Finished I’m Unsure How To Feel… PV: Ava Winchect

Dear Ava,
Nope. No older siblings. Just Eliza, my younger sister. Do you have any siblings? I just realized I have no clue.

Wow. Hope you don’t mind me saying this but shes a jerk. (I would have used a different word, but I had a feeling they wouldn’t let you read it.

Hey. You’ve made some progress. Keep at it. Please.

Your hopeful friend,
Charlie

Dear Charlie,
I have a half brother and a stepbrother. They’re both my step-mums favorite but I still love them dearly.

The thing that gets me is that she didn’t just lend me the knife thinks, ‘oh I wonder what craft she’ll make’. No, this was a ‘I don’t care who you hurt so long as it isn’t me or my friends’. Which is so messed up. When im having a bad day, sometimes I can convince myself it’s her fault I’m here. If she hadn’t given me the knife then I wouldn’t have tried anything.

I have a sort of…truce with the people who read these letters. If I’m being honest they helped me a lot. They got me my progress and they’re helping me keep my progress. She’s unlike all the other staff here, so kind and patient. She looks like she wants to be here and she’s completely happy with her life. I wish I knew how that felt. And the way she acts toward me…tender yet scolding like I’m a misbehaving child. That would be my first of being a child thought of in this way.

What’s life like at Hogwarts? Is everything well?

Longing for you,
Ava

Dear Ava,
Sorry it took me so long to respond. I owed a huge transfiguration essay and of course I put it off until the last second. I got it done though.

That’s just… not right.

That’s good. I’m glad they’re helping you though. I’m also glad you found your person, the person that helps you and makes you better.

Hogwarts is trash without you. Can I shove you in the lake when you get back?

Missing you,
-Charlie

Dear Charlie,
I thought you hated me again. Please don’t do that to me again. Ever. Between the time you last owled me I’ve been thinking about how sorry I am but I have no idea how to make it up to Lucian. Plus, he doesn’t want to talk to me.

Nothing about Thorn is right. She compared herself LeStrange in a good way.

I’m glad I found someone too. I’m surprised I’m not out of my mind going insane right now.

Not surprised. Very dull, I assume. And yes, of course you can shove me in the lake when I get back.

Don’t do that again,
- Ava

Dear Ava,
I’m sorry. I just wanted an alright grade. Which I ended up getting lower than expected, but who cares. You don’t have to think about that right now. It’s fine. Lucian is here, at Hogwarts. And where is Ava? At St. Mungos. Not the same place. Plus, I strongly doubt they would let him near you.

That is… very problematic. I think she did worse than you. You stopped yourself. You didn’t do it. If Thorn was in your situation, we both know she would have followed through. And most likely gotten herself expelled.

You are right. Dull. Boring. Lame. School.

I won’t,
-Charlie

Dear Charlie,
But we both know I have to come back at some point. I can’t avoid Lucian for all my life. I’d love to try to do that, but let’s be realistic. I’m going to need to apologize at some point.

I wish she was me. Then I could still be at school, perfectly fine and content where I am. But

Can you send me some of the school work? I don’t have my wand but I don’t want to be terribly behind everyone when I come back.

I’m glad,
Ava

Dear Ava,
Yes. I guess that is true. You could probably be practicing you apologies now if you really wanted. Thats what I would do.

Alright. I will send you a few assignments that have no spells in them. Good job thinking ahead and deciding to get a jump start on some work.

-Charlie

Dear Charlie,
Maybe. I still don’t know what to do. I really want to apologize to him but I cringe just thinking about it.

Thanks for helping me catch up. I’m going to have to work extra hard to catch up. And it’s going to be harder without my wand. I’ll manage.

What’s happening at school? What’s the latest thing without me?

Sincerely,
Ava

Dear Ava,
It’s ok. You’re not coming back tomorrow, so you dont have to do it yet. Or even think about it yet. At least, I think you’re not coming back yet. But I want it to be soon.

You will. I know you will.

Well they hosted an event to try and unify us, but stupid AngelFrye decided that it would be a good idea to spill cranberry juice all over my white pants. I got a date to a valentines ball but he didn’t even show up. Completely ghosted me. Didn’t even respond to my owls. And there was a book trading event. I dressed up as sophie from KOTLC.

With love,
Charlie

Dear Charlie,
I feel not only bad about what I did to Lucian. But also for what I've withheld from you still visable despite how hard she tried to cross it out

How are the teachers? The students? Any cute boys lurking in the halls?

Unity sounds good after what happened... Did she spill it on purpose? Okay, yeah that's mean but it's not that big of a deal, right? Ava doesn't know you're a dhamphir (still cant spell it lol) Who were you going with for the Valentines day ball? Anyone hot? Flirty? The book trading event sounds fun, wish I could be there.

Working through the homework,
Ava