2 May 2021, 00:58
I will not say that I'm not okay
Barely a month passed since Henry found that his twin sister was missing. Barley a month has passed since the teen has been spending every waking hour researching anything he could find on the Knights. Barely a month has past since the boy officially became a teenager. Barley a month has past since his life felt like it has been destroyed.
Henry as always been good at hiding his emotions, at keeping his thoughts and feelings to himself. A skill that he perfected throughout the years so no one could tell that he suffered from anxiety and panic attacks, so no could tell what the teen was actually thinking about, so he would no one get hurt. However the past few days felt like complete turmoil to the teen.
First he finds out his twin sister is missing then he gets a letter from her specifically saying she was with the Knights but communication between then was terminated. Then he gets a howler from his father the next day blaming him for his sister's disappearance in front of nearly everyone in the great hall. Then he sort accidentally let some of his emotions out on his friends, like being Aldor Humbleglow which he felt extremely horrible for and also on his future step brother; Franklin Moon who gave him a letter he got from his twin to. Then there was the absences in his classes and the mistaken visit to tje astronomy professor where he asked a few peculiar questions which only succeeded in the astronomy professor sending a owl informing Henry about a private meeting involving his questions. And one of this included painfully long duelling practices and having to listen to his captain who was rather intimating especially with zero losses and studying with examination coming up with pressure to get O's on each exam for each class and tje constant feeling that he has to tell everyone that he's find and not let his guard down because he's the one who usually ends up helping his friends. But currently the teen was far from fine.
Henry found himself at the back of his class struggling to stay awake. Struggling to listen to the lecture. If anyone would look back at the teen, they would see dark bags under his eyes and complexion would seen a bit sickly looking or sleep deprived. And only close friends would notice that the teen appeared a bit skinnier then usual probably from skipping multiple meals in favor of the library in recent weeks.
The boy would stare down at his journal scribbled with his findings but unfortunately still had close to nothing. The address still haunting in Henry's mind as he was dwelling over if he should visit the place over the summer holiday...
Henry vowed that he would tell his best friend about the address because he figured Logan would know what to say and also she was one of the few people that he currently trusted with his life basically, then he thought about asking Kara for help or advice again since the fellow slytherin seemed pretty good at it the first time and he could use her help again..... then he remembered Rose and how the two would be step siblings soon and living in the same house that summer. Prehaps he could get her to join him in visiting the address?
However that was when Henry remembered Aldor Humbleglow. The hufflepuff first year who he thought of as a close friend and research partner and wanted to tell him all of the information he found but was hesitant. He wasn't sure if the boy would even help him still or even consider him a friend still after Henry walked out on him in their last meeting.... the teen felt awful for it but wasn't sure what to say to his close friend and research partner now.
As the thoughts circled around Henry's head, he couldn't take it anymore and slipped his journal in his bag before raising his hand and speaking up, " could I go to the bathroom professor?" but the teen wouldn't even wait for a answer as he grabbed his bag and pulled it over his shoulders as he bolted from tje classroom feeling his breathing grow heavier and pulse quicken.
The teen thought about heading back toward his dormitory but then remember Wyatt Starkey or Skeletor as he nicknamed him. That slytherin seemed like the type to hold this aginest him or as blackmail if he caught Henry having a panic attack and wanting to avoid that the teen directed to head somewhere my private...
Running through the corridors till he got to the fourth floor unsure where to go or what to do as his breathing felt heavier and chest tighter and the corridor started to spin making the teen feel dizzy but not wanting everybody to see him about to have a panic attack the teen pushed the door open to the boy's lavatory and rushed in.
Dropping his bag next to a sink as he dropped the slytherin robe uniform on top revealing a slytherin sweater underneath with the uniform black jeans. The boy would pull off the tie and drop it on the bag as well before gripping the sink sides in his hands and taking deep breaths as he felt his chest tighten and head throb going along with his heart pounding.
The teen would feel the room spin for a feel moments and find it hard to breath before he would fiddle with the sink to turn on the cold water and splash a bit on his face, leaving the water running.
