Think Before I Talk PV May Moonstar Reopened

November 30th, 2019.
Interacting with @May Moonstar

Going outside on a rather cloudy, chilly and threatening morning such as this doesn’t seem to be on the plans of several of the Hogwarts students because only a few heads can be seen walking around the grass, even less those sitting down. Amongst those brave enough to challenge the high chance of rain, is Roman Kingston, still wearing his dark robes, face hidden behind his green and silver scarf, as he's laying down on the grass, staring the dark grey sky above.

Brooding. A lot of brooding happening at the moment, as he feels the frustration by the lack of response from his father creeping inside his heart, the anger forcing its claws inside it, making him frown as he wants to grab his father by the collar and ask why the hell he hasn't replied yet. Part of him, the numb part that's accepted the lack of attention coming from his old man, tells him that there must be a good reason, other than Virgil Kingston not wanting to write back to him.

He likes that thought, the idea, the illusion that, perhaps, his father's drowning himself with work again and isn't able to write back for now. It makes the frustration and anger lessen, but not enough for them to disappear. They linger around, making the boy sigh as he tries to find different shapes at the moody clouds above. They all look the same, or maybe he's lacking the creativity today. Or motivation in general.

Roman feels drained. After all, he's been interacting with people all week and that's never a good sign. First, there's almost Clementine, that, though he's become more and more open to her non-sensical talking, can still take all his energy with one of her big, oh so happy, smiles. Then, there's the band and the anxiety, fear, and hopes and dreams all clashing together, giving him a euphoric feeling that leads to a successful first day of auditions and a solid first band reunion.

It worked out perfectly in the end, but Roman still had to control himself in order not to be mean to his new bandmates, and that is always troublesome. And, of course, there's the fact that he's a paranoid perfectionist that strives to be perfect in everything in his life, especially his homework. which can make him stay up until late at night working to perfect his assignments.

The conclusion is: he wants to be left alone. Just him, enjoying the cold wind, his tiredness, that makes him unable to even move, and the sky above that seems to represent exactly how he feels. And, for some reason, Roman senses that exactly what he's not going to get.