15 Apr 2021, 23:58
Unexpected Advice from a unexpected place
Henry wasn't in the mood for socializing. The teen felt like his world that he once known has been ripped from him and destroyed right before his very eyes.
April 13th. The day before. His birthday. The day that he officially became a teenager. That day was suppose to be amazing. He celebrated with friends roasting marshmallows, eating snack, and generally joking around. Everything for once seemed perfect but the moment didn't last... that night the teen received a letter and present from his older brother stating that his twin sister was missing.
Henry felt like something was wrong that whole day but couldn't exactly put words to the thought. However after reading his brother's letter, everything made sense. Usually the teen wouldn't believe in twins being connected or knowing when the other was in danger thing but that nigiri changed everything.... throughout the day Henry felt like something awful happened and it did. His twin sister was gone. Missing.
Only thing was the teen also received a letter from his twin sister. Telling him that she was with the Knights and the communication between them was terminated. That night felt like his world completely flipped upside down and then destroyed. The teen felt useless and blamed himself for his sister's disappearance however that isn't the worst part.
April 14th. That morning. Henry wasn't expecting much and frankly didn't even want to leave his bunk. However the teen did, mainly to tell his best friend; Logan Baird what etaxcty happened the night before only their conversation came to a sudden halt when a howler was deliver to him. His father's voice would shout at him, blaming him for his twin sister running away. Telling him that he was the reason in front of everyone in the hall who could see or hear him.
After that, the teen kept his head low and even skipped a few classes. Feeling his anxiety itching all day till finally classes finished and Henry changed into a hoodie with a pair of jeans, grabbing the cassette tape, player, and earbuds that his elder brother gave him and also his wand.
Loki naturally followed behind as the second year navigated through the corridors till he found himself outside on the grounds. Laughter erupted around him from the surrounding students unfortunately the teen wanted to be alone apparently with his feline who was at his heels as he briskly walked through the courtyard then grounds.
Sitting down against the large oak type tree that he liked, facing the ripping lake with Loki sitting besides him.
Henry felt himself lost control of his emotions and his anxiety started to take over. The wind blew his hair over his gave as tears started to run down his cheeks.
It is my fault.... my fault that Anna is gone, my fault that mum is dead, it's all my fault... everything is my fault and I can't do anything about it...
'Finally coming to your sense?'
'Of course it's your fault, if it wasn't because of you then everything would be perfect'
'You ruin everything because your a failure'
'Your a pathetic loser, thank merlin you finally see that'
'You'll never be anything because you'll always be a failure'
Henry felt hot tears run down his face as he leaned his head against the tree with thoughts circling around his mind.
'A monster that only destroys everything you touch'
'Wyatt was right. you are strange'
'A freak actually'
'To stupid to realize that he is the problem'
'You deserve to be alone'
'The werewolf with no mum to comfort or twin to talk to... whose going to be next?'
Henry felt himself start to breakdown. The teen couldn't handle everything that happened even if he pretended earlier... he couldn't pretend anymore.
I don't want anyone else to get hurt. I don't want to destroy anyone's lives. I don't want to be the problem for anyone else.
I do deserve to be alone, it's the only way to ensure that I don't hurt anyone. Anymore because... because I am a monster.
A monster that destroys everything it touches and I don't want to hurt anyone, I don't want anyone to go through any pain....
The teen felt himself cry harder, his breathing quicken and head throbbed. He couldn't take everything around him not forever. He couldn't keep everything to himself. He couldn't continue looking in from the outside. He couldn't continue staying silent. He couldn't continue being forgotten and he especially couldn't hurt anyone else.
Henry absentmindedly started to pet his orange feline; Loki who recognized his human brother needed something or someone. So the feline clawed lightly at the pocket of his hoodie till part of the cassette player with the tape suck out.
Henry would wipe his tears with his sleeve before he would softly speak" what now, Loki," however when his hand would gasp the player something came over him. A cassette player didn't rely on electronically which meant it would work at Hogwarts that was a fact that Henry knew but what he didn't know was why did Arthur send it to him as a birthday present...