The boy would grip the sink sides rather harder again and continue his quick but deep breaths as tears would start to flow from his eyes.
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"There's no such thing as strange creatures, only blinked people" - Newt Scamander
2 May 2021, 18:01
I will not say that I'm not okay
After a while, a few quiet footsteps could be heard entering the bathroom, it was a ginger haired Hufflepuff. The one who met Henry at the lake, and after that became friends with him, spending time reading together, and investigating many things. Last time they talked, it didn't end well, both went separate ways, and didn't meet since then.
When Henry walked away, Aldor felt like he wanted to run after him, and tell him to stop fighting on his own, but he couldn't, he didn't have the strength to do that, so instead, he simply let him go, but today, the Irish boy would make sure this would not be the case, he would be of help, however he could.
''Henry?-''
He slowly approached his friend, but he could only assume one thing, he was having a panic attack. Aldor took a deep breath. He kept some space between the both of them, but still enough so he could see him. His voice was firm, but calm, just like the way he talked to him at the library.
''Henry, look at me, I'm here, it's ok, just- follow my lead, alright?''
He breathed deeply, inhaling through his nose, exhaling through his mouth. He looked back up at Henry, somehow, Aldor was really calm, inside, he wasn't, he was scared and worried, confused. But he did his best to help Henry feel calm.
He didn't feel superior to Henry, not at all, he was just as scared as him, maybe even more, but one thing was very clear to Aldor, he loved Henry, he was his friend, and Aldor, being the way he always was, preffered to help his friends, over solving his own worries. This was the way the boy acted, this was how his heart worked, this, was Aldor Humbleglow.
@Henry Knight
When Henry walked away, Aldor felt like he wanted to run after him, and tell him to stop fighting on his own, but he couldn't, he didn't have the strength to do that, so instead, he simply let him go, but today, the Irish boy would make sure this would not be the case, he would be of help, however he could.
''Henry?-''
He slowly approached his friend, but he could only assume one thing, he was having a panic attack. Aldor took a deep breath. He kept some space between the both of them, but still enough so he could see him. His voice was firm, but calm, just like the way he talked to him at the library.
''Henry, look at me, I'm here, it's ok, just- follow my lead, alright?''
He breathed deeply, inhaling through his nose, exhaling through his mouth. He looked back up at Henry, somehow, Aldor was really calm, inside, he wasn't, he was scared and worried, confused. But he did his best to help Henry feel calm.
He didn't feel superior to Henry, not at all, he was just as scared as him, maybe even more, but one thing was very clear to Aldor, he loved Henry, he was his friend, and Aldor, being the way he always was, preffered to help his friends, over solving his own worries. This was the way the boy acted, this was how his heart worked, this, was Aldor Humbleglow.
@Henry Knight
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
2 May 2021, 19:51
I will not say that I'm not okay
Warning: mention of a panic attack
Interacting: @Aldor Humbleglow
Mentioning: N/A
Languages: English | French | Italian | Arabic | Russian
Henry felt himself griped the sides of sink tighter as his breath became heavier and quicker with each breath. Tears ran down his face causing his cheeks to fluster a bit of a reddish color as his hair fell over his eyes making the ends a bit damp from splashing water on his face moments ago. The sink still running.
The teen didn't imagine anyone would be entering the boy's lavatory at that moment in time but he was so wrong. For his ears picked up the door opening and footsteps and then a familiar voice.
One that belonged to Aldor Humbleglow. A close friend. One that he wanted to help not throw his problems on.
But there wasn't much Henry could do at the current moment as he felt his body weight lean aginest the sink that he was gripping as tears rushed down his face and his breathing was quick but also heavy. When he heard the hufflepuff call his name but his anxiety and panic attack kept him from answering until he heard the boy's next words and then heard him breath... in and out very deeply... the sound reminded the teen of his first panic attack when his older brother found him and told him what to do. It was comforting to the boy.
Henry kept his grip on the sink's sides but closed his eyes, trembling a bit as he took slow breaths in then out much like Aldor's that lasted for a few moments.
