20 Jul 2021, 21:43
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
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Terrible Presence in effect
He looked back at Vivian, trying his best to make eye contact, but it was difficult, it was almost imposible to look into her eyes without feeling extremely awkward, he wasn't sure what to tell her anymore. He was listening to her, but he wasn't sure that he was convinced that things were going to be ok.
Aldor didn't quite understand what 'feeling the same' currently meant, he was even more worried than before, but he tried not to show it. At the very least, his fear was not focused on her anger anymore, he knew she wasn't angry, but he was still a little hesitant when he tried to speak, when he finally tried to say something nothing came out of his mind, so he remained silent, staring at his hand that was currently being held by Vivian.
His face didn't seem to go back to its normal pale color, it was still red, probably because he wasn't over it yet, the strange feeling in his stomach didn't seem to fade, he didn't know how this would end, that was probably the thing that scared him the most about this.
''I don't know what to do anymore, it isn't like we are both just going to forget all of this-''
He kept staring at her hands with a sad look on his eyes, all that he could hope for is that Vivian somehow forgot all of this, even though, this wasn't a realistic way of thinking, he could only wish. Even if he wasn't able to forget, he could try, but he didn't know if forcing himself to forget it all was the right thing to do at this point. Could he even forget anyway? Of course not, but trying couldn't be bad, right?
@Vivian Fletcher
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
21 Jul 2021, 14:56
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
code by Lucia Fox
Interacting with @Aldor Humbleglow
Outfit excluding the bag, hairstyleHow in the world would she have expected someone to have feelings for her? And that too, it was her friend, she was totally confused. In the past, she never was gutsy enough to like someone and even if anyone tried to converse with her, she would flee away assuming them as bullies, she always thought low of herself and it was not her mistake, she was just unaware that it was a friendly gesture. The blonde strived so hard to regain her composure but it was so difficult and she had no idea what to do, what to say, it was completely blank, and she stared at him as he started to talk with her mouth half open trying to form some words together.
Forget!? How come did he expect her to forget everything? Even if he didn’t mean it, the blonde thought he wanted her to forget about what he had just said. Is she a computer? For him to program her forgetting everything he wanted to, she shook her head a little as she heard him say that. Sometimes her heart flutters when she thinks about him, then ‘it’s just friendship’ thought arises, she feels unstable and she despised herself for that. Swallowing hard the lump in her throat, she wiped down the tears and tried to smile, but was burning inside with vexation. Was it because of him? Or herself? Or that specific word? Trying to figure out the cause irritated her more and more.
Dropping his hands, “You want me to forget it?” she looked down and out of the blue, her left hand (leftie) reached to scratch her head so harshly but shopped as soon it touched her hair, as she realised who was sitting with her. Folding her palms into a fist which made it quiver, she dropped it down as she didn’t want to depress him anymore, he already looked like he need help. Rising to her feet, “Give me a minute”she turned and walked away a few steps from him so that no one would spot her crying her eyes out. Stopping there, she put both her palms on her face to control her sob, “Why am l crying now?” she muttered to herself.
After a few seconds, she reached him again, her face looking reddish and her eyes swollen, “ If that’s what you want, I’ll forget it” she breathed out, not minding the quiver in her lips and voice, “Maybe not now... but soon” she nodded with a sincere smile. Sighing as she looked everywhere but him, “I assure you that... but promise me you won’t overthink and worry over it anymore” she squeezed her eyes shut wondering whether she asked for more.
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21 Jul 2021, 16:38
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
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Aldor finally looked at her, he looked even closer to crying than before, but somehow still managed to keep it all in, he did not seem to be able to keep his owm emotions in control anymore. He didn't know what to tell her, it wouldn't be wise to just walk away and pretend nothing happened, but if they just left it there, would it just ruin everything? Would it make them go separate ways and never talk again?
This, and the fact he could very clearly see Vivian's swollen eyes made him feel even worst, this was his fault, it was not Vivian's. She never showed any sort of loving interest in him, she never even pretended to like him, she was just being a good friend, but Aldor somehow managed to fall for her, it was his own fault, anything wrong that could happen from now on was entirely his fault, he started believing she did not like him the same way, and he needed to grow up and understand that.
He just wanted for her to forget it, not because he wanted to control her, but because he didn't want to ruin the nice friendship they managed to build up, but now it just seemed like it could crumble down in any second. His hair fell down on his eyes as he lowered his head, the horrible feeling of dread that was currently going down his bones was almost unbearable, he wanted to run to avoid feeling this sort of thing again.
The two Hufflepuffs didn't understand what they were feeling, this wasn't how fairy tales went, this wasn't that 'perfect moment' in which the two people discover their love for each other. This was much more painful, neither of them actually knew what to do with these feelings.
''I-I don't want you to forget it but what if that's what is best for you?-''
Finally, one single tear rolled down Aldor's eye, he was starting to lose control, and from that, the rest kept flowing.
''What if I shouldn't have told you?- You never even gave me any sort of signals about you liking me, I just made it all up, I ruined it. And even if you forget it I just can't-''
He took a deep breath, he didn't expect her to reply positively to this, but he didn't even know what he wanted her to say. What would he even do if in fact she liked him back? He didn't know.
