Toilet Paper and Belated Condolences pv: B.Glade

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hi friends heads up to all those who know bailey as the sunshiny character, she's going through some stuff, and is a tad depressed rn.
If anyone is reading this and is interested in helping me explore bai's sad side/ how she explains it to others (ESP if your character knows her already) pls DM or owl Me

sometime after the first dueling match in oct

Bailey, lacking her usual sunshine demeanor, knew she had to do something for herself. Deciding to take a book - a fluff piece by a muggle author, her favorite muggle author, and go outside and read, bailey set down her pen, closed her notebook and textbooks, and sighed. Standing up from the desk she had been at all day, Bailey slipped on her black Converse high tops, stuck her wand into the back pocket of her black jeans, and pulled down the rolled sleeves of her black turtle neck. Grabbing a blue sweater, she held it over her arm, along with her book and her water bottle.

Running her hand through her newly platinum blond bob, she sighed again and headed out of her dorm. She had been sitting at that desk all day, and practically hadn't seen daylight in months.

Dark circles around her eyes, her cheeks sullen, bailey paced the corridors until she got outside onto the grounds. Walking a path she had walked hundreds of times before, bailey found herself at the foot of a tree she had sat in before. Deciding she had nothing to lose, Bailey scaled the tree almost without a thought. Muscle memory was what kept her going through the days she wished she didn't have to live through, or at least live through feeling this much sadness.

Settling into a branch, she opened her book. She had layed her sweater and waterbottle into another crevice of the tree, and had her back resting against the central trunk as he legs dangled on either side of the branch she was sitting on.

Bailey held the book on her lap, but she must have read the same three pages fifty times when she suddenly felt a soft thump against her skull. First, she looked up, thinking some idiot squirrel or something had dropped its lunch on her head, but seeing nothing, she looked down.

Upon looking down, bailey spotted the culprit. A familiar face she hadn't seen in ages, his honey brown eyes seeming to be taking in her... change in appearance and demeanor.

Trying to call to her face something that resembled the attitude she typically gave Hana, Bailey simi smirked down at him. Closing her book, she leaned over so that she could see him better and said "You really think throwing something at me is the best idea?"

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"Dont worry its clean!" He assured in his usual playfully, acutely aware he was just ignoring the implication of her statement. Now that their gazes met, Hanako could see just how…tired she looked. Like she hasn't slept well in days. Maybe even longer than that. Jeez- this girl. There was so many magic available that could fix all that, and she used none of that? Well… he supposed he couldn't expect everyone to be as hypervigilant as he was when it came to hiding whatever he was feeling. But wow…seeing her like this.. made him wonder how long ago had it been that he started..sleeping well again. It was almost like looking into a past reflection of himself. Minus the haircut. Hanako could've never done that even at his most depressed.

" Its been a while, Glade" he smirked, a hand on his hip as he pretended not to show just how interested he is in her new appereance. Just like usual. " You know if it helps, I wasn't exactly aiming for your head in particular. One time someone took their sweet time wrapping toilet paper around me while I slept on a tree. I admit that's what I tried to do since you might as well look as focused as someone who is asleep". Oh welp- crap. He supposed it's been a while since he pretended to be blind to feelings. Well then.

@Bailey Glade

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hi friends heads up to all those who know bailey as the sunshiny character, she's going through some stuff, and is a tad depressed rn.
If anyone is reading this and is interested in helping me explore bai's sad side/ how she explains it to others (ESP if your character knows her already) pls DM or owl Me