Once the teen was calm enough to control his emotions, he would move a slightly trembling hand to turn off the sink before moving it back to the side and letting his head hang down looking into the drain allowing his hair to fall down in front of his blue eyes.
"Thank you Al," Henry spoke quietly and it would he a few minutes till he would speak again, " I'm sorry you had to find me here and help me. My burdens aren't your problems and I'm sorry Aldor," the second year learned not to bother others with his worries or problems or emotions because he would have rather helped his friends with their own problems and worries.
The second year would take another breath still staring down the drain of the sink he was currently holding onto as he spoke" I'm sorry I left you in the library and that I bothered you with my problems Al, I value you and your friendship deeply and I'm sorry."
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"There's no such thing as strange creatures, only blinked people" - Newt Scamander
3 May 2021, 16:17
I will not say that I'm not okay
Aldor would sigh quietly, in all honesty, the only thing that the quiet boy did not want to hear were apologies, he was not angry, or dissapointed, but he understood why Henry did the things he did, it took him a bit of time too understand that, but now that he did, he only wanted for his friend to be fine.
''Don't apologize for that, It's fine, it was my fault, I messed with personal things, but- I did not want to step back and just watch you drown on your own troubles-''
Aldor smiled softly, Henry probably knew that he only did this to hide what he was truly feeling, but the Hufflepuff didn't care. At this point, his only worries were making Henry feel alright.
''If I simply abandoned you to your own luck, I would be no better than anyone else, after all, helping, that's what friends are for, right?-''
He remained in silence, giving space for Henry to say anything he wished. In reality, Aldor was scared and confused, he wished he could be a bit more help than simply standing there, but he probably did not know how valuable his help truly was.
In the end, the fact that his friend was feeling a little better, kept the boy calm, and helped him go through his thoughts slowly, it helped him understand the situation and feel more confident on what to do next, it didn't really matter what that thing next would be, if it involved helping Henry, he would do it.
@Henry Knight
''Don't apologize for that, It's fine, it was my fault, I messed with personal things, but- I did not want to step back and just watch you drown on your own troubles-''
Aldor smiled softly, Henry probably knew that he only did this to hide what he was truly feeling, but the Hufflepuff didn't care. At this point, his only worries were making Henry feel alright.
''If I simply abandoned you to your own luck, I would be no better than anyone else, after all, helping, that's what friends are for, right?-''
He remained in silence, giving space for Henry to say anything he wished. In reality, Aldor was scared and confused, he wished he could be a bit more help than simply standing there, but he probably did not know how valuable his help truly was.
In the end, the fact that his friend was feeling a little better, kept the boy calm, and helped him go through his thoughts slowly, it helped him understand the situation and feel more confident on what to do next, it didn't really matter what that thing next would be, if it involved helping Henry, he would do it.
@Henry Knight
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
3 May 2021, 18:35
I will not say that I'm not okay
Interacting: @Aldor Humbleglow
Mentioning: N/A
Languages: English | French | Italian | Arabic | Russian
Henry left his hands on the sides of the sink and contoured to look down the drain as hair covered his eyes and the ends were a bit moist from earlier but he did listen to Aldor.
His breath went back to normal, as his breaths were rather slow. In then out as he concentration a bit on his breathing to calm himself down and try to control his anxiety just a little bit... just enough so that it remained hidden to others.
Henry heard the first year's words and understood them but still a part of him didn't want to bother anyway with his problems. Before Hogwarts he learned how to do things on his own and take care of his own problems, so now he felt like a burden or a bother when someone helped him. And the teen hated to feel that way, he hated to imagine that he was bothering someone with his own troubles when they had their own that he could help them with.
"I still shouldn't have bothered you with mind when instead I should have been helping you with yours Al," Henry replied feeling his emotions hide behind his blue eyes again and emotions go back to being hidden from view as he heard Aldor's voice again and let out a small grin.
"You know that I'll always be here for Al, and I'll always help you with anything," the teen spoke before pushing his hair out of his eyes and wiping his eyes clean. Emotions were long gone from his face again, giving the teen the appearance as a emotionless statue.
