Closed Riding on my Pain and Tears PV Valentin TW: Self-harm

3 Aug 2024, 01:49

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Val's expression was similar to his own that he'd seen inside the mirror time and time again. Kim knew Valentin had gone through horrific things too. Hell, Val's pain was probably worse than his own. The things that tended to trouble Kim on a regular basis were probably seen as insignificant compared to the troubles of others. He couldn't help but want to end his suffering and let the world move on without him. It might seriously be better like that.

But he couldn't do that. Not when Val was doing everything he could to make him stay there. Even giving him his love.

The white haired seeker grasped his hands with his own and smiled at the boy, saying things about the present and future together. The way Val was looking into his eyes, the words he'd said and the unspoken things he'd tried to get Kim to understand made emotions inside him fluctuate. It was probably because of Val's actions and words that drove Kim to do what he had never done before until now. Kiss someone he didn't really know 2 well.

And continue to do so.

He didn't care if Val didn't kiss him back. In fact, Kim expected Val would not kiss him back. All he wanted was to feel something again and to feel loved and wanted by someone. Even though he hadn't ever had it with anyone, or had he and he just never had realized it until now?, Kim didn't know what to think anymore. He didn't know what he wanted, all he knew was that he wanted to kiss Val right now. That was what the dark haired boy was doing.

What happened afterward, didn't matter. If Val pushed him off, Kim would shut down because really his words would then be proven to just be words. After all, Val had promised to love him, he'd said his love was immortal, that he would never abandon him. That he would care for him unconditionally and that his love had no limits. If he pushed him away from this kiss, all his words would be fake to him. At first Val didn't respond to his actions...

But right before Kim started to slow down, Valentin suddenly began to lean into the kiss and respond to him. Kim allowed Val to pick him up and lie him down completely onto one of the benches. It was a hard surface but he didn't care about that right now as kissing Val was the only thing on his mind. Val parted his lips with his tongue and the two of them engaged in an even hotter kiss. Kim thrust his own tongue into Val's mouth and their mouths became one, just as Val had said before. Although, he probably hadn't exactly meant THIS kind of 'becoming one' at the time...

Or had he?

As Val pulled back up to gaze down at him, Kim looked up at the white haired seeker. He couldn't help but breathe a little heavily at this point in time. As Val descended upon his mouth again, Kim captured the seeker's lips with his own a second time. Their kiss this time was even more passionate than before and Kim couldn't help but think this was so much better than the slug-infested kiss they'd shared back in the past. Not that he'd bring that up, especially not after the traumatic slug incident this summer too.

After making out for over fifteen minutes, Val finally drew back again and gazed down at him, asking him a question.

A question Kim wasn't entirely sure about how to go about answering it truthfully. But for Val he would do it. A good thing? Something that made him want to live? "Up until the 17th, it would have been hard to find something because I didn't want to. But then after almost getting killed by a gigantic parasitic magical slug, I actually wanted to live again. Call it survival instinct. After that, I began thinking of a variety of things."

"People I'd miss if I were gone, things I would have wanted to have done... although my feelings fluctuated all over the place even after I recovered from the slug, so it wasn't all the slug's fault. I'm just glad you weren't around at the time, I don't know what would have happened if the slugs had infected other people around me and the others there." Kim confessed to Val and thought about his earlier question to him.

"Cu Sith. She's so cute." He said in Parseltongue by accident. Ah, Val wasn't supposed to have known he was a Parselmouth.

But it didn't matter. He'd already told him his darkest secrets that had been plaguing him for a little over a year. What else made him want to live? Kim paused for a moment, looking up into Valentin's eyes. "You. You're the one responsible for making me feel like I have to stay here for your sake. So you better take responsibility for your actions..." He grumbled under his breath, averting his eyes and then returning his attention to him.

"Or I'll make you regret it!" Kim added, staring up at the white haired seeker on top of him. Yes, he was slowly starting to find himself again little by little. A gleam of his old sarcasm had returned to his words. There was also one more. Bailey Glade. She was someone who was extremely important to him and someone he didn't think he could live without but those feelings were dangerous. Kim didn't want to think that much about them.

Not yet.

Dealing with those types of feelings was not something he could handle right now. Not with everything else going on around him.

——— [ pureblood - duelist - year 4 - gryffindor ]

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Stats/Abilities:
Stamina 9 (12) - Evasion 13 (16) - Strength 2 (5) - Wisdom 7 (10) - Arcane Power 5 (8) - Accuracy 15 (18)
Perfectionist
(Stats inside parentheses mean with Silver Arrow stats added)

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Notes:
The cool stars and shapes are credited to the code Winnie Harper posted in the BBC Code Donations.

- Valentin Schnell (@Aida Mòrsgor-Ama Ellwood), @Hanako Tone, @Bailey Glade -

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3 Aug 2024, 04:09

Valentin’s skin felt as hot as lava while adrenaline pumped his heart faster to keep pace with the demands of his ardor. Still, in no hurry to end their make-out session, Val took the time to treat his kissing partner to a variety of techniques while never losing focus on communicating his fundamental message. He needed to heal Kim down to his very core, cleaning out his heart completely like a wildfire burning up dead tangles of thorny thicket to produce rich black soil that would support fragile new growth. For this reason, Val did not hold back. Sensing and adjusting to each subtle cue to learn what Kim liked and needed, Valentin’s entire attention focused solely on filling the boy’s heart with love, security, and a brilliant lust for life. The longer he kissed, the more he yearned to feel Kim’s affirmation: I want to live.