sometime after the first dueling match in oct

Bailey had not been expecting to be hit in the face with a roll of toilet paper when she had gone outside to try and read her book. Running her fingers through her hair, her book closed on her lap, she stared down at Hana.
Nodding, agreeing with his statement about it being a while, bailey for once didn't snap back immediately with a smart arsed comment.
Bailey was fully aware that he had noticed that something was off about her- it was clear in how she was dressed, in her shocking hair change, in the exhaustion in her face, but she was semi-grateful that he hadn't pried about it. Another, bigger part of her wished someone would acknowledge that she wasn't ok, but bailey wasn't sure she and Hana were on those terms.
Their first interaction had been her almost beating him up, so they had already started on precarious terms. Having become closer, bailey wasn't sure where they stood. Bailey considered Hana a friend, but she was friends with lots of people. True, he had seen a side of her that not many people had, but Bailey was still unsure where that left them.
Bailey soon got her answer, as Hana continued talking.
Admittedly, he had a point. She had been out of it, but that's how she had been for months. Swimming through the cloud of... whatever she was feeling.
Looking down at Hana, the smirk fading off of her face, ".... i hate that you have a point." She sighed, the weight of the world heavy on her shoulders. "You're the first person in a long time to call me out on that, though. Everyone seems to just ignore that something is off, like ignoring the problem will fix it."

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When Bailey admitted that Hanako had a point, he let out a dry laugh and a grin far too fake to ever consider sincere. " Well! We're in the same boat then". He absolutely hated being right for the correct reasons. The regret of saying anything was already evident on his face, but eventually he let out a sigh. He supposed he might as well accepted this as it is. Perhaps he could write is off as 17 year old wisdom hitting him at the back of his head. Randomly.

He now released the hole he had sunken deep into as he saw Glade's usual snarky response fade into a melancholic lull, like an invisible weight hanged on every word. " …Yeah well, can't say I blame them. Not exactly a nice topic to bring up. I'm only saying it because …." he paused, clicking his tongue as if finding the right words. Or excuse, realy. " because I don't really care if you're uncomfortable by it. Also…" he sighed, stretching his arms a little before attempting to climb to the branch closer to Bailey. It was hard talking like this with his neck craned up to where she was.



It was a miracle he could still do it wow. Perhaps working out did have it's benefits. Thank you, duelling!

" Besides.." he grinned, his voice a lot more gentler compared to when he was on the ground. " If you realy didn't want someone to point it out, you would've gone with a more… " he gestured to her less brightly coloured attire and shorttened hair, " subtle way to hint at it".

Like he had.

@Bailey Glade

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hi friends heads up to all those who know bailey as the sunshiny character, she's going through some stuff, and is a tad depressed rn.
If anyone is reading this and is interested in helping me explore bai's sad side/ how she explains it to others (ESP if your character knows her already) pls DM or owl Me

sometime after the first dueling match in oct

Bailey, in admitting that Hana had a point, got a dry laugh and an incredibly fake smile. Bailey could tell he was maybe uncomfortable by the metaphorical can of worms he had opened, or that he at least regretted it a little.
Hana admitting that they were in the same boat surprised bailey a little, and she wasn't sure why. I guess I never thought him and I would have something in common... she thought, melancholy.
Her words lacking their normal pep, bailey could not bring herself to give them more life. Her sentences fell dull, lifeless from her tongue instead of the peppy life they used to have.
Hana somehow felt like the right person to talk to. Bailey had no real desire to open up to anyone, but if she was to talk to anyone, it made sense of some backwards sort that it should be the boy she had terrorized a few years previously.
He was completely unafraid of broaching uncomfortable topics, and Hana willingly admitted that as he stretched his arms out. Bailey's neck had begun to cramp a little, looking down at him, and was grateful, or as grateful as she could feel in the moment, when Hana began to climb up towards her.
As he settled onto a branch closer to her than the ground was, Hana's voice got gentler as well. Bailey felt the urge to roll her eyes at Hana's words, but couldn't quite bring herself to be that sassy.
Bailey sighed and nodded her head in agreement. "I had to do something, thought. I couldn't just act like my world is the same as before, before my heart absolutely shattered. I can't act the same because i'm not the same anymore. I.... I don't think I will ever be the same, and.... that scares me, honestly. Like, I'm so scared because I don't know if I'll ever be truly happy again like I was before. I... everyone knows me as the sunshiny one, and I just don't have the energy to be her anymore, or at least right now. and I feel like... I feel like I'm letting everyone down, not being me anymore."