Henry would finally turn to look toward Aldor for the first time, probably since his emotions were back on check and the boy could focus on his words as he spoke" helping each other? Yeah, that sounds like what friends are suppose to do although I don't know for sure," the boy grinned a little not entirely sure what friends were suppose to do with each other.
He would meet Aldor's eyes and for a moment remained silent until he would speak" thanks for coming in when you did, Al."
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"There's no such thing as strange creatures, only blinked people" - Newt Scamander
5 May 2021, 16:30
I will not say that I'm not okay
Aldor looked away, his face going a bit red as he tried to think of an answer to what Henry just said, he usually didn't get many thanks from other people, and he understood why Henry was thanking him, but the boy didn't feel comfortable getting thanked for something that in the end was a coincidence.
''I-I only got here in the right moment, I am glad you are alright but it also could have been someone else, not like I am sort of savior or something-''
The boy's smile faded for a bit, as he looked down, Aldor wasn't confident at all in this situation, just like he said before, he was glad that Henry was alright, and that was as far as that went, but he did not actually have any sort of heroic intentions, he was just doing what he believed was right, and what would help his friend.
In other situations, he would have been unable to do anything to be helpful, but this time, it involved Henry, and even if Aldor wasn't the type of person that you would describe as 'good', he wasn't going to abandon his friend, even if lately he was unsure of what he was living, and was confused as to who he was, his friends were his priority.
@Henry Knight
''I-I only got here in the right moment, I am glad you are alright but it also could have been someone else, not like I am sort of savior or something-''
The boy's smile faded for a bit, as he looked down, Aldor wasn't confident at all in this situation, just like he said before, he was glad that Henry was alright, and that was as far as that went, but he did not actually have any sort of heroic intentions, he was just doing what he believed was right, and what would help his friend.
In other situations, he would have been unable to do anything to be helpful, but this time, it involved Henry, and even if Aldor wasn't the type of person that you would describe as 'good', he wasn't going to abandon his friend, even if lately he was unsure of what he was living, and was confused as to who he was, his friends were his priority.
@Henry Knight
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
5 May 2021, 23:06
I will not say that I'm not okay
Interacting: @Aldor Humbleglow
Mentioning: N/A
Languages: English | French | Italian | Arabic | Russian
The first year almost reminded Henry of himself a bit, where he was awkward about being thanked. Henry never like to be thanked either or recognition so the teen didn't push on it and just let it pass by giving the boy a nod and small smile.
His emotions were hidden behind his wall that was his bright blue eyes but the teen still felt them and his thoughts were becoming more organized about Aldor as he spoke" after classes today, do you want to meet me in the library Al? That is only if you want to or don't have other plans."
The teen never been open with others and was quite reserve, only opening to a few like Logan or Gia or Cash or Scarlett or Rose.... but when it came to the Knights and his sister's disappearance the boy was only able to talk to a few about it.
Logan for one and occasionally Rose but that was only when she bugged him about it... but now hopefully Aldor to since he liked the idea of having a partner in his research as he spoke softly, " Al? Would you like to become research partners? In my sisters disappearance but also with other things as well? I think we would make a good team."
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"There's no such thing as strange creatures, only blinked people" - Newt Scamander
7 May 2021, 17:16
I will not say that I'm not okay
Aldor would remain quiet, this time it was because of his own problems, Henry already had to deal with his own problems already, and learning about the Hufflepuff's worries would probably make things even worst for Henry.
So he simply faked a smile, and tried his best not to show how worried he actually was, it was hard to notice when Aldor was faking his smiles, after all, hiding his emotions was one of his many talents, and he knew how to use it quite neatly.
''Of course, Henry, our priority is finding your sister as soon as possible. Tell me what to do, I will do it in no time.''
The boy kept smiling, hiding the truth, he wasn't sure how long this would be, but he rathered not to think about it, he was going to become another obstacle, he was not willing to be a threat to his friends.
He wasn't sure how, he wasn't sure when, but eventually, he would have to figure out a way of contacting the group he named 'The Opalaye'. But maybe in this situation, taking things into his hands was better, unlike with Henry's problem, this people seemed to actually want to meet up with Aldor.