Once Kim was ready for a break, Valentin asked to hear about something good. The Korean explained his life-or-death struggle with a parasitic magical slug, concluding that his main concern was actually other people. Slipping into accidental Parseltongue, he even admitted to an affection for a certain “Cu Sith.” Yet, it seemed that Kim’s main answer was that Val himself was a reason why he wanted to live. His tone even lifted with sassy humor. Meanwhile, Valentin was suppressing an inner panic about the prospect of having been the one to give Kim the magic slug that almost ended his life. Controlling his breathing as he entered the damage-control headspace he used most often in quidditch settings, Valentin did not immediately remark on the topic as he eased back into the conversation slowly, gathering his wits. It was going to be okay. The light was beginning to shine from inside of Kim’s heart again. That delicate first gasp of sarcasm was proof of Kim’s willpower clinging to the hope of happiness.

“Oh, Cu Sith? Who’ss the cutie?” Although speaking nonchalantly, Valentin rubbed the side of his temple to sooth his inability to reply in anything but a broken, pathetic pidgin Pareltong-lish. He looked deeply troubled and a bit embarrassed, staring off into the distant rim of the pitch as he wrangled his emotions. “So you, too, speak the Old Tongue. My mother and her ancestors also did. My blood is… thin… so I… can’t really speak it. Still, I understand others as clear as day.” Glancing back into Kim’s eyes for just a moment, Valentin shifted quickly to staring at the other boy’s hands. “It’s beautiful to learn that you’re one of my people. There are so many things I want to learn from you now… Still. First things first.” Sighing, Valentin stretched out his legs one at a time, as he had been kneeling alongside Kim all while they'd been speaking.

“Kim, I wonder if I was the one to give you that slug. I also had a violent confrontation when one came out of me this summer, almost killing people I love in the process. I’m so sorry. I don’t know much about these things, but it must have been… that time in the London bookstore. I was sick out of my mind then. I’m sorry for accosting you then, too. Even back then, I just wished to eat away your suffering. That’s all I really remember of what I did. Just longing to heal your pain. I guess that never changed. I always felt that for you. This means you’ve been suffering a while then, yeah? I’m sorry for not approaching you sooner. It must have been hard on you, but I didn’t really understand how bad things were for you. If I’d known… anyway. I’m sorry for a lot of things, but I’m just glad you’re still in the world with me.” Val’s white eyelashes batted twice, flashing a furtive gleam of purple towards Kim before returning to focus on the window of a distant observation tower.

“As for me…”

You better take responsibility for your actions... whispered Val’s memory.

“I won’t let you down. If you ever feel lost or alone, call on me.” Turning to face Kim once more, Valentin slid his right hand back through his black hair in several long strokes. Lovely color, he thought to himself, staring into the dark texture between two particularly long strands. He was still processing what to do about Kim’s main problem, but he wouldn’t rush it. Kim was counting on him now, and he needed to find the best path to the boy’s transcendence. The seeker’s eyes wandered back across the boy, examining one small detail of his appearance after another with eyes fluttering over him like a butterfly looking for nectar.

“Do you have many snakes where you are then? Have they talked to you?”

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Basic Stats:
STA 8 - EVA 20 - STR 3 - WIS 20 [24] - ARC 1 - ACC 17
Keen Eye / Charmer / Evasive Maneuvers / Fearless / Comprehend Languages: Parseltongue & Veela
Inventory: A silver earring, a golden ring on his middle finger, a wand, and an Oakshaft 79.
Broom bonus stats (when flying): +4 ACC, +4 STR
Charmer recipients: @Kim Sato
Godmods of Kim are permitted by his writer here. Val’s English: #CC3333. Russian: #992314

★ Valentin's Ency ☆ ☄ койрыклы йолдыз килә-ә ☄ ☽ Aida's Ency ☾

3 Aug 2024, 16:13

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Val was quickly becoming Kim's confidant, partner, someone who would be there for him whenever he needed it. A person he could trust as someone who would never leave him. He wasn't too sure just how far Val's feelings ran and was hesitant to accept them but maybe he could give him a chance. If he opened up one last time, would this be the time he could finally get a happy ending to everything? Or was it a wishful dream as it always tended to be?

Val's passion and skill when it came to kissing far surpassed his own but Kim wasn't that experienced when it came to kissing and making out with someone. He'd only ever done both one time and that person was now gone. Val was definitely a master at his craft and Kim had to admit, he was drawing him in more and more. Maybe it wasn't such a bad thing to be alive if it meant he could have Val by his side. It was like the heavens above had opened up.

...and given him something to bring him back to life.

Haneul. That was what Kim would call him from now on. It meant heavens and the sky above in Korean. A fitting nickname for Val.

Still, Kim felt as if his curse was still upon him. What if he ended up bringing that curse over onto him? He didn't want to make his life even worse. Kim's worried thoughts began to circle around inside his head as he struggled to decide whether or not to tell him. But before he could make a decision, Val spoke. This time in a broken version of Parseltongue that wasn't really Parseltongue. It was more like someone trying to imitate the snake's language.

But in the end, it failed horribly because Val didn't seem to have the ability to form the words. Still, Kim couldn't help but almost smile at the way he was trying to speak the language. "Cu Sith is Hana's snake. I refer to him as the boy that's obsessed with kissing me." He told Val and a faint chuckle escaped him. "But after this... I think you could take on that position if you wanted to from now on." Kim said, looking up into Haneul's eyes.

