it felt like she had known him for longer. She had so many questions but she didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable and she was far to nervous to try and say anything. She decided that she would stop talking until he answered.


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''If you want to- It would be really nice if you did- Aldor paused as he sighed. ''But if you don't want to, or you are just confused- you don't have to- ''. He would look at her hand, trying to think of what to say, why did he even ask her that in the first place?

''To be honest- I don't even know what to ask- I am just confused on how all of this works- but, uh- I just want to know what it even is-'' Aldor would look around once more. ''I mean- It's not like I don't know what liking someone is- it's just that I never- really felt it or understand it-''.

Aldor seems nervous, he is slowly regretting asking her that, but he can't go back anymore, if he did something wrong, it is only a matter of time for it to ruin this conversation, but this wasn't new to Aldor, he always knew that he was terrible at talking, and trying to interact with other people, but this did not really concern Aldor.

What made him feel confused was the fact that he didn't mind the feel of her hand, instead, it seems nice and very comforting, it was strange since he would only feel comfortable receiving physical contact from his aunt.

He always remembers one time one of his aunt's friends came over, she did not seem bad or even anoying, but Aldor would simply not greet her with a hug or even a handshake, of course, his aunt understood that Aldor was not comfortable with it, but to Aldor, that was one of the biggest failures of his life.

Tallis bit her cheek and furrowed her eyebrows slightly trying to think about what to say. She had never really been sure herself when it came to understanding what it was to... like someone. She tried to think about her dad had told her when she was younger, when she had asked him something similar. "I...I don't r...really know m...myself, but my d...dad said th...that it de...depends," she told him, trying her best to remember. "Wh...When he m...met o...one of his fr...friends, he just f...felt it in h...his h...heart," she tried her best to explain but it was difficult," i...it's a bit di...difficult to ex...explain."

She thought hard for a minute, her dad even had trouble trying to explain. She thought about when her parents met, that would be another example she could use. She sighed slightly and continued, "Wh...When my d...dad met my...," she paused for a second but continued, "my f...father, my d...dad said th...that again he f...felt it in h...his h...heart, b...but it was l...like he h...had bu...butterflies in h...his stomach a...as w...well."

She wasn't sure how to really explain it any further. She had never really been close enough to anyone to understand. She looked down at her sketchbook that was in her lap, she found it interesting that this had gone from her sketching in her sketchbook to this.


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He would not really understand, but at least she did her best and explained it.

''Have you felt that before?-'' Aldor would stop for a moment, trying to think. ''Well of course- I don't mean right now- there's 0% chance you even thought about it when we started talking-'' Aldor would laugh awkwardly, like he felt how he struggled to say those words. ''But i'm sure you did feel it- at some point in your life- or you will feel it, for that matter-'

He'd smile softly, as he slowly looked away, he seems, hurt, even though he literally just did it to himself, thinking in the most negative way possible.

''I'm sure your parents love each other very much- and I hope you find that feeling at some point as well-''.

His smile would fade for a few seconds, as he kept thinking, just like always, Aldor began drowning in his thoughts and worry, maybe he shouldn't have started a conversation on this topic. After all, he does not understand it, or even like it, he feels uncomfortable, fighting with his thoughts and his feelings, his brain tells him to shut up, but something within him, tells him to keep talking about it, and at least give it a shot.

She listened to Aldor as he talked and looked down at the ground. When he finished talking she looked up and saw the smile that had been on his face fade slightly. "I...I've never f...felt it before," she told him quietly, looking down at the ground. "I d...doubt I e...ever will," she said even quieter, biting her cheek harder. It probably sounded harsh but she did somewhat believe it, she was lucky enough to have made a friend and that took her forever so the chances of ever falling for someone or having a relationship like her parents were pretty slim in her mind.

The one thing that she still couldn't wrap her mind around, besides feelings of course, was the boy in front of her. She wasn't sure what it was about the boy but she feel like she could trust him, even though they had just met. It wasn't very often when she felt like she could actually trust someone but when she could it was nice. She looked at Aldor and felt like something was wrong but she wasn't sure what it was. Maybe it was her, maybe she was just making him feel uncomfortable, would he feel better if she left.


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''You know- it is alright- you'll find someone-'' He'd pause for a moment, looking at her hand, he would smile softly, trying not to think about it much.

''Perhaps- I just need to shut up for once-'' He'd sigh, as he slowly looked back up at her, he seems tired, but not mad or anoyed, just tired, maybe he hasn't been resting lately, or maybe he is just really struggling with this conversation.

''You know- if you do not mind- I will just- sit back down and- maybe take a small nap- i'm not feeling very well-'' He'd slowly pull his hand away, he kept trying to smile, but something isn't right, maybe it's just that he is very confused, maybe he finds it awkward that he is starting to like her, even though they just met.

''You can- keep drawing or just- talking if you want- I will try to pay as much attention as possible-'' Aldor would slowly sit back down, resting his head on the tree, but this time he was slightly closer to her than before, yet, he didn't really mind, what concerns him is how tired talking can get him, maybe it is not even talking, and it's just all of his worries making effect on him.

She became worried when he said he wasn't feeling great but nodded and watched as he sat back against the tree and leaned his head back. She looked down at her sketchbook and decided that she might as well start drawing again. She picked her pencil case up and opened her sketchbook. Something fell out and she looked to see it was a picture of her dad that she forgot she had put in her sketchbook.

She smiled slightly at the photo, she missed her parents and while she was very close to both of them she had always been the closest to her dad. She remembered the day they had taken the photo, they were all laughing and smiling and her dad wanted to take a slightly silly photo. She was about six when they took it.

She carefully put it back in her sketchbook and flipped to an empty page. She decided she would draw a rose, simple but beautiful. She had always liked roses and she tended to draw them a lot. She realized she had been deep in thought and quickly snapped out of it. She looked over at Aldor and realized he had been closer than he had been before. She looked back down at her sketchbook and got to work, her hair falling around her face.

He wouldn't really fall asleep, instead he was just resting his eyes, thinking of what to do or say next, slowly tilting his head to Tallis. He was really confused, all of this situation made him feel unstable, he wasn't sure of what to do at this point, so he preffered to stay quiet and think.

He would end up tilting his head awkwardly close to Tallis, he wasn't really that much taller than her, as he was only a few inches away from her head, the boy did not really notice, he was to concentrated on his thoughts and concerns.

One of the main things that Aldor was worried about was scaring Tallis away, he knows he is not much of a good talker and always ends up ruining things with how awkward his talking is.

Meanwhile he doesn't notice that at this point he's basically resting his head by hers, if he noticed this, he would probably freak out, thinking he is disturbing Tallis, or would move away slightly and excuse himself for disturbing her, but that's not the case, since again, he is not concious of what he is doing, it was impressive how inmersed in his thoughts the young Aldor can get.