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Oh - we're going straight into it. Hanako had to think twice on if he had taken some potion that make people open up to him or something and forgotten that day. He wondered if this was exactly what Bailey's friends were avoiding bringing up. He had an excuse why he'd be uncomfortable with the other sharing things like this, but her friends? Wasn't that what friends were generally for?

Then again…. he had often done the same thing Bailey had. Quelling a storm in him because others were too busy being entertained by him to notice nor care. Just the way he liked it. Bailey was meant to be different than Hanako. She - unlike Hanako - had done things for others that made her deserving of having her troubles shared. Yet none of her friends did? Hanako still couldn't really believe it, but just the thought of it left a sour taste on his tongue. Whatever. He was here now, might as well.

" You know…. the way you make it sound… seems like being the 'old' Bailey was just as burdensome as being 'you' right now, is? Or am I imagining it?" He pointed out, scratching a bit of the bark from the branch, trying to appeal casual and not someone that re winded Bailey's words in his head multiple times. " You say you're scared to never be the old Bailey again, but you're shaming yourself now for not being her? Gosh Blade, it's like you're losing no matter what you're doing."

He rethinks her last statement and couldnt help but let out a sarcastically dry laugh. " … Who is this… 'everyone' you're talking about?"

@Bailey Glade

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hi friends heads up to all those who know bailey as the sunshiny character, she's going through some stuff, and is a tad depressed rn.
If anyone is reading this and is interested in helping me explore bai's sad side/ how she explains it to others (ESP if your character knows her already) pls DM or owl Me

sometime after the first dueling match in oct

Bailey, in that moment, felt like she should really learn to stop before she's ahead, and not share her deepest darkest secrets and feelings to anyone she knows. Not that she had told anyone what she had just told Hana, or that she had ever considered admitting it to anyone, but... she just had, and now there might be hell to pay for it. What if Kim finds out? i don't need someone else, i don't need anyone, concerned for me she thought, fighting the urge to up and run away from the conversation she was sure she and hana were about to have.
Sure he was wondering why she had told him, of all people, about how she was feeling, bailey again fought the urge to run. It was true, they had a rather.. storied past, but before she could get stuck thinking about it too much, hana spoke.

And dang, the truth can feel like a slap sometimes. Hana was speaking the truth, and nothing but the truth but it was what bailey had been afraid to admit to herself and had been running from to an extent.
She had never been one to run from the truth before but here she was, feeling like she had ran into a brick wall because that was exactly what she was doing. Why was it so hard to accept that she was changing, that she was changed, that she HAD changed, and simply move on with her life?
"maybe it was, and i didn't realize it. but ... it was so easy then, to be me.... why can't it be that easy now?"
Blinking hard when Hana continued, bailey found his next words a shock to her system.
"like im losing, no matter what i do? Damn, Hana, way to call a girl out. I wish i knew what i could do to not lose but i swear im stuck in this cycle of losing and loss, no matter what i do or who i try and become."

Who was the everyone she had been refrring to? Bailey was stuck in her head, trying to think, and she started to talk before she truly considered what she was saying. Looking up, avoiding eye contact, maybe, but also taking in way the light filtered through the tree around her, bailey began to speak again.
"Who is everyone? I dunno, hana. It's hard to be known, sometimes, because i feel like i have to uphold this version of me that everyone expects. That everyone being my classmates, my peers, my professors, damn even my friends! Who am i to let them down by not being who they expect me to be? I can't to do that to the people relying on me for comfort or advise or feedback - what if i am the one person they feel safe coming to? and what happens if they dont feel like i am that safe space anymore?"

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interactions: @Hanako Tone
tags: @kim sato