Henry would carefully place the ear buds in his ears before he would feel the player in his hand, turning it around for a moment before eyeing the tape that sat inside. A moment later and Henry clicked the button that triggers the tape to wind up or play as the sound of a three people filled his ears.. one is his father, one is unknown, and one is mum.
Don't want to live as a untold story....
Rather go out in a blaze of glory...
I can't hear you!
I don't fear you!
His mum's voice was almost like his.. high but unlike his, it was light and even a bit higher with hints of adventure in her voice...
Ed the next line is specifically about you
I'll live now because the bad die last...
Who had any fun being good anyway...
Ed? Whose Ed? And how did he know mum...
I can't hear you...
I don't fear you now!
Luke! Don't let me do this alone, your turn..
Wrapped in your regrets...
What a waste of blood and sweat...
Oh oh oh...
Henry listened to his father sing. It's been while since he heard his voice and how deep but nice it sounded, contrasting his mother's almost...
I want to taste love and pain
Wanna feel pride and shame
I don't want to take my time
Don't wanna waste one line
I wanna live better days
Never look back and say...
Could have been me...
Henry smiled a bit to his mother's voice singing lyrics of a muggle song that was unknown to the teen. From their voices it sounded like both his parents were having fun, like their were happy, like he was back in time...
Don't want to live as a unsung melody
I'd rather listen to the silence telling me
I can't hear you...
I won't fear you!
Don't wanna wake up on a monday morning..
The thought of work's getting my skin crawling
Want to finish Ed? Your voice was made for it...
I'm good sis
sis? He called her sis? Wait is Ed her brother? Is he my uncle? Maybe he's still alive... maybe I could talk to him about her...
I can't fear you...
I don't hear you now...
Wrapped in your regrets
What a waste of blood and sweat...
Oh oh oh...
I wanna taste love and pain..
I wanna feel pride and shame..
Our children would Appreciation hearing you voice Ed
Your not actually showing them this? Right Ivy?
Of course, they have to hear both of you sing
oh sister...
I don't wanna take my time
Don't wanna waste one line
I wanna live better days
Never look back and say....
Could have been me
Could have been me
Could have been me
Could have been me...
Follow your dreams my children always...
When the tape ended, Henry felt his tears dry on his face and no longer felt sad. But new emotions glowed throughout the teen.
He just listened to his mum singing. A song that was telling him to follow his dream, to live life and take risks, not to become a background character.
Henry smiled toward his feline as he was ready to start it again when he eyes the tape instead the player and finally after a moment opened the player and took the tape out.
The teen felt the tape in his hands and smile at it fondly before turning it over and found to his surprise on the back there was something written where the title usually went.
"Luke Alluring, Ivy Knight, and Edward Knight?" Henry read out loud before eyeing the next part. It was a address as the boy spoke again" do you think that's his address, Loki? Perhaps this is how I find out who my mum and her family was? From my uncle? That is if he's my uncle, maybe he knows something about Ann? Do you think he still lives at that address boy?"
Henry eyes his cat who just eyed him back and the teen smiled as he spoke" my mum made this tape for a reason, she would want me to find Anna. I know she would, " however Loki would only meow a bit toward Henry causing the thirteen year old to chuckle a bit as he slide the tape back into the player before shoving the cassette player back into the pocket of his hoodie before speaking " come one boy, we have work to do."
Henry would get to his feet while picking up Loki and carrying him back to the castle specially, the owlery first to send letter to his older brother asking him about the address and second to the library to continue his research on the Knights.
The teen spent his whole life living in the background. Letting others pass him by. Well it was time that he lived his own story. It was time he step out from being a outsider or background character and made a name for himself. He wasn't about to he forgotten or a untold story. He was going to write his own story.
"There's no such thing as strange creatures, only blinked people" - Newt Scamander