@Vivian Fletcher
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
22 Jul 2021, 15:39
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
code by Lucia Fox
Interacting with @Aldor Humbleglow
There were no more tears to shed, she’s no more crying, at least till this day. Every time she cries, she feels weak which she hates but has no control over, the blonde didn’t know why she cries for almost everything. Seeing others cry is the worst thing for her, she always tries to be sweet as possible to make people feel at ease but in this case, her sweetness or kind smile doesn’t seem to work. Clueless on how to calm him, worried her more. What in the world would make him stop fretting over this? She didn’t know.
When he looked at her, the blonde didn’t put a fake smile on her face anymore nor she cried, it was rather expressionless. As he started talking, she flopped down beside him which made their shoulders brush, she had no more energy to utter another word but she had to, that’s what she thought. Obviously, looking at the tear in his eyes hurt her, who would like to see their friend cry? But the problem is she didn’t know if he was her friend or more than that. Turning to look at his face “How do you know what’s best for me?” her throat croaked from crying, but it was toneless. It was so near, she gazed at his green eyes so intensely before turning away.
The blonde remained silent when he started to talk again, she had no answers for any of his questions but he had a point. If he had not told her about this, she would’ve forgotten everything that happened. For her, it was not a big thing that would make her worry for weeks but she understood everyone is not the same, everyone has a different perspective. If it was someone else in Aldor’s place he would think no more of it just like her. But it’s Aldor, if that’s how he thinks who could change that except him? Fully aware, her hands reached for his face to wipe the tear which rolled down on his cheek just like he did the other day, “Does that mean you’re still going to worry?”, with her face still blank and her voice being husky.
Sta 8|Eva 5|Str 8|Wis 6|Arc 5|Acc 8
LOVELY CREATURE| OBNOXIOUSLY STRONG
22 Jul 2021, 22:34
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
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Aldor remained silent for a few seconds, he wasn't sure how to answer just yet, so he simply said what came to his mind.
''I don't know, all I know is that we are still young- ''
He took a deep breath as he tried his best to calm down, he didn't want to worry his friend anymore, but he couldn't stop himself from letting a few more tears out.
''You still have- So much more ahead of you, you shouldn't have to be worried about the nonsense going on in my mind.''
He needed a few seconds to regain his composture after he felt her shoulder brush with his own, he was being honest, he couldn't get over it, and if he did, it would take weeks, maybe even months, behind those green eyes and shy smile, there was something wild, a ticking bomb just waiting to break everything. Overwhelming, that's the only way Aldor could describe this, everything about this year was already stressful, but this was making everything unbearable, it just seemed like notw that he is going through this horrible emotions, more of them come back to him and make it even worst.
He felt like his brain was going to burst any second, until he felt her hands reaching for his face, he froze again, for a few seconds he managed to focus again, he didn't know why, but it just happened.
''I-I can try not to worry. But are we just going to pretend I didn't say it? You very clearly know what I feel now but-''
He didn't finish his phrase, he supposed that she would understand that he meant to ask if she felt the same way about him, but once again, even if she did, what would he do with that knowledge?
@Vivian Fletcher
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
31 Jul 2021, 15:05
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
code by Lucia Fox
Interacting with @Aldor Humbleglow
Totally damaged, that’s what she would say if anyone has asked her about this situation. No, it’s not right, she screwed up, it was all her wrong. It was so surprising, his confession literally blew up her mind, why in the world would someone like her? She wanted to ask him but this is not the right time to do so. The blonde was well aware that it would make the situation even worse, which she tried to avoid. All she did for the few minutes is to just listen to him and respond to him in her thoughts, definitely she felt as though she had no voice to word out, to argue or accept what he said.
How can she be untroubled when it was her mistake!? She wanted to do anything to change it right but the problem is, she didn’t know how. That’s what frustrates her more and more as time went on. She would try her best regardless of how it comes to end. When he stopped, she turned to look at him with a slight tilt of the head, “But what?”, taking a long breath, she turned away as she continued, “Yes, I know”, which she regretted asking but would definitely not say to him.
Shaking her head slightly as she looked down at her nails, “But pretend? No Aldor, I am not going to even if you want me to. I am trying to forget- to move on, It’s better that way”. The blonde wouldn’t want him to be hurt, especially because of her. The worst thing for her would be hurting her own friend. They were sitting close but it felt like they both were not friends, more like strangers, no something worse than that. This is not right and She didn’t like this, she wanted to go back in time to change everything that has happened.
Folding her legs to her chest, “I want the old times back, I am scared if it’s more to ask”, with that she would place her head on her knees. Finally in her life, she got a handful of friends, friends who she really cares for, friends who really cares for her, “I don’t want to lose any of you, no matter the cost”, she muttered to herself. This is not something that is hard to forget at least for Vivian, it is a bitter memory from which she would soon try to move on from. Maybe their worries are confusing them to do things they normally wouldn’t do. Yes, that must be the reason or else why would Aldor like her?