He was hesitant at first, but as a few days went by since he got that odd letter, he was more and more sure about what he was supposed to do.
@Henry Knight
So he simply faked a smile, and tried his best not to show how worried he actually was, it was hard to notice when Aldor was faking his smiles, after all, hiding his emotions was one of his many talents, and he knew how to use it quite neatly.
''Of course, Henry, our priority is finding your sister as soon as possible. Tell me what to do, I will do it in no time.''
The boy kept smiling, hiding the truth, he wasn't sure how long this would be, but he rathered not to think about it, he was going to become another obstacle, he was not willing to be a threat to his friends.
He wasn't sure how, he wasn't sure when, but eventually, he would have to figure out a way of contacting the group he named 'The Opalaye'. But maybe in this situation, taking things into his hands was better, unlike with Henry's problem, this people seemed to actually want to meet up with Aldor.
He was hesitant at first, but as a few days went by since he got that odd letter, he was more and more sure about what he was supposed to do.
@Henry Knight
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."
7 May 2021, 21:11
I will not say that I'm not okay
Interacting: @Aldor Humbleglow
Mentioning: N/A
Languages: English | French | Italian | Arabic | Russian
Henry offered his small smile and nod toward Aldor but hiding the rest of his emotions. He was good at that, hiding his emotions when he didn't have a panic attack that was. Probably why he missed Aldor hide is own and would think upon his words for a moment before starting, " were going to find my sister together but since were research partners then we can find other information or things together to Al."
The second year thought they made a good team when it came to researching and reading in the library but that was when Henry figured he should show him the note. The teen only showed it to his best friend and that was because he trusted Logan more than anyone else but he figured if Aldor was going to help him then he needed to see it.
"I received something the night my twin, uh A...Annabeth disappeared and thought you should read it before we meet up in the library," Henry started to speak when he would bend down and pull open his bag. Searching for a bit before finding the small parchment and standing again as he spoke" it may tell us something or reveal a clue on where she is."
Henry would let his eyes fall on the letter and read it over again, each time he read it the closer but also further he felt with his twin.
The teen would then hand the parchment out to the hufflepuff after a barely noticable breath.Henry,
I'm with the Knights
Any and all contact between us is terminated
- A Knight
Ps. Happy Birthday To Us
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"There's no such thing as strange creatures, only blinked people" - Newt Scamander
10 May 2021, 17:58
I will not say that I'm not okay
Aldor would sigh silently, looking back at Henry, he would shrug as he handed it back to Henry, not really knowing what to tell him, he was probably moer confused than sure of having anything to work with about this letter.
''I do not see any clues to anything here but, have this- I got something to show you too, I feel like this IS some sort of clue.
He handed Henry the letter he had gotten a few days ago, something that kept him awake for entire nights, making him feel increasingly nervous, he had to figure this out, and if it was related to the Knights, it would be dangerous for everyone close to him, but he couldn't hide this from Henry for long, so in the end, why not show it already? After all, having help would make this much easier.
''This is not a great moment to do this, after all, we are both supposed to be in classes- read the letter carefully, I couldn't help but feel like this is a puzzle related to you, meet me at the very back of the library after classes, we can figure this out together, I'm sure of that. ''
@Henry Knight The letter mentioned is dating back to the thread 'Am I Only A Threat?'
''I do not see any clues to anything here but, have this- I got something to show you too, I feel like this IS some sort of clue.
He handed Henry the letter he had gotten a few days ago, something that kept him awake for entire nights, making him feel increasingly nervous, he had to figure this out, and if it was related to the Knights, it would be dangerous for everyone close to him, but he couldn't hide this from Henry for long, so in the end, why not show it already? After all, having help would make this much easier.
''This is not a great moment to do this, after all, we are both supposed to be in classes- read the letter carefully, I couldn't help but feel like this is a puzzle related to you, meet me at the very back of the library after classes, we can figure this out together, I'm sure of that. ''
@Henry Knight The letter mentioned is dating back to the thread 'Am I Only A Threat?'
"Hope Is The Only Thing Stronger Than Fear."