Abigail Fay
- Status:
- Wizard born
- Birthday:
- 08 Dec 2008
- Nationality:
- Scottish
- Residence:
- Edinburgh, Scotland
- Function:
- First year, Ravenclaw
- Wand:
- 23,9 cm aspen wood and dragon heartstring
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black wavy hair, grey eyes, white skin, some freckles in summer, average height, maybe kinda too skinny. wide clothes, overalls, shirts, sweatshirts, but never dress, skirts, or too tight clothes. a lot of blue, black, and sometimes yellow things. a young teenager like the others. almost a ghost. Fay, it’s a lot of silence, strange looks, words write in a red notebook, few talks with nobody, weird stims, unusual things. Fay is actually the last name, not the first, yet it’s the one Fay uses. Fay doesn’t like her first name, Abigail is such a girl name. her. girl. Fay doesn’t like her pronouns either, but Fay doesn’t know it yet, because Fay is young and doesn’t know what gender identity means. so she uses her feminines pronouns and her feminine name, like if everything was okay. the only time Fay told to Dad that her name was really wrong, he laughed and told her to never tell this to Papa, so she didn’t. it’s strange because gay parents should probably know about that, yet Dad and Papa don’t. so Fay remains silent, because Fay is a very quiet girl. very very quiet. she’s also stubborn, clever, kind, and a lot of things, but people only remember that she’s quiet. so quiet that they are afraid when Fay starts to yell. or to cry. Fay does this a lot, when things are too much. it’s explosion or implosion. Fay collapses. teachers say she’s not a good student, because there’re a lot of informations Fay never understands. but, how is Fay supposed to understand anything if there’s so much noises ? children are screaming, pain in her ears. Fay can’t. school isn’t fine, but Fay still goes because there’s no other choice. Fay’s life is normal, everything would be perfect if Fay wasn’t Fay and if the others weren’t the others.
Sen says Fay needs help but no one hears Sen because he’s in Fay’s mind. it’s nothing, every child have this. unreal friend. this last weeks, Sen had used a lot of masculine words to describe Fay, and Fay isn’t sure if it’s okay or not. qomething still feels wrong. qhe — he ? — thinks it’s maybe because she’s crazy. people say she’s crazy. freak, mad, crazy, witch, idiot. it’s weird to being agitated when you’re happy, either of smiling. it’s weird to scratch your skin when you’re anxious. it’s weird to do panic attacks when you need to talk to someone. it’s weird to know perfectly three languages - english, french, spanish, soon greek -, to be able to recount a book or a poem without forgetting a word, but to be unable to do a mathematic’s exercice. other teenagers don’t really like Fay. Fay doesn’t like them either. why does Fay have to go to muggle school ? wizards usually don’t ! but Fay’s dads are Muggle-born and they wanted it. and, they still think that Fay never did magic in her life. I mean… Fay knew she couldn’t tell them that a boy have been hurt because of her. qhe thought Sen protected her this time, but no one had seen him. so… maybe it was her magic. yet, Papa and Dad would be angry if they knew that Fay’s magic hurts people, so she never told them. they thought she was maybe not a witch, until the letter came. they were so happy. and Fay… Fay didn’t know if it was an happy new. it’s strange and new, and Fay doesn’t like new things. it also means being far away from Papa and Dad. and having to talk to strangers. words are precious, strangers don’t deserve them. strangers who will never understand Fay.
actually, Fay isn’t the name Fay wants to use, but it’s better than Abigail, and it’s so hard to find another name ! Fay’d tried some with Sen, but it wasn’t fine, and it was strange because it feel like something forbidden. wrong. a freak’s thing.
well, if Fay go to Hogwarts, Sen will be here too. they’ll be able to help each other. it must be hard for Sen, to be imaginary. only Fay talks to him, but he’s always here.
Fay’s now a Ravenclaw. and it’s probably the best house for her, she thought she would be one of them. alone, without talking to other students, Fay starts to learn.
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Hi everyone ! The person behind Fay is non-binary and uses he/they pronouns, but most of all, they’re french. Indeed, I’m from the french version (poudlard.fr), and I wanna improve my english, but I’m a minor (14 years old), so, my english level isn’t very good, sorry. My apologies for all the mistakes I’ll make. But I really love english, especially because it’s so easier to use neutral pronouns. Let’s trying to write a trans character who doesn’t know they’re trans yet. Trying because writing is my passion, but I really don’t know if I’m able to write in english, so, I guess I’m about to discover !