"You're more than worthy to take on that role..." He told him and raised a brow almost challenging him a little. "But I have to warn you, I'm pretty good at it myself too!" Kim wouldn't back down from a challenge either. As Val went on to explain how his mother and her ancestors were Parselmouths but that he only could understand and not speak it, Kim nodded. It wasn't something that could be taught later, you were born knowing PT.

If you weren't, you just didn't have the ability and the most that you could achieve would be trying to speak with more ssss's.

As Val reclined back a little, he spoke about the slug Kim had referred to before. What on earth... Val had been infected too?! For a moment Kim didn't speak as Val went on to explain things to him. The dark haired teen's memory returned to that time back in London and a heavy sigh escaped his lips. Back then he'd been hurting too. He'd gone there to distract himself but had ended up only finding things that reminded him of what he'd lost and he'd crumpled into himself at the time. A few tears welled up in his eyes again as he remembered picking up the book Animal Ghosts of Britain from the shelf and thinking about the puffball.

Before he would have simply pushed the pain down and not spoken about it but now... "I remember picking up Animal Ghosts of Britain at the time and thinking about Puffie. I don't know why I chose the book. Maybe because I thought perhaps Puffie could come back as a ghost or something back then..." Kim said, looking a little depressed again. "...but I haven't seen him since he..." He confessed and his eyes lost the energy that had been there only moments before. Puffie's death was so hard.

Kim shook his head when Val tried to apologize for what he'd done to him. "You didn't know at the time. You were sick. I also took advantage of you at the time, just wanting to use you to get rid of my pain. But I guess Romeo did more to me than you did at the time. The pain from his punch made me feel better back then, although he should have done more..."

"I guess he was an oracle though back then. Didn't kill me because he knew you would want me later on..." Kim said with a faint smile and shook his head a little. He was slipping back into the darkness again without realizing it and when Val apologized about not helping him back then, he shook his head again. "I don't blame you, we didn't know eachother well enough back then. Why would you have helped me? You had your own troubles to think about at the time." The boy said with a sigh.

He looked up at the white haired seeker as Val said he was glad he was still in the world with him. Kim regarded him for a time. "Are you? Or do you just feel bad about my situation and want to help me like all the others?" The words escaped his lips before he could stop them. Kim's little insecurities inside were building up and although usually he kept these thoughts to himself, Val had a way of making him get them all out in the open.

"Apologies. I don't know why I said that, please forget what I said before." He told him. Kim didn't want to know the answer to that question. Val's next words about calling on him if he ever felt lost or alone made him feel unsettled because Kim wasn't the type of person to reach out and ask for help from anyone. It was a foreign notion to him. But Val had a presence, an aura about him that made him feel warm. Almost fuzzy and it was a bit strange.

It made him feel strange inside. "...maybe I'll take you up on that offer. Don't regret it later if I call you in the middle of the night or during a quidditch match..." Kim said, joking about the last part of his sentence. Val would have his work cut out for him from now on. Because Kim's mood was erratic and could change at any given moment. When Val asked him if he'd met any snakes at Hogwarts and talked to them, Kim shook his head a bit.

"Other than the pets of other students, I haven't seen any around often. Other than at the Faerietale Endings Ball during a tower event. I talked to them there. Cu Sith is my favorite. She seems to really like me too." Kim told him. "Do you have many at Durmstrang?" He asked, curious, looking up at Val who still sat above him. As the seeker slid his right hand through his dark hair, Kim stared up, waiting to hear Val's words.

——— [ pureblood - duelist - year 4 - gryffindor ]

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3 Aug 2024, 23:02

“Hana’s snake?… Like, Hanako Tone?” Valentin recalled the Parseltongue that the Slytherin dished out in his death threat to Romeo. Val had already forgiven Hanako when no harm transpired, and in retrospect his position had been quite understandable after Romeo’s actions. “Hanako… Tone-san… is obsessed with kissing you?” The gears began inadvertently turning in Val’s head. The worst – or best – part was the challenge in Kim’s eyes. The ambitious champion found it very difficult to turn down a dare or opportunity to prove himself. In fact, the only one he had ever turned down was kissing someone for anything less than love. “Hmm… No, we don’t really keep snakes inside of Durmstrang, as far as I know. I figure I would have heard them if they were inside the castle. They just live in the wilderness around us.” Thinking back on Hanako at not just spin-the-bottle but also at the recent Mistletoe ball, Valentin smirked. The boy was admittedly firey in an attractively dangerous way. “Still. As much as I enjoy competition, it was always my love of cooperation that kept me in quidditch despite my need for speed. This is why I’m not a broom racer. I enjoy raising other people up more than I love winning for myself. If Tone-san is obsessed with kissing you, what about developing your relationship with him more? Maybe you’d both be happier for it. I want the best for you, you know.” In the end, Valentin was always working on his Great Unified Romance Equation that would solve for everyone’s ideal future. As much as he enjoyed healing Kim’s pain through kissing, the seeker’s real objective was ultimately making Kim’s greatest wish come true. Yet, the prerequisite for that was Kim’s survival. Val’s bigger problem was that many people had wishes and the unified equation of optimizing outcomes for everyone was a difficult question.

