Boys are dumb. PV Rosie Fin.

Serena sighed. Maybe Rosie was right. Jealousy seemed to be the only explanation she could think of but it was ridiculous, there was literally nothing going on between them! He had not even wanted to kiss her! It was just a hug. She did not know how this all happened, since everything had happened so fast but it sure as heck felt like her fault. The whole thing felt like her fault, though she was not sure why.

"I'm not mad at him!" She suddenly said, rather defensively, as though Rosie had suggested something outrageous. The idea of him thinking she was mad at him was outrageous! Of course, she was not mad at him. Why would she be? He did nothing wrong. This was not his fault. It was hers! She had no idea to be mad at him but he had every right to be angry with her. After all, she was the one who attacked his girlfriend and lashed out.

Her cheeks went red a little, blushing at the thought of there being more feelings. "N-no," She mumbled at the thought of that. She definitely did not have any feelings for him, of course not. That was ridiculous! Her stomach did not do flips every time she saw him. Serena was sitting up, staring intently at the ground below her as she tugged on her sleeves. There was no way. The thought of talking to him about this was sending her chest into a panicked frenzy, "I- I don't-" She continued. She shook her head, moving her hand a little as to wave it off.

She did not like him. Of course not. This was not... "Shit. I... like him..." She admitted after a few moments of silence, realisation dawning on her. Raising her knees, dropping her forehead against them, she buried herself into them. This was bad, this was very bad. This was awful... "I really like him, don't I?" No wonder Falentra was jealous. Wait - did everyone know? Was it that obvious? Was it like just tattoo-ed on her forehead for all to know? She coughed a little, it was hot out here. It was really hot. Why was she burning up? "I- I should- I'm just... going to go." Serena mumbled, already pushing herself off the grass feeling horrified by the whole thing.

Boys were not dumb, she was. This was the dumbest thing she could do. Of all of the people, why him? A question she wished she never considered because her mind promptly attempted to answer it: by filling her brain with memories and moments of the things Howard did that made him amazing in her eyes.

"Thanks for uh, listening to me... And I'm sorry, I- I just- I need to be alone right now- Can you do me a favour? Please don't tell him. Or anyone for that matter. Falentra would... murder me. Quite rightly so. And it's probably nothing, I'm sure it's just a passing feeling, I don't actually-" Serena tried so hard to justify it, or rather dismiss her feelings. They were nothing. This would pass. Just a momentary lapse of intelligence that made her fall for the one guy she should not. The one guy she knew had a girlfriend, who he loved and who was very jealous. Damnit. "Thanks for hearing me out, Ros," She continued, with a sigh. There was no point in saying she did not have feelings for him, when her heart was painfully telling her otherwise. She scooped up Pizza.

She felt so crap. This was... terrible. This was dumb. But it was what it was and right now, she just needed to get away, be alone and breathe. She needed time to convince herself she did not like him, so she could move on. Excusing herself from the situation, she took a few steps back before turning on the spot and quickly heading back towards the castle. Shit. Of all of the people, why @Howard White? Shit. She was dumb.

Serena leaves the thread.