Completely Lost Closed

Kendra had been buried in her "History of Magic" book for more than one hour. Even so she was able to comprehend only the first half of the first chapter.  Her interest gradually faded away as she started flipping through the pages without actually reading them. She finally set the book down on the desk in front of her and leaned  back against her chair. 

She had had very little experience with magic even though she was a pure-blood. She never really cared to use it and it only came to her by instinct. She held in a small yawn and looked around at all the other students that had their faces buried in some book or were trying to achieve some sort of spell. 

Her eyes landed on a girl just a little further away from where she was sitting. She began watching her attempts in making the feather float with genuine interest. One could say she found watching others use magic more interesting than actually using it herself. She observed the girl's movements, her words. She had yet to realise that staring could be considered rude but until then, she did it very often like a bad habit.  

Christy had been trying to make the feathe levitate for at least an hour at this point, only getting it to jump a little bit, but never to actually float and move around how other students had been able to even on the first day of classes. "Am I ever going to figure out how to do this?" she thought to herself. 

Frustrated with the feather, she put it away and moved on to another subject, History of Magic. "Maybe I'll have better luck with this class since there's no magical practice involved with it..." she thought as she pulled the book out and flipped to the first page. She didn't realize how long the history of magic was, and, wow it was dense. "Maybe this won't be as easy as I thought," she said to herself as so many names and unfamiliar names were thrown at her all at once. It seemed like she was reading the same section over and over, while taking notes, making flashcards, to hopefully help her remember everything, but, unfortunately, she felt that none of this was sticking. She started looking around the study room again and noticed another girl sitting nearby who looked like she was reading the same book. "Maybe I should ask her if she wants to study with me... That might make it easier... But I don't want to bother her if she'd rather study by herself..." she thought as she battled with herself on what to do.

Kendra observed the girl as she gave up on trying to make the feather levitate and pulled out History Of Magic. She was a little disappointed that the girl gave up so quickly, she would like to see her succeed. She took a look at her History Of Magic book still laying on the desk. Just looking at it made her feel dizzy. She had never studied with company before therefore she wasn't certain if it helped or not. But just the thought of maybe helping someone else on something she might understand and them doing the same thing made her feel like it was something worthwhile. She had gained a lot of confidence since she had first come to Hogwarts. She still needed to gather up her courage for a few seconds, take a deep breath and turn to look at the girl again. 

"Hey there." she said quietly as to not bother the other students studying around them. "I'm Kendra, would you like to study together?" she asked and smiled at the girl.

Christy looked up from her notes, surprised by the sudden interaction after so much silence. She smiled as she noticed the girl was studying for the same class and said, "Sure, I'd love that," she cleared some of her stuff from the table so the other girl could join her. She reached out her hand to shake and introduced herself, "I'm Christy, it's nice to meet you." She was happy that someone had offered to study with her, she didn't know what she would do without some socializing after so long of studying. She'd go mad for sure.

She looked at the girl, curious of her background and asked, "how did you find out about your magick? Is your family all witches and wizards, too?" Christy loved to hear stories of growing up with magick since she was muggle-born and had no idea what it was like. "Personally, I come from a muggle family, so I have no idea what it's like growing up around it. We honestly found out about mine by accident and kind of doubted it for a while until we couldn't deny it anymore." Christy's face flushed as she realized she was talking too much, she didn't want to scare the other girl away.

Kendra picked up her stuff and set them all carefully at the desk. She pulled the chair and sat next to Christy. 

"I'm Kendra." she said and shook the girl's hand. 

She opened the book and listened to the girl talk about her magic and her family. That was the first time a muggle born had revealed her "blood status" as she introduced herself to her. Kendra had been raised in a muggle hating environment but had never shared her family's beliefs. She considered the whole idea of "blood status" ridiculous. She thought it best not to go in detail about it while speaking with this girl for the first time. 

"My parents are both wizards." she began explaining. "My grandparents were wizards too but you know what they say, there is no such thing as a one hundred per cent "pure-blood".". She smiled. "To be honest everyone thought I was a squib since maybe two years ago. I showed absolutely no signs of magic. It drove my parents crazy but here I am." she concluded.

Christy listened intently as the girl told her about her family history - it was all so fascinating to her. "What do you mean there's no one hundred percent wizard? What if there's one who's entire family as far back as possible were all wizards?" Christy didn't really understand it. Surely it was possible for there to be a true pure blood.

As she waited for an answer from the other girl, she continued to try and study her History of Magick textbook. Seemingly she was reading the same few sentences over and over, not really understanding anything still.

Kendra shrugged and opened her History of Magic book again.

"Well yeah that's the thing. Some people say it's all lies. I have read in a book that we were once the same as muggles. I am not sure if that means that they also had magic or that we didn't, but as we evolved I guess magic was either discovered or forgotten."  she explained.

Her parents would freak out if they ever found out about that particular book. Kendra had made sure to keep it well hidden and read it every night when everyone was asleep. 

"That's why wizards are born in muggle families. Because magic is always there in every person even if they can control it or not." she smiled. 

Thoughts like this kept her mind balanced and shielded from her parents preaching against muggles. 

"I wish we were taught stuff like that here." she said looking at the book which she knew only dated back to the middle ages. The origins of magic were still unknown to everyone but nevertheless a simple story like that would at least keep the discrimination at bay. 

Christy listened carefully as the girl spoke of the history of magick. The book surely didn't teach this, but it was so interesting! If the book was written more like that, Christy would surely like it even better, rather than this dense, boring book it was. It made sense, though, that magick is just 'awakened' in certain people. Maybe everyone had magick, but some only in mundane ways. "That's really interesting, actually! I'd like to think everyone has magick and 'muggles' only have mundane powers, like being a really fast reader, or having a photographic memory, or something like that. It kind of makes humanity seem a lot more exciting than people normally see it as." Christy's mind was running wild with possibilities. She'd always been imaginative that way; always believing in ideas that most people haven't even thought of.

She looked up and smiled at the other girl, "I wish we were taught that, too. It'd make the book and the class much more interesting. I wonder why they don't. It's almost like they want to make muggles and wizards completely separate from one another, which is weird, since, like you said, a lot of wizards come from muggle families..." Christy trailed off and was lost in her imagination of it again.

Kendra observed Christy as she was talking, her face lit up and her eyes seem to be looking at something that wasn't there as she went on about what sounded like a perfectly balanced world. A world that didn't exist and some people would prefer it if it never would. That thought made Kendra sad and she thought about her parents again. 



"The first part about the blizzard of soap is understandable enough, the economic part is what really confuses me." she said attempting to get in the spirit of studying. 

She looked at Christy again. Thinking of all the things she had heard growing up she found it so very hard to see what it was about a person born in the muggle world that made them different from anyone else. She was very relieved to see that none of the things her parents said were true.