Eventually the conversation returned to the subject of Puffie’s demise, and seeing Kim falling back into that dark place, Valentin wrapped his arms around him as he listened. Then, a thought clicked in Valentin’s head. So, students at Hogwarts were allowed to keep snakes… and Valentin had just been telling Kim that while the past was dead, there was still the present and what might be possible in the future. Much as Val wanted to be everything for everyone, he understood that he couldn’t accompany Kim constantly while they were going to different schools. Wouldn’t it be lovely if Val could send a serpent in his place to take care of Kim whenever Val couldn’t be there in person? The love for a new familiar could do a lot to soothe him, including any new wounds that accumulated in Kim when Val was out of range for healing. There was no way to replace Puffie, Valentin knew. Still, Kim needed someone to love and Val didn’t want to leave him alone even when it was necessary for Kim’s best interests. This was the best solution. He would give Kim a snake of his own that could serve a similar function in Valentin’s place.

“It’s true that I was out of my mind back in that London bookstore, but I’d like to make amends. Thank you for admitting to taking advantage of me. Still, I forgive it. I want you to use me to take away your pain. I want this so badly. Please… Let me heal you now, just like I wanted to heal you then. I’d like for you to meet me in London again, in Diagon Alley, after the camp is over. This time I’ll do things the right way.” Squeezing Kim with a giant full-bodied hug, Valentin felt the other’s pain as if it were his very own. The Gryffindor’s remarks had even sounded masochistic, and so Val especially wanted to reach the center of that feeling to heal it. If anyone knew about such sentiments and could do the right thing about them, it was surely the Hell-Chaser himself.

“You asked why I would have helped you back in January when we didn’t know each other well. It’s true that I had my own troubles at the time but maybe you didn’t hear me. The level of our relationship is irrelevant. The reason I would have helped you back then is the same reason I am helping you now. Fundamentally we are one. Your pain is mine, as well as the affliction inside you that caused it. If I heal you it is because I do not separate “you” from “me.” I want to live. I want so dearly to live. Therefore I want you to live, too, because I don’t separate us. I told you, my love knows no limits. My care is unconditional. How much we knew each other then does not matter whatsoever, just like now. Please listen and believe this truth. You ask if I am truly glad that you are in this world with me, and my answer is the same. I want you, Kim Aoki, to live. I’m not going to forget what you said. I don’t just ‘feel bad’ about your situation. I do not pity you, just like I don’t pity myself. This is not a charity case out of guilt or conscience. This is my love for life that I am pouring directly into you, if only you would drink me in. I want us both to live because I see us as one. Live, Kim. Live out your highest dream. Fight for your greatest wish, and I will help you attain it. Don’t you dare give up on life because if you do then you are giving up on mine. If you need help then I need you to tell me. Much as I would like to be, I’m not yet omniscient. Help me help you, if not for your sake, then because I demand it.”

Valentin grabbed Kim by each collar and began to stare fiercely down into his eyes. Pulling the boy towards him, Valentin pressed his lips to Kim’s once more. Passion surged through him as the raw power of his lifeforce sent shivers up and down his spine. In this kiss Valentin poured his strength into Kim, bathing him in unrelenting and potent waves of love. Every pulse of his tongue commanded Kim to accept this energy and devour it all, making it Kim’s own deep down inside. For as long as the boy needed, Valentin continued this treatment, only stopping when Kim seemed totally satisfied.

“Now. I want you to take what I am giving you and use it. What can you direct your love into, where can you direct your life? What path calls to you the most?”

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Basic Stats:
STA 8 - EVA 20 - STR 3 - WIS 20 [24] - ARC 1 - ACC 17
Keen Eye / Charmer / Evasive Maneuvers / Fearless / Comprehend Languages: Parseltongue & Veela
Inventory: A silver earring, a golden ring on his middle finger, a wand, and an Oakshaft 79.
Broom bonus stats (when flying): +4 ACC, +4 STR
Charmer recipients: @Kim Sato
Mentioning: @Hanako Tone
Godmods of Kim are permitted by his writer here. Val’s English: #CC3333. Russian: #992314

★ Valentin's Ency ☆ ☄ койрыклы йолдыз килә-ә ☄ ☽ Aida's Ency ☾

4 Aug 2024, 04:20

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Kim tilted his head to the side. "Do you know him?" He asked, curious. Ah, right. Hana had been one of the participants in the Mistletoe Spin earlier that summer. When Val echoed his words back at him, Kim nodded. "Mm. Right from the very start it seemed as if his brain couldn't think of anything other than getting me to kiss him. He kept bringing up the subject all the time. Even started to follow me around everywhere trying to get me to join his little snake club." Kim said with a shake of his head. "But for all his talk, I thought it was just talk...

That is, until he kissed me for real later on. I gave it back to him though and won the challenge! I think I even flustered him too, so I'll take that as a double win." He said as his lips twitched into what could almost have been a smile. "But I have to admit, Hana does have his good points too. He helped me learn how to fly a bit better after classes so I could pass Flying class." Kim shuddered. "At least after the first year it's not required to take Flying class again after. It was a complete nightmare." The dark haired teen said, shivering a bit.

At the mere thought of flying again.

Val's words about raising other people up than winning himself made Kim think for a few seconds. He wasn't like that at all, Kim knew winning was everything to his very traditional parents. Kim himself was expected to win and bring honor and prestige to his family's name. All that mattered was gaining coveted positions, competing with other people and bringing home the win after a competition. Kim had a whole slew of expectations, duties and responsibilities sitting on his shoulders. That was when Val said something which made Kim start to laugh for a few seconds or so.

The white haired seeker suggested Kim take the time to develop his relationship with Hana a little more because it might bring them both some happiness. How could Kim NOT laugh when the idea was hilarious to even consider? Him and Hana? Yeah, right...

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"Apologies. It's just the mere thought of Hana and me being together is kind of amusing to me." He said, knowing Val would wonder about his reaction if he didn't explain it to him. "We're like water and fire. They can have great chemistry together.