Sta 8|Eva 5|Str 8|Wis 6|Arc 5|Acc 8
LOVELY CREATURE| OBNOXIOUSLY STRONG
2 Aug 2021, 19:05
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
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Terrible Presence in effect
Aldor wouldn't answer, he was still deep in thought when she was still telling him that she didn't want to lose any of her friends, maybe Vivian could forget it, Aldor wold most likely struggle for a very long time.
He couldn't blame her of course, he couldn't make her feel the same way as he did, and even if she did feel the same way, what was he supposed to do with that? Ask her to be his girlfriend? That would be stupid, or that's what Aldor thought, after all, he was still young, he wasn't ready to have that responsability.
He didn't have anything clear, he didn't know anything about flirting or dating, the few things he knew were things that he saw around him, his siblings and their partners, his aunt and the person she was dating, but no one ever taught him how to handle his emotions, he was a ticking time bomb full of stress, fear, feelings that a child his age shouldn't have to be worried about, yet, here he was, stuck in the same place, feeling the need to cry but not being able to. No one told him it was alright to cry every once in a while, no one told him that being scared is part of being alive, no one told him that feeling is normal.
He would hide everything behind a poker face, just like he had done many times before. Maybe Vivian thought that it was all an honest mistake, but no one could really see how Aldor felt except for Aldor himself, he knew what he said, it wasn't a mistake or something that he didn't think twice, every day after what happened, he felt suffocated by the haunting thought of not understading if he was wrong or not.
''You're right- I guess we just have to forget it-''
@Vivian Fletcher
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
10 Aug 2021, 10:34
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
code by Lucia Fox
Interacting with @Aldor Humbleglow
Everything that happened this day was unexpected, she didn't know why she was struggling with her unstable feelings, anything he said hurt her. When he confessed his feeling, it bewildered her and when he said he didn’t want her or that’s what she believed, it’s still painful. Isn’t it easy to move on? But how could she fake her feelings anymore? Even if they remain friends, she wouldn’t be able to look at him in the same way hereafter. if he hasn’t said that he liked her, she would have tried to evade her feelings and act how she behaves usually but now it’s not possible.
Even if she behaves like she would forget and lied to herself the same, is it possible? Only the time could answer. Out of the blue, “Oh!”, the blonde totally forgot about her mother in this mess. Wiping the wetness in her face completely and taking few deep breaths, “How do I look? I mean she knows I cried before but does it look like I cried now?” she raised her eyebrows at him expecting an answer. Even though her face looked so red, her eyes swollen and her voice being hoarse, she didn’t realise anything other than the change in her voice.
“My mom is waiting, bye Aldor”, putting the fake smile on her face, she rushed back to her mom. “You said five minutes” her mother stood her with her hands on her hip, smiling sheepishly, “Sorry” mouthed Vivian as she didn’t want her mother to know she cried but she somehow doubted “Did you cr-” she squinted her eyes at Vivian. “No!” the blonde started before her mom could finish the sentence, “You got everything, right? Let’s go then” she didn’t mind her voice and she knows her mom understood that she doesn’t want to be questioned now.
Vivian left the thread
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LOVELY CREATURE| OBNOXIOUSLY STRONG
11 Aug 2021, 01:32
Cheerios and Chocolate Milk
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Iphiane - Aldor
Aldor shook his head answering her question.
He didn't say a single word, he wasn't even able to say goodbye, he merely waved weakly, because when he tried to say 'bye' nothing came out, it was like even his voice decided to fade away in fear. He messed up badly, he made a terrible mistake, was this the last time he would speak with his friend? He didn't know what to think anymore.
He look terribly sad, he couldn't hide it anymore, he didn't mean to hurt Vivian, he cared for her, but her couldn't find the words to say what he was thinking.
Just a few minutes after Vivian left, Iphiane was already stepping into the shop, gasping for air, she must have ran all the way here considering how tired she looked.
''Good, you're still here. Did your friend leave already?''
Aldor nodded, he couldn't hide his emotions anymore, it wasn't like it mattered, Iphiane knew that he was acting strange after all.
''She just left, her mom was waiting for her- Can we go now?''
His aunt looked at him, he was not the same kind and adorable Aldor, he was growing up, and his poor aunt wasn't sure if she was happy about this, his moodswings were increasingly worrying her. He was never mean to her, and he never did anything that could harm anyone, but he was always sad nowdays, and the few times that he was truly happy faded in only a few minutes.
''-You told her you like her, right?''
Aldor's eyes widened a little, he was a bit startled, he didn't feel like talking about it anymore, but he felt curious about how she knew.
''Maybe- How do you know?-''
She simply smiled, putting a hand on Aldor's head, she looked a little worried.
''I just do, next time, if you don't want me to know something, you shouldn't read what you write out loud.''
And so, she took Aldor's hand in hers, and walked out of the shop with him. Today was a nightmare for him, but he had to learn from his mistakes, he couldn't expect that life always made things easy for him, but right now, all he could think of was how tired he was, eventually, he would think about what just happened, and maybe with some luck, he would learn from something from all of this.
@Vivian Fletcher
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."