But only for short time intervals. If they're put together for too long, they end up burning eachother out." Kim said.

Val's arms wrapped around him as Kim slipped away again a little. But Val's warm and comforting embrace made him feel a little better. Having someone right there beside him who seemed to understand and had gone through similar things made him feel calmer and more in control for now. When Val told him he wanted to make amends for what he'd done back then and went on to speak about healing him and other things, Kim wasn't sure what that meant. But... "...as long as you don't ever leave me and answer me whenever I call for you, consider that as making amends to me." He told him and looked up into Val's eyes again.

"I feel a little guilty too, is there anything I can do for you too? I mean, other than giving you the chance to 'heal me' as you keep talking about..." Kim said as waited to hear what Val might have to say to his words. What exactly had the seeker meant before when he'd said he would 'do it the right way this time'? As Val went on to try and explain to him what he'd meant by his earlier words, Kim lay beneath him rather confused for a time. He was Val and Val was him? If that was true, what did he mean by love? Did he love himself? Not Kim? Or was it that they both loved eachother because they were both the same person?

Kim's mind whirled trying to make sense of all this. He'd never thought of someone else as being him and vice versa before. What exactly did that mean? Could he depend on Val? Or was it that he was depending on himself? Because he was Val in the first place? All of this was giving him a headache now. But suddenly, Val grabbed him by the collar and then kissed him again, claiming his soft lips for what seemed like the hundredth time. Their frames silhouetted by the moonlight above them, both boys engaged in pouring out their passion into their kisses...

It was as if both of them were trying to prove they were alive. Because if one was alive, the other was as well, therefore both should show this as evidence. After what seemed like an eternity but probably had only been around five minutes, their mouths parted and their faces could be seen again. Kim stared up into Val's eyes. He was so beautiful and with his face and head framed in moonlight with the dark sky above him, Val really did seem like he'd come from the heavens. "Haneul. You really do live up to that name." He murmured, feeling a little bit better.

For the first time in what seemed like ages.

Kim blinked as Val spoke down to him once more, asking him two serious questions. What could he direct his love into? "You." He said, not really understanding the question being asked of him. Where could he direct his life and what path called to him? Kim knew the answer to this, it was what his parents had wanted him to do. That was what he needed to do. It was what was expected of him. He HAD to succeed in this. "Dueling. I'm a duelist and need to get better at it to keep winning and bring honor to my family name." Kim told him. Failure was not an option for him.

——— [ pureblood - duelist - year 4 - gryffindor ]

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4 Aug 2024, 06:06

"Do you know him?" asked Kim about Hanako.

“Yes, I’ve met him at least a couple of times now. I know a lot of people…” Valentin smiled shyly, scratching the back of his head. “He seems fun at parties.” Val’s humor tended to always be couched in truth on one level or another, even a dark one. Val really did mean that he seemed fun. “His little snake club, eh?” Valentin batted his eyelashes. “I don’t know, Kim. Everything you’re telling me about him all seem rather pleasant. Maybe you shouldn’t write him off already. Fire and water together can create great power. You can see them working together in everyday and extraordinary combinations. Take a simple cooking fire boiling a pot of water – the result can feed the hungry and become an essential of life. They just need to be put together in such a way that they can’t hurt each other, even if that boundary is as thin as the wall of a metal pot.” Valentin smiled. He really believed that there were ways to make all kinds of combinations work that people simply did not allow themselves to imagine.

Valentin seemed a bit saddened at the sight of Kim’s shivering at the thought of flying. If only he could help him overcome such a fear and see how glorious it really was. He couldn’t help wondering if it would help heal Kim’s heart further, or just cause more trauma with the way the Hell-Chaser flew. As the conversation turned dark again Val embraced Kim and answered about why he would be there for him.

"...as long as you don't ever leave me and answer me whenever I call for you, consider that as making amends to me."

“I will admit to being a mere man with limited powers, but I won’t abandon you, and I’ll answer your call as quickly as I am able… They tell me I’m fast. I hope that I will be fast enough for your taste.” Valentin was always a bit hard on himself about being fast enough, and a glimmer of his high expectations of himself shone through his voice’s tension now. “Still, I insist that I’m not doing this for some kind of payback. I don’t want anything but for you to let me succeed in what I’m trying to accomplish with you. You graced me with your beautiful laughing smile. If you could just show me more of those little joys, and even some big ones, then that would make me happy… I guess you specifically asked for something other than ‘healing’ you though… ergh…” Valentin scratched his nose, thinking. “I heard a rumor once about a place where parselmouths gather at Hogwarts. Do you think you could take me there sometime so that I might be able to learn more about my heritage? If not that’s okay. I really don’t need anything in return and would support you simply because I want to regardless.” Really Val was asking because he didn’t want Kim to feel guilty, since his experience with Romeo had made it clear that such feelings tended to get in the way of the giving process.

Val went on to exchange more kisses with Kim, pouring raw will-to-live into the boy through his love. Eventually Val’s head rose, framed by the moon, and he gazed back into Kim’s eyes with genuine affection.

"Haneul. You really do live up to that name."

“…?” Valentin didn’t understand, not yet, but he had an otherwordly knack for languages. It was only a matter of time now before Val invested in another series of textbooks outside of his schoolwork. “I’d love it if you’d teach me Korean, and if you’d use the Old Tongue on me when we’re alone. It would make me… feel good. I’ll be happy to keep helping you with Russian, too. What does that mean… ‘Haneul?’”

Kim seemed to be doing a bit better, and like a reflection in the mirror, Val seemed happier too. He loved feeling close like this, as well as revelling in the thousand little beauties produced by the light flickering back to life in Kim’s spirit.

“What can you direct your love into, where can you direct your life? What path calls to you the most?”

"You," Kim replied to the first question, and to the second… "Dueling. I'm a duelist and need to get better at it to keep winning and bring honor to my family name."

Batting his snow-white eyelashes shyly, Valentin hadn’t meant to bait such answers. Focusing instead on the main objective, Valentin pressed harder, unsatisfied.

“No no no, I didn’t ask what your family name needs. I asked what calls to you. What activity can fill your heart in a pursuit that fulfills it with greater purpose? You looked so serious when you mentioned duelling. I don’t think that’s really what lights you up.” Valentin squinted, having some suspicions, but wouldn’t allow himself to suggest what goal Kim should want in his life.

By the end of the chat, the black-haired boy could see Valentin’s eyes lingering on the contours of Kim’s neck. The seeker’s skin felt white hot, like he was burning up from within. Val had loved their kissing sessions but his eyes were beginning to wander, spurred on by new curiosities. Valentin was only a small nudge away from indulging in more, but holding back in order to stay on target.

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Basic Stats:
STA 8 - EVA 20 - STR 3 - WIS 20 [24] - ARC 1 - ACC 17
Keen Eye / Charmer / Evasive Maneuvers / Fearless / Comprehend Languages: Parseltongue & Veela
Inventory: A silver earring, a golden ring on his middle finger, a wand, and an Oakshaft 79.
Broom bonus stats (when flying): +4 ACC, +4 STR
Charmer recipients: @Kim Sato
Godmods of Kim are permitted by his writer here. Val’s English: #CC3333

★ Valentin's Ency ☆ ☄ койрыклы йолдыз килә-ә ☄ ☽ Aida's Ency ☾

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Kim's lips twitched a little bit at Val's words. "Mmm, he's quite something, that's for sure..." He commented to him about Hana. "Yeah..." Kim trailed off when Val expressed interest in the snake club, having just remembered it was supposed to have been a SECRET club. But Val was part of the bloodline, he just didn't have the full ability, so it should be fine. As Val spoke of not writing off things between him and Hana, Kim raised a brow.

"...well, as much as you think things could work between us, you'd have to convince Hana about this first. He's the one who has an ulterior agenda all the time. If he's not thinking about kissing, he's thinking about something else!" Kim told Val and then blinked at his words. "Uh, I don't mean to imply THAT, I just meant he probably wouldn't stick around long for any real connections to be formed..." Kim told the other.

Yes, moving the conversation away from more mature themes was a good idea. Kim's relationship with Hana was complicated. Sometimes it seemed as if the two got along really well, almost like brothers, and other times it seemed as if the two were mere acquaintances. Honestly, Kim didn't really know what was going on inside Hana's head and what his feelings towards him were. Did Hana like him? Did he see him in a romantic light like Val implied?

Did Hana see him as a brother? Or did he just see him as an acquaintance and liked messing with him from time to time?

Kim couldn't help but notice a sad look on Val's face when he spoke about flying class. Ah, right. He was a quidditch player. The dark haired teen couldn't help but still be afraid of heights though. Despite his desire to make Val happy, doing such a thing would be a great feat for him and would take time. Val's words about promising to not abandon him and to answer his call as fast as possible made Kim nod. Perhaps he could trust him with this....

Even though he knew he shouldn't blindly trust anyone, it was hard not to when it was Val on the other end of the promise. Kim abruptly came to the decision that he would trust in Val this one time. If he broke his promise or Kim felt as if Val was only going through the motions, he'd break it off immediately before he got hurt further. Once more Val spoke of just wanting to 'heal him' and Kim simply gave him a look from beneath him. Really? Really?

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Thankfully, Val seemed to remember what he'd said earlier about not asking for the chance to 'heal him' and as he eventually came up with something, Kim nodded. This wasn't too hard for him to do. "Of course. That's easy for me to do but it would have to be sometime before summer because we're not allowed to go into the castle during summer camp. Send me an owl when you're free." He told the seeker. Soon after, the two devoured eachother with kisses again, which was only broken when Val asked him to teach him Korean. He also inquired if Kim could use PT when they were alone together because it would make him feel good about himself as a result. The dark haired teen nodded.

"If you could help me work on my Russian that would be great, I'm not really that familiar with it yet and don't have anyone to help me practice." Kim told him. Of course, Val asked him what Haneul meant and a faint smile came to his lips. "It means heaven. That's what you are to me as of right now..." He said, gazing up into Val's eyes. As the seeker bat his eyes at him, Kim couldn't help but smirk. Could he be trying to bait him?

Before he could think too much about it, Val spoke again. Regarding his chosen path. The seeker's words made him think a little. What activity could fill his heart in a pursuit that fulfills it with greater purpose? Something that lit him up from the inside? Could there possibly be such a thing in his life? Kim didn't know what to say to these questions. But for Val he thought about it.

For a long time. "I enjoy helping people and seeing them happy and healthy around me. It's why I used to bake or cook things for all of them or heal them when they get hurt. I like seeing people smile at me. But I don't know what path that would be considered. I always thought it was just a hobby of mine." Kim said with a shrug of his shoulders. "I also love taking care of plants in the greenhouses. Sometimes people can be so rough with them and they end up hurting them without realizing it. I need to bring them back to life again and fix their leaves and roots. Change their soil sometimes." He said.

He looked back up at Val again and a smile could be seen on his lips as Kim caught Val's eyes gazing down at the side of his neck.

The nearly fifteen year old tilted his head to the side a little, exposing his neck a bit more as he stared up at Val. He raised a brow in the white haired teen's direction, almost challenging him with his gaze a bit. "Are you hungry? You want to grab a late night snack?" Kim asked, almost daring Val to do something and wondered if he would get the meaning behind his words. Give him something to remember and look at the following day or maybe 2.

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4 Aug 2024, 17:30

“Convince Hanako, hm? Well, I’d be happy to meet him again and try to get to the bottom of things.” Double-blinking, Val realized how his own words must have just sounded. “Er, what I mean is that I’d love to get to know the whole community if that’s alright.” With a lull, Valentin realized that his accidental suggestiveness was still only slightly improving. He would have to clarify… “There’s no one like me where I come from.” Finally, by invoking a dark topic, Valentin was able to dislodge his mind from more provocative topics. A tinge of bashfulness fluttered through Val’s eyes as he remembered his early youth and how the children in his Tatarstan village spat on him for being his Parselmouth mother’s son and everything else that went along with her controversial bloodline. One time they had even chased him into the forest trying to hit him with shoes, but Val wasn’t about to bring such things up right now. This moment was for Kim, and Val would dedicate his complete attention to him. Besides, Kim was making it easy to stay focused on him…

Transitioning to the topic of flying and then how to keep Kim from feeling guilty about taking Val up on his offer, the Gryffindor agreed about bringing Val to the rumored ‘secret place’ that the albino had always dreamed of gaining the privilege to enter.

“I really appreciate it, Kim. It would mean so very much to me. I cherish my heritage and with my parents gone, it’s so difficult to find answers about what my gift really means.” Valentin smiled, heart full of gratitude. “I’ll owl you.”

Kim explained the meaning of Val’s new nickname – Haneul – and graced the seeker with a faint smile. Valentin mirrored his expression with an even broader grin, charmed by being given such a treasure of a name as well as the beauty of Kim’s little resurgence of happiness. The way the boy gazed up into his eyes… That's what you are to me right now, he says…

“Ah, I love this. Keep rising higher, Kim. Find a new heavenly life, I’ll help you reach it…” Valentin’s eyes dewed up like morning grass. Just as Kim’s pain was his own, so was the boy’s happiness. Apparently Kim was similar, too.

"I enjoy helping people and seeing them happy and healthy around me. It's why I used to bake or cook things for all of them or heal them when they get hurt. I like seeing people smile at me… I also love taking care of plants… Sometimes people can be so rough with them and they end up hurting them without realizing it. I need to bring them back to life again and fix their leaves and roots. Change their soil sometimes."

Valentin beamed. This was perfect. He could feel Kim’s wish. Everything clicked into place – every sign that Val had been picking up, and why Kim had gotten so beaten down in the first place. It was like seeing the snitch, a glorious burst of gold in the void, the joyful goal to attain together.

“Kim, what you’re telling me… I love it. This makes such perfect sense. What you’re describing… helping people, seeing them happy and healthy and fed, healing them and caring for the plants that others are too reckless with and hurt… Kim, you have the soul of a healer. This is why you hurt so much. Your heart wants to shine but, because it can open so wide, you got especially wounded. This is the key to rising above the darkness: bringing others with you. You know pain. You have felt it so acutely, you can understand the suffering of others better than most. Even when others wouldn’t care, you have the ability to connect deeply with another – so long as you choose to. I know you’ve built up great big walls to protect yourself, but if you can just grow strong again – with me there to help you – you can transform the woes of the past into power and understanding. Keep helping others, now in honor of those you have lost: the sadness of loss will remind you why you are doing this. Return to health and happiness and share this joy, and then you will continue to live a heavenly life. Use me to help you make the world a brighter place for others in pain. Your heart is so kind, deep under the scabs. I can feel it.”

Valentin scooted back and laid his head down over the top of Kim’s chest, placing his ear above Kim’s beating heart.

“Света Russian term of endearment: Sveta – shining like pure, holy light, you are so beautiful. I will show you everything I know about healing. Use me. Rising above the pain, your experience will show others the way too, after me. Oh, Kim… tell me that you feel it. Do my words ring true?”

Turning his head, Valentin pressed his lips to Kim’s chest where he had been listening to how his heartbeat responded.

Following Kim’s answer, Valentin’s hunger surged. Feeling what Kim was feeling with exquisite clarity now, Valentin wanted to devour him. If Kim was to follow this path, then Val’s gifts would not go to waste. Conviction resolved, Valentin rose up once more like a cobra hovering above the other boy, eyeing him with adoration and thirst.

“Practice your healing on me, Kim. I am hurt often, both in quidditch and other pursuits. I can show you many kinds of wounds to fix. Tell me you want it. Tell me how much. Show me the passion of your wish.”

After Kim replied, Valentin began to eye the other’s neck. He looked so delicious.

“A late night snack? You said you liked to cook. Are you offering to feed me?” Grinning as his stomach loudly agreed, Valentin found the offer quite appealing indeed. The drake’s long-fingered hands clawed across Kim’s chest before he descended on the boy’s wide-open neck. With a long and savage lick, breathing in the scent of the other’s hair, Valentin sank his mouth onto the skin of Kim’s neck. A powerful beating in Val’s chest rattled the seeker’s limbre body, responding to his need. All the way from his collar bone to the lobe of the boy’s ear, Valentin fed upon Kim. Then, to finally satisfy his long-suppressed urge, he caught a pinch of skin gently with his open mouth, sealed his lips, and produced a rose-shaped patch of red on Kim’s neck through the power of passionate suction. Val might not have been a vampire, but his appetite for the boy's neck could have suggested otherwise.

Sinking his right hand into a swath of Kim’s black hair, Val rose up once more to kiss the boy’s lips… for as long as the other wanted. Then, when they’d finished, Valentin stood up and pulled Kim onto his back, insisting that he carry the boy all the way back to Kim’s tent.

Basic Stats:
STA 8 - EVA 20 - STR 3 - WIS 20 [24] - ARC 1 - ACC 17
Keen Eye / Charmer / Evasive Maneuvers / Fearless / Comprehend Languages: Parseltongue & Veela
Inventory: A silver earring, a golden ring on his middle finger, a wand, and an Oakshaft 79.
Broom bonus stats (when flying): +4 ACC, +4 STR
Charmer recipients: @Kim Sato
Godmods of Kim are permitted by his writer here. Val’s English: #CC3333

Val is leaving the thread (with Kim) unless stopped

Last edited by Aida Mòrsgor-Ama Ellwood on 12 Aug 2024, 03:51, edited 1 time in total.

★ Valentin's Ency ☆ ☄ койрыклы йолдыз килә-ә ☄ ☽ Aida's Ency ☾

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Kim couldn't help but smile again at Val's words of getting to the bottom of things with Hana. Well, how bold of him! Of course, Val corrected himself soon after but Kim knew what he REALLY meant. It made him almost chuckle. That was when Val spoke of how there was no one like him where he came from. Kim raised a brow at him. "Of course not, you're the most breathtakingly gorgeous seeker out there. There's obviously not anyone else like you. You're so full of talent in various types of fields..."

"You have a masochistic streak that would rival even the one who came up with that term in the first place. You are very compassionate and care about others more than you care about yourself. You have a poetic way with words that could melt the hearts of anyone who has the honor of listening to you speak. Did I mention you're also an extremely handsome guy on top of all that? You must be from a different planet..

Humans can't be as perfect as you seem to be." Kim said, half serious and half teasing him in the process. Yes, Kim was getting back to his old self little by little. It would take time for him to get there and remain there but at least he was showing some good signs now. He nodded when Val smiled at him, thanking him for letting him gain access to the Chamber. Even though it hadn't taken place yet. When the conversation turned to Val's new nickname, Kim let his eyes flicker over him for a few moments.

As the seeker spoke to the darkhead, referring to achieving greater heights (an ironic choice of words since Kim was afraid of heights) and finding a heavenly life with Val's assistance, he reached up to lightly caress Val's cheek. "With you by my side, I'm sure I can manage..." He murmured and gazed into Val's eyes as the seeker became animated about his previous words about what Kim had told him he liked doing on a regular basis for others. Valentin was really getting into all of this now it seemed...

Val's words made him tilt his head to the side as he considered what was being said to him. A healer? He didn't know what to say to Val's words and his enthusiasm regarding this. Kim hadn't really considered that path before. Wait, that wasn't true. Back during one of the fall balls, the one that had ended going up in literal flames, he'd stayed behind with Eun-ji. She'd healed him of his injuries and he remembered thinking this path might not have been a bad choice if he didn't have the responsibilities of bringing honor to his family name as a famous duelist. Even then it seemed he'd considered it but never had TRULY considered actually making an effort to go down that path, that is until now.

Returning back to the present when Val scooted down and laid his head down on top of his chest, Kim looked down at him.

Val's soft spoken but charming words entered Kim's ears and vibrated through his entire body. It could have just been the fact that his lips were pressed against his chest but it could also have been on a spiritual level too. As Val rose up on him and spoke of using him as practice to heal him, Kim nodded, gazing down at him. "See me as often as you can then and let me know all your quidditch dates." He told him, intending on being there to make every single one. Even if he couldn't physically go there, he'd still watch them somehow and send him an owl if need be. "I want to be with you, care for you, heal you of your injuries and make you feel wanted and safe when you are with me..."

Kim couldn't help but smirk a little at this. "Hell, I might end up becoming your personal healer later..." He said and grinned at him. "If that happens, you better pay me really well for my services!" Kim said, daring Val to challenge him on this. However long it would take for him to eventually recover remained to be seen but at least Kim was now on the road to recovery which was all that really mattered. Val was going to be instrumental in this and Kim's mental state would most likely depend on Val's commitment to him. But for now, things were moving along at a good pace. A smirk came to his lips at Val's words about his food.

"Well, I AM pretty good at cooking, not to mention baking... especially when it comes to sweetness..." Kim murmured and licked his lips a little. "Have you ever tried a little bit of spice to go with your sweetness? It really tastes heavenly..." He commented with a smile. As Val descended onto his neck and paid homage to various places, Kim returned the favor by attacking Val's own neck. By the time they were done, they had matching marks. It was proof they were one, as Haneul had said they were.

Their mouths came together again and Kim's fingers ran through Val's silky white hair. It was only when the moon above them started to go down over the horizon that they finally parted again. Val stood up and pulled Kim onto his back. Although Kim would not normally allow something like this, not being an overly touchy kind of person, he draped his arms over Val's shoulders and loosely curled them around his neck. Resting his head on top of Val's shoulder, Kim took a deep breath and let it out slowly as he just enjoyed the closeness...

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kim sato
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_{sta • 10 | eva • 18 | str • 2 | wis • 10 | arc • 7 | acc